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"Sea" Gazella ♓️
Sea
I blow air outa my mouth, tryna prevent a tantrum.
I know I still have debt in our relationship Resh, but I'm doing this. Grandmaster said what he said.
"I told Grandmaster I was in love with Resh... I asked him why didn't he do anything if he knew that I messed up. Grandmaster knew that I was in love with you; Grandmaster asked me what was I going to do about it?" I get off my chest.
So guess the fuck what?
"I'm finna finish doing sumn about it," I start my voyage of calling these hotels yet again.
On god and if he's mad... I just hope he gets over it and understands. He's usually so understanding.
"I love Resh and a lot of the times he's right, but I just don't agree. I don't care..." I wipe my tears.
He's pushing me away... for growth, but-
"... but what if his evolution needs me? I know mine needed him. Even then, I made some great choices I needed to on my own..." I take deep breaths.
Confidence fills me up. Fight fills me up.
Love is filling me up.
"...and I'm making this one! We'll just have to beef; I'll still do my best to be truthful, explain, and prove myself..."
I love you and you love me too Reshy. We love each other
"Mmm," I moan from sadness, wishing I could tell Koi.
He'd definitely know what to do dealing with this. I can't call Koi, especially after leaving lotus the way I did. I haven't answered his calls or texts and he... he left me that voice message and-
I try my best to keep my feelings in check.
"I'm-asking-Resh-for-advice on it... when I can," I put my hands on my head.
Resh is gonna be so mad... because I left... I technically been lying and-
"I can't do this anymore... dang!" I cross my arms.
Damned if I do and damned if I don't most likely, but I'm finna do what the fuck I think I should do, high vibrationally.
I suck up my tears and move to the second to last Paradise Suites hotel in the state. My phone rings before someone answers.
"Hi... I'd like to confirm a delivery for Mr. Resh," my voice shakes a bit.
"Mr. Resh?" They ask; I hear clicking and typing.
"Yes ma'am," I fake happiness.
"Yes, all set," she says.
Woah...
My chest gets tight.
Que?
"Huh?" My dumb ass asks in shock.
"Mr. Resh... Resh Kami..." she says.
"Yes," I jump up happy as shit.
Oh, oh, oh- It's magick!
I start jumping around and tapping my feet real fastttt.
Wait... calm yo ass down Sea.
"I mean... yes ma'am. Thank you," I try to cover up my joy.
"No problem; have a beautiful day," she says.
"You too," I say in total disbelief.
I did it...
"Bye," she hangs up.
I watch my phone go back to the Google search page. My lips part and my eyebrows lift while my smile grows. All I can think about is Resh. I start screaming and jumping around, straight fan girling.
My voice gets super high while I squill and jump in the bed face first. I wiggle my legs while screaming face first in the cover. My eyes get watery.
Where's Waldo head ass. I found youuuu!
"Damn!" I punch the bed.
I pull out my phone and go to photos of him.
Some of em he doesn't know I have.
"Oh my god... my big, brolic, boo thang," I laugh while letting my emotions run free in such a great way.
You're gonna be so upset and I'm sorry; Koi is stressed out; I'm sorry about that too...
I sigh.
I honestly feel ashamed... new shame mixing with the old, but I'm trying.
I hold my phone to my chest, looking forward to me and Resh being together again.
Don't reject me... please. I'll pray that Koi forgives me too. So me, Resh, him, and Marsh can all be together again. Us and Grandmaster Awkanatwe.
