Standing in your way

Chapter 5

"Fuck off" I strech out my arm to close the alarm clock, I turn around and check the time, it's half past seven. I get up from my bed and go to the bathroom, the bright light bothers my eyes. I look at myself in the mirror, i have quite noticeable dark circles under my eyes due to the score I had to rehearse. Well in reality it's Lydia's fault

I wash my face and brush my teeth, the i decide to apply some concealer to make myself at least a little presentable, then i pick the outift.
I decide to go for a green shirt and black trousers, really simple. I make a french twist for my hair and I'm ready to go

God I'm really tired because the lack of sleep, I think I need some coffee. I drive to Starbucks and get a takeaway coffee, I drink it all in my car and then drive to rehearsal. Last night i tried to understand and learning the piece, but it was too difficult to learn it all in one night. I wonder what the consequences will be, if there will be. I enter the room and it was still empty, how can I be so early?

I take out my violin and the score that i printed, I try to play it again, maybe something has improved. I hear the door opening and I gasp thinking it was Lydia

"Hey, goodmorning" Kristine says to me approaching

"Hey how are you?" I ask her

"A little tired but everything is fine thank you, you?"

"I haven't sleep well this night so I'm really tired" 

"Oh I'm sorry about it" 

"Don't worry" in the meanwhile Lydia enters the room, and as she does it silence falls accross the room

"Goodmorning" she says 

"Goodmorning maestro" me, Kristine, and a few other people that were in the room responds to her. She takes off her coat and puts her sheets on the  lectern, she prepare all materials for the lesson

"Kristine uhm, i was thinking of when we could go to get a breakfast together" I say breaking the silence trying to keep my voice as low as possible, probably failing because Lydia's eyes falls on me, scanning my face for a few seconds as i feel her eyes burning on my skin

"Oh uhm what do you think about tomorrow morning? If you're free of course"

"Yeah that would be amazing for me, where do we wan-" "We're not here to talk about dating or something, shut your mouths and rewatch the score"

My voice was interrupted abruptly by her, I see Kristine frightened withdraws into herself, submitting to Lydia's orders and taking out the score. Now, i was really pissed, who the fuck does she think she is that she can interrupt our conversation? This woman drives me crazy in a bad, really bad way, she treats me like shit and I bend over backwards for her!

As a response I roll my eyes at her, appositely when our eyes met, she raise an eyebrow at me and then she proceed to ignore me like nothing just happened

"Goodmorning everyone" Lydia speaks to all the people and then we start the rehearsal

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"So let's leave it like this for tomorrow morning, right?"

"Yeah of course!" we resumed the conversation that had been interrupted by Lydia. I was leaving the room with Kristine, when all of a sudden a voice, her voice, stops me

"Miss Benedetto stay behind" I stop on my way and I smiled at Kristine and told her I would see her tomorrow morning. Then after she left, we were left alone, all alone. I clear my throath due to nervousness that was starting to be felt

"By the way, you can call me Helena" I say to break the ice, there was a thick tension between us and it was almost unberable 

"I'll call you wathever I want" she says sternly "anyway let's settle this quickly, I hope you went trought the score yesterday and that you know how to play it" in the meantime I sit down at my seat and take out the score, she slowly approaches me stopping a few steps away with her hands in her pockets, forming that attractive posture of hers

"Yesterday night i really tried to learn the piece, but I'm not sure about it"

"Let me see" she says smirking a little. I swallow the lump in my troath, and with my sweaty hands i start to play the score but, as expected I stop halfway. She scoffs at me and shakes her head negatively 

"I said to you tha-"

"Wasn't the message clear?" she rais her eyebrow 

"Uhm, yes it was" i forrow my eyebrow

"Then why didn't you learned the piece?" she tilts her head waiting for a response. She was fucking pissing me off for real this time, I couldn't handle to be treated like this anymore

"Because you knew really well that it's impossible to learn this piece in only one night" i speak trough gritted theet

"Don't talk to me like that again" she starts coming in front of me

"And you stop being a bitch" we were face to face, she was taller than me so i was take back a little by this, but i still remained firm on my posture. She looked at me head to toe, then met my gaze and for the first time I saw her eyes up close: they where like an ocean, a deep blue color mixed with some light blue, forming an icey blue color. Suddenly my heart start to beat fast and my breaths started to become shorts, what was happening at me? 
My eyes travel from her face down to her figure, to her collarbone slightly exposed by the few buttons that were undone, her chest that was dengerously close to me, not much but enough to drive me crazy. She takes out her hands from the pockets of her pants and God, those veiny powerful masculine hands that certainly do wonders. 

I shake out from my trance and realize that i was being very obvius checking her out, so i lift my gaze and immidiately met hers

"You are lucky, very very lucky that you have talent and skills otherwise, if it was for you, you wouldn't even have come in here" she clenches her jaw and keeps looking at me for another seconds, then she suddenly turns around and go back to her position, keeping distant from me 

"I give you one, and i repeat, one last warning, after that you'll be out of this immidiately" I listen to her closely, I really don't want to lose this position that I have worked hard for many years

"You better go home, and train this score" she says pointing the paper that was laying on the lectern "I want you to leran it perfectly by next Monday, it's Wednesday, make sure you do it" she picks up her coat and her scarf putting them on "Understand?"

"Yes maestro" i drop my gaze to my feet, scared and flustered by her dominance attitude 

"And you better drop that brat attitude" she says heading towards the door

"See you tomorrow Miss Benedetto" she says coldly leaving the room 

"Goodbye maestro" I say almost in a whisper. Why she made me feel like that? I never felt such intense emotions around anyone, maybe only around Abigail. Oh fuck, I forgot totally about her, I've always had Lydia on my mind these days that I don't even know what happened to my girlfriend, I need to call her

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"Hello?" she says with a bored tone

"Abigail"

"Oh look who's back" I exhale closing my eyes, don't respond to her provocation Helena

"Abigail listen to me, come home we really need to talk"

"And talk about what?"

"Can you come home? I'm fucking asking you to talk and work this out, please" 

"Uh God, I'm coming" she shuts down the calls in my face, keep calm Helena otherwise it will end up like last time . I start my car and go quickly towards my house, I really need to hear explanations and above all, apologies

Pulling into the driveway I see that her car is parked, she's already here