Koi ࿊ Martial

Evolution

"Koi" Greyson ♐️

Koi

"Ouch, sss."

I close my eyes.

Smoke in all in em.

I hold on to my joint carefully while I wipe tears from my left one. I open them and look in my rear view mirror.

I sigh and sit back.

I feel.. indifferent currently, but it's leaning...

I hit my weed.

Ive been smoking more and more these pass months.

"I'm greatful though; don't get me wrong," I say out loud with a chest full of smoke, referring to me and Marshal.

I put my hand on the top of my wheel like I'm steering, even though I'm parked... even though my car ain even on, then exhale.

I no longer feel indifferent. I feel...

I let a huge sigh go again, then carefully press my joint out in the ashtray. My phone dings before my new mood can fully settle in.

From Marsh:

"I hope you had a cool day #1."

I smile, thinking bout him and who he is. I think about how much he loves me.

I'm thinkin bout-

"Euuahhh," I ew myself, playing around.

I'm giddy and shit.

I smile for sometime before my mouth twists a bit.

Number one?

I stop my thumb from clicking his message.

Yeah, number one.

I unlock my phone, scroll, then click messages I've been trying real hard not to think about.

Hella VM's.

I press play and start listing to the voice messages I sent to her after I read the letter she gave to Marshal. My heart drops when I hear how angry I was.

Was?

"Sea! You out yo mind! Resh was finna get sent home because of you and Biege and now he's gone because of you and Kam!"

I look out the window for a moment while fighting off a spiritually unclean feeling inside me. The messages keep playin.

"No way... no way... I gave yo ass-you... not Resh not Grandmaster, you- I gave you the responsibility to hold Marshal's sword and you go around me to Grandmaster, then Marsh like I ain shit. Like-like... like me and you ain hip to hip nigga. Then you run off because of what, guilt? You feel guilty for punking out? I would too!"