LAST BROKEN VOW (Broken Vow Trilogy:3)

22: Lance Santibañez

" James "

Hindi ako makagalaw mula sa'king pwesto dito sa kanyang higaan. As I stare at her.. naked both body and soul.

Last time I remember, I was soundly sleeping on my deck..above her bed.

I can't find my voice.

Horrified. Maybe that was the word to exactly describe of what I am feeling right now.

Just how...how did it happen again? Bakit... Bakit nasaktan ko na naman siya?

I want to burst into tears.

I don't know anymore what to do. I don't know how to fix this.

I do not know anymore how to change this.

Rome's face is lost. She's staring at me coldly.

A while ago before I sleep, I thought that this would work between us. That finally.. I'm escaping that life together with the woman whom I want to spend the rest of my life with.

I slowly believe that finally.. I can see a brighter future with her.

Pero sa nangyari.. mas lalo lang dumilim ang lahat sa'kin.

I can't be with her.

No matter how I want to be with her in this life, but I know danger would always be at her side as long as I'm here.

I'm the threat.

I'm the danger.

I should be the one she's escaping...not my father.

Napayuko ako habang napakuyom sa kamao.

Ilang taon kong kinimkim itong damdamin sa kanya. Tinago ko ng todo upang hindi niya malaman. Pero nang makialam ang pagkakataon na paglapitin kami pero bakit sa paraang ganito?

Bakit sa paraang hindi ko lubos maisip kung kaya niyang tanggapin.

I'm a fuck up person.

All those versions of me...are fucked up.

They created chaos ever since before.

And now.. with the woman who I Iove so much.

Naluluha akong napasulyap sa kanya. All my hopes now are gone.

When I found out that there's a version of me who has an escape plan. My hopes went up because finally.. my dreams of leaving everything came true. Now with the woman that I love.

I suddenly dream of our future..away from all of this...mess.

But here we are again. .I guess it must be fate to let me realize our reality.

We can never be together.

" Lance. . help me.. escape you." Walang emosyon niyang saad sa'kin.

Napatitig ako sa kanya ng maigi.

My heart is bleeding with so much pain.

" I know... I know..." Pabulong kong sambit.

Tumayo ako. Kinuha ang aking mga damit sa sahig saka ito sinuot ng dahan-dahan.

Nang matapos ay kinuha ko yung kumot. Lumapit ako kay Rome saka ito pinulupot sa kanya.

She seem tense when I do that to her.

Napatitig ako sa kanyang mga mata.

I do not know if it is just her way of defense mechanism, but despite how she's trying to be not affected by this yet I know how she's also scared deep inside.