Standing in your way

Chapter 6

(Hy everyone! Wanted to warn you that this chapter is mostly smut. Good reading<3)

"You're finally here" wow, good way to be welcomed

"I was at rehearsal" I drop my things to the floor 

"Yeah anyway, let's work this out quickly, I don't have times for bullshit"

"Oh so you think that our two years relationship is bullshit?" I was shocked by her affirmation

"No Helena, I don't think this" she exhale "I don't want to argue anymore, please, can we just carry on as before? I'm tired and I want to be with you" she smiles to me, a kind smile, trying to manipulate me to get forgiveness, but this time it won't work

"Oh so you're the tired one, you left me alone after you slapped me and i passed out for two fucking hours! I was alone, alone! What if something happened?" I was shouthing at her, I broke down in tears unable to handle all this stress. Her face was pure shock, she had no idea that all of this happened

"What the hell? Did you really pass out for two hours? Why didn't you call me?" she was scared, I could see that tears were forming in her eyes

"Because I though that you would have come home, but God, I was wrong" I am crying and hiding my face, suddenly i hear her arms embrace me, she keep me close so much that I could hear her heartbeat increase

"Darling I'm so sorry" she rests her hand on my head while i keep sobbing in her chest, I really don't wanna be in her arms, but they give me so much comfort right now

"I'm a shitty person, I know that this month I've neglected you so much and I am so fucking sorry for this. Can you please forgive me? I understand if you don't" I know I shouldn't forgive her for everything she put me trough, but my love for her goes above all of this, I want to give her a second chance

"I want to repair all of the damage, will you let me?" she says letting me go from the hug, I nod my head

"Yes, I want you, I want to spend my life with you" I say drying my eyes

"I know darling, I want this too" she says cupping my face and leaning for a kiss. Our lips met after months and it felt magical, the butterflies in my stomach were going crazy, God i missed her touch so much.
The kiss was gentle, our lips slowly melt together, our tongues dance together, quickly it became more deep, more passionate as we moved to the bedroom.

She sits on the bed and straddles me on her lap kissing me in the meanwhile, I am so turned on right now that I'm sure that she can feel my wetness. Her lips moves to my exposed neck as I throw off my shirt and stay in my laces bra, her hands play with the straps finally pulling them down very slowly leaving me topless for her

"Fuck, I missed you" she easly finds my sweet spot as i run my hands in her dark hair, I moan at the pleasure mixed with pain. She flips us, so I'm lying on the bed and she is on top of me, her hands rests on my hips playing with the hem of my pants

"Take it off" she does exactly what I asked also taking off my panties, leaving me all naked. She looks at me while her hand runs on my inner thight leaving me desperate to be touched. Finally i feel her fingers circling my clit and quickly entering me, thrusting with a slow pace, I moan as a response for her actions

"Faster darling" the pace she was going at wasn't enough so i borrow my hand to my clit and start to circle it for adding more pleasure and for helping me to reach my orgasm. She was looking between my legs all the time, i tried to kiss her but she turns away . I didn't pay much attention to it as I was immersed in pleasure and very close to my orgasm

"Oh God I-" i try to warn her but my words were cutted by a moan wich let her know I was coming. She didn't say anything, she just takes out her fingers and licks them off my arousal while i ride out my orgasm by myself. I wanted to taste her, to return the favor but she had other plans

"I'm sorry baby I have to go, I was meeting with a friend to eat something, see you tonight" she kisses me on my forehead and walks away leaving me all sweaty and naked on the bed. I was flustered, I can feel that even the sex wasn't the same anymore but i push the thought away, having to accept the situation as it is.
I realized a while ago that vanilla sex isn't really enough for me, i was a natural submissive person and all i ever dreamed was a dominant partner in bed, but I wasn't really lucky to find it. Don't get me wrong, the sex that I had with Abigail those past two years was amazing of course, but I know that if we had used BDSM practices it would have been even more beautiful.

After nearly three months of abstinence from sex, one orgasm wasn't enough to fully satisfy me. I was still naked on the bed so i just run my hand down to my core finding my clit and circling it. I shut my eyes and tried to think about my girlfriend, her hands, her body, but no, it wasn't turning me on. Suddenly my mind goes back to this morning's events: Lydia's face being so close to mine, her collarbone showing off, her naked neck and mostly her veiny strong hands. I started to imagine what her body was like under those hot clothes, her breasts cupped gently in a bra, her playing with her panties before taking them off

"Fuck!" i cried out thrusting inside me, I'm feeling so much pleasure right now to the point that tears started to form in my eyes. My mind was fixated on Lydia: how her nipples would harden at my touch, how she would taste, the face that she would make while I'm eating her out and, God, how those slim fingers would feel inside me stretching me out while sending me in a coma

"Oh m- oh my god" i feel as my second orgasm was approaching, this time it was so much intense than before. I imagine that Lydia was there doing all the work, thrusting her fingers deep inside me, curling them hitting my spot while talking me trough it. I was a moaning mess and the worst thing that it was all because of her

"Lydia!" i moan her name while i feel my walls clenching around my fingers, i take them out and circle my clit riding through my orgasm. I exhale exausted laying back on the matress, my legs were shaking, and I was drenched in sweat, i really needed a bath

As i enter the warm water realization starts to hit me: I masturbated while thinking of Lydia, what the fuck are my problems? But not matter how wrong this feel, I can't deny the fact that it was the best masturbating session that I had in years, probably in my whole life

The only thing I know for sure is that I will never look at Lydia in the same way again, tomorrow when I will see her I will probably blush like a tomato thinking about today and all the dirty thoughts about her