Standing in your way

Chapter 4

"Goodmorning everyone"

"Goodmorning maestro" this time i greeted her to, i understand that if i really wanna stay here i have to stay at Lydia's rules. Anyway, yesterday i praciteced my piece and i can say that i undestrand that but I still have a loto to improve. I hope that Lydia is good to me and dosen't yell at me 

"Did you all went trough the score that i sent to you yesterday?" she asks looking among all. We all nod at her as a response

"Good so let's start the piece" and with that we start the rehearsal

After only 3 minutes I'm starting to lose the rhythm, there's this part of the score that i didn't understand well so I can't continue 

"Stop, stop" Lydia says while looking at me "Helena why are you out of time? Did you actually go trough the score yesterday?" she raises an eyebrow

"Yes maestro but-"

"What" she interrupts me with an annoyed tone

"If you let me speak, maestro, I'll expleain" i reply with an ironic smile. I see Francesca's eyes widen at my words while i hear some gasps around the room. She clenches her jaw and looks me straight in the eyes while pointing the door

"That's it, go home" the stern, deep voice made me shiver. She isn't looking at me anymore but she's still pointing the door

"Sorry?" i reply with a small voice

"I said Go. Home. Right. Now!!" she yells at me with all her fury, I start shaking with fear while i pick up my things and leave the room. As soon as i left the room i started breathing badly, I'm still shaken from the yesterday's fight and I definitely don't need anyone else yelling at me right now. I fortunately took with me this morning my inalator, so i gave a few hits and calm myself down before hading towards my car. Why does everything in my life has to be fucked up?

I decide to clean my head and I text my bestfriend Sarah, she always know how to calm me down and how to make me think with a clear head

"Hey Sarah, are you free atm?" (H)

"Yes, why? Want to meet?" (S)

"Can you? I really have to clean my head" (H)

"Sure, at the bar near to your house, 15 minutes and I'll be there" (S)

"Ok bye"(H)

I drove to the bar and picked up a table for us, then waited for her to arrive

"Hi Hel, sorry for making you wait" Sarah approachs me and sits down 

"Oh don't worry"  I give her a smile

"So how it's going in the orchestra? Shouldn't you be at rehearsal now?" she asks me as she waves to a waiter to come and pick up our orders

"Yeah, I should but this morning she kicked me out of rehearsal because I messed up a piece of the score" I roll my eyes at the thought, god i really hate this woman 

"Damn she's a real bitch" our conversation is interrupted by a waiter 

"Hello, what can i get for you"

"Uhm for me a milkshake and some pancakes with maple syrup"

"Ok and for you?" the waiter asks watching me 

"Oh for me nothing thanks" I smile to him "You sure Hel?" Sarah asks me giving me a worried look "Yeah I'm fine" 

"Okay" the waiter goes away

"Why don't you wanna eat anything?"

"I'm not hungry, really" i try to convinve her that everything is fine but you know, she's my bestfriend so she always understands when something's off

"Helena don't lie to me, did something happened?" now she was really worried

"I just- I had a fight with Abigail yesterday" my gaze shifts to my hands, Sarah places her hands on top of mine. Sarah never really liked Abigail, but she know that she makes me happy so she just accepted the fact that we're together. But now i can see why she dosen't like her

"And why you had a fight?" I took a deep breath

"This last few months our relationship has gotten a lot worse, we don't talk anymore, we only see each other for dinner sometimes, and everything is just fucked up. I wanted to confront her but she thinked of it before me so she sent me a message yesterday after rehearsal and asked me to come home for a talk" the waiter interrupts me as he places Sarah's plate and her milkshake on the table

"So i went home and we started talking, but it suddenly became a fight because i asked her if she had another persone besides me. She denied at first and she said that i was crazy, then she threw a mug at the wall and it broke into pieces. At the end she confessed and said that her lover was way more better at sex than me, then she left the house and she didn't come back since" I put my face into my hands felling tears forming in my eyes

"God i fucking hate her, so she cheated on you?" 

"Apparently" Sarah shakes her head from right to left and exhale

"Hel I'm really sorry for you, you don't deserve this, she dosen't deserve a beautiful person like you" 

"And now even at the orchestra Lydia started yelling at me too, I can't deal with this shit anymore"

"I understand but entering this orchestra was your dream right?"

"I guess so"

"So don't let her throw you down, give it your all and show her what you're capable of and she can go fuck herself" that made us both laugh, I'm lucky to have  a friend like her, she always says the right thing

"But tell me more about her, you know i've seen some interview of her and she is charming, she's a beautiful woman"

"Sarah are you a lesbian?!" I say with a fake shocked face, she rolls her eyes at me laughins

"Well, she is for sure a mesmerazing beautiful woman, the first time i met her I stared at her for 2 minutes without saying anything, you know i was checking her out, but her behavior!" I wide my eyes "She is a total bitch, she is cold, stern, she never smiles and she shouts at everyone! She wants to control everything and everyone, and of course beacuse she is the mestro, but she can be kinder!" Sarah laughs at my words and I let out a chuckle too

"Thank you so much Miss Benedetto for giving your opinion about me and next time I wouldn't speak so loudly" that's her, the deep voice behind me. I could recognize this voice among a thousand others. I froze immidieatly in the place 

I turn my head around and she is walking away from the bar, fucking hell she heard everything I've said about her

"Oh my god" Sarah says looking at me and covering her mouth with her hand "Girl you're dead" she shakes her head. 

"In fact? I really don't give a shit if she heard me, I just told the truth" I roll my eyes. It's the reality, I really don't care, she didn't like me anyway

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I came home after one hour and i heard a notification on my computer. I grab it and open the app, it was an email, an email from Lydia.
What does she wants now? I was actually scared to open it, what if it was a communication saying that she kicks me out of the orchestra? 

I open it and it was a score, another score. She left a message with the score

Learn this piece for tomorrow, if you don't know how to do it there will be consequences. 

I forrow my eyebrows and open the score, fucking hell it's impossible to learn it for tomorrow it's really difficult, but i guess I have to try anyway. 

Now I'm really scared of her, what will be the consequences?