Standing in your way

Chapter 29

Finally, after days of total lack of self-care, I managed to get the situation back in hand.

The most problematic part was obviously ignoring her, but she helped me with that too, so.

At today's rehearsal we didn't even look at each other, every time my gaze moved to her by mistake, hers were fixed elsewhere.

Even now I can't get an idea of ​​the fact that for her I was just a pastime, I don't know why I was able to attach myself so easily and quickly, but I did. I
would be lying if I said I got over it completely, even though we were nothing I still feel like she broke something inside me.

Sarah is helping me a lot, she always tries to keep me company and cheer me up.

Despite all the ups and downs I have, she stays here with me.

Tonight we decided to go out with some of her university friends, I've never met them but she assured me that they are very nice and similar to me.
I don't really feel like going out and meeting new people, but that's probably what I need right now.

Getting new people into your head to let others out

"Zip up my dress please" Sarah stands in front of my mirror with her back to me, I grab the zip and close it

"The dress looks good on you" I say looking at her, she turns and smiles

"Thanks, it's new, I've never tried it before" she says, straightening the folds of the dress on her thighs

"What do you wear instead?" she asks me

"I don't know" I shrug looking at her, she hums and starts searching through my closet

"Skirt or pants?" she asks me

"Pants" I reply, leaning with my back against the bedroom wall while I wait for her

"How about this with.." she hands me a pair of pants with one hand while continuing to search with the other

"This?" I grab the trousers and the t-shirt, it's a simple deep blue silk shirt with black trousers, I nod

"Yes, it's okay" I go to the bathroom to change, even if I'm familiar with her I don't want her to see my condition in this last period

"What do you think?" I come out of the bathroom and stand in front of the mirror observing the whole look, she turns, looks at me for a few seconds  and then smiles at me

"Beautiful" I smile at her and grab my boots, tonight I have no desire to wear heels

"I put on makeup and I'm there" I go to the bathroom to apply a line of eyeliner, some mascara and some concealer.
While I'm combing my hair I also notice a deep red lipstick , I grab it and put it on, why not

"Let's go" I tell her, closing the lights, she's driving tonight so no car keys. We exit the house and head towards her car, it's really cold outside

"Nervous?" she asks me as she starts the car

"No, why?" she points her hands at me, I look down, God again with this tic

"Oh no, I swear it almost comes naturally to me now" we laugh together.
After a few minutes of car karaoke to our favorite songs, we arrive at the club and go inside

"Here, my friends are at that table" she points to a table not too close to the dance floor, grabs my hand and we go towards them

"Hi guys! This is my best friend, Helena" she introduces me to the group, everyone smiles at me and says hello. I sit next to Sarah, in front of me I find a friend of hers