Standing in your way

Chapter 41

I open my eyes and the first thing I see is her, what more could I ask for?

I am currently trapped in her arms, I feel her sweet breath beating on my neck, I slowly try to move without waking her but as soon as I feel her breaths getting deeper I understand that I have failed.I watch as she moves a little and then finally opens her blue eyes, which go straight into my soul

"Morning" she tells me in a sleepy voice, her slightly messy blonde hair is the perfect frame for her face

"Good morning" I reply smiling and hugging her, she laughs and grabs my cheek leaving a small kiss on my lips

"Come on" I say, climbing on top of her, the blanket that covered our bodies now falls away, I lean forward, grabbing the sides of her face and leaving her a good kiss.

"How did you sleep beautiful" she asks me, pulling away and putting the lock of hair, which was covering my face, behind my ears

"Very good" I reply, she smiles at me and places her hands on my wrists which are resting on her bare abdomen, then she looks down and  her eyes fill with concern at the sight

"What is it?" she asks me, sitting up, resting her back on the headboard of the bed, I look down confused, not understanding what she was referring to

"What do you mean?"

"Your wrists" she tells me in a worried voice, lightly grabs both my wrists and brings them close to look at them better, her eyebrows furrow

"Darling, did the rope hurt last night? Was it too tight?" she asks me, looking for mine with her eyes, I shake my head

"No, absolutely, it was perfect" I reply smiling but she exhales

"You have light bruises, it wasn't perfect" she replies, I place a hand on her cheek

"Lydia listen to me, it was perfect, really. It was the best sex I've ever had, believe me" I tell her smiling, I see the worry go away from her face as her muscles relax, leaving room for tranquility

"Anyway, I don't want it to get worse, I have a special ointment, let's get up" she replies, so I get up from her and we both get up and head to the bathroom.

She opens a shelf under the sink and takes out a red tube, I stand there looking at her leaning against the door jamb

"Here it is, give me your wrists" she says to me, I do as she says and starts applying the fresh cream all over the surface.
I frown at the cool sensation, she delicately passes over all the points, also leaving a light massage. Once the application is finished she gives me a kiss on the forehead and puts the tube back, I smile.

"Thank you" I tell her.

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"Get ready for 10, we'll go shopping" she tells me sitting on the sofa next to me, I smile and stand up but she gives me the slip making me fall back onto the sofa on top of her, she bursts out laughing

"What a fool you are!" I tell her, laughing with her, then I sit up but a sudden pang hits my abdomen

"Oh shit" I place a hand on my stomach and lean forward slightly

"Everything ok?" she asks me, I nod closing my eyes

"Yes, but I think I got my period" I tell her, looking into her eyes and then getting up, checking that I haven't soiled her

"In the bathroom there are some tampons and pads on the shelf from before" she tells me as I head into the bathroom, take them and check. Fuck it, it's him I release a sigh as I put the pad on my underwear, then once I'm done I return to her

"is it your period?" she asks looking at me, I nod without saying anything

"Oh, come on, so today we're going to buy a lot of stuff and above all food, what do you think?" she asks me as I sit back down next to her, I bring my legs to my chest and rest my head on her chest, she hugs me with her arm

"Mm no"

"So you mean to tell me that you wouldn't like a nice slice of cake with strawberries and cream?" she says, teasing me, I smile and roll my eyes, snuggling even closer to her.

After a few hours we left and went around the shops, I picked up some essential things to stay at the house for a few days, so a toothbrush and pads.Then obviously also some clothes, clothes for staying at home, for going out and also pajamas, one for summer and one for winter.

Obviously we argued this time too about who should pay, she wanted to pay but she doesn't know that I gave her some money back anyway and put it in her wallet. We then had lunch outside and in the afternoon we returned, between some cuddles, desserts and films the time flew by faster than expected, arriving in the evening destroyed by tiredness and pain.

As soon as my cheek touches the pillow and my body connects with hers, my eyelids slam shut.

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"Baby I don't want to go back" I say pouting to her, she exhales laughing putting the last bag on the back seat too

"We have to, we'll go back to work tomorrow" she tells me, placing a hand on my cheek and leaving me a quick kiss, I blush and get into the car

"I've had a great time these two days" I tell her as we've just left, through the mirror she looks at me and smiles, caressing my thigh

"Me too, I hope you had fun" she tells me

"You're joking, it was the best birthday weekend of my life" I tell her, looking out the window at the frost sitting on the leaves of the trees, it's freezing today.

"I'm happy that the surprise was a success" she replies, I smile at her and return immersed in my thoughts.

I was thinking last night that my brother is getting married very soon, in about three months.
I'm not psychologically ready to see my brother get married, but I have to do it anyway since I'm his bridesmaid.

"Have you ever been to a wedding?" I ask her, breaking the silence that had formed

"Of course" she replies, squeezing my thigh

"Why this question?" she asks, I give a shrug

"My brother is getting married in three months" I tell her, she nods raising her eyebrows in surprise

"How beautiful" she tells me, I let out a laugh, who knows if I'll ever get married.

"And how do you dress for that?" I ask her, she snorts

"Elegant, a nice long dress would look good on you" she replies, I let out a hum of approval

"How beautiful you are when you wear those clothes" she whispers softly, I could barely hear, did I hear right?

"What did you say?" 

"Nothing" she replies quickly, as if she realized what she said.
I turn my head towards the window and blush.

After about an hour we arrived at my house, I wanted to bring back my things that we bought together but she told me that she wanted to take my toothbrush and my pajamas to her house, so that when I stayed to sleep at her place I would have things.

The toothy smile I walked back into the house with, I think speaks for itself.

As soon as I close the door of the house behind me I throw myself on the sofa staring at the ceiling, what the hell does all this mean?

Why so many signs?

Why all this attention?

And then that comment...

I absolutely need to hear Sarah's opinion

"I'm back, come to me, we need to talk" I text her quickly, then throwing the phone on the bed.

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"Oh my god" Sarah exclaims holding her cup of hot tea in her hands, I let out a laugh

"I know, it's been a fantastic couple of days" I tell her, she laughs taking a sip

"And I also imagine what fantastic activities you will have done" she says, I tap her on the shoulder laughing

"Just think, I even got my period because of how hard we made it" I tell her, she bursts out laughing, spitting a bit of tea on me too

"Helena!" she exclaims

"Come on anyway, I seriously need to take stock of the situation"

"Mh" she replies, I exhale putting my hands on my face

"Do you think she has feelings for you?" she asks, I shake my head

"I don't know, the only thing I know is that I definitely have feelings for her" I say exhaling and closing my eyes, I feel his hand on my shoulder caressing me

"Helena" Sarah calls me, I look up and meet hers

"Why do you say it that way?" she asks, I frown

"Because it's wrong" I tell her

"What's wrong?"

"She and I can't be together, she's my boss, I'm not her type and-" I stop in the middle of the sentence, I feel my breath catch in my throat at the thought of what will become of us

"You are not her type? Helena, what the bullshit are you talking about? I don't think so from the way she treats you" she tells me laughing, I remain fixed looking at the floor

"She herself said that she absolutely doesn't want anything romantic with me"

"And she herself acted as if she really wanted it" she replies, silencing me
"Come on, don't get all this paranoid, try it, try it and then if you see that it goes badly, forget it" she tells me, I laugh

"As if it were easy to forget someone like her" I tell her, looking at my hands

"I don't think you'll have to anyway" she replies, shrugging and finishing her cup of tea