Standing in your way

Chapter 11

I was angry? Yes. Sad? Absolutely not.
Our relationship was now beyond repair. During this two days she came to MY home begging me to forgive her and give her a second chance, but the only response she got was "go fuck yourself". And to think that she even had the courage to accuse me of cheating on her, what an asshole.

I haven't heard back from Kristine, I saw that she tried to text and call me, but I never answered. Not because I was mad at her, I don't blame her for any of this because she didn't know Abigail was my girlfriend, I just wanted to take some time for myself. I didn't even reply to Sarah

The only things that I did these two days were go for long walks, watch movies, and of course also rehearsed the score. From this moment on I wan to give the best of me, no more distractions or useless relationships that take up my time, I want to show Lydia that she's wrong.

Speaking of her, today we have rehearsal in the afternoon so this morning I was able to sleep a little more and above all rehearse. 

"What can I wear today?" I squint my eyes looking around my wardrobe, I don't know whether to choose comfort or elegance but I think I'm going for the second option. I pick up a slightly tight black dress that reaches just above my knees and heels that are not too high. I look at myself in the mirror and smile, this dress is truly amazing. 
I've had problems in the past regarding my body, I can say that I've gotten over it now but the cheating with a girl thinner than me certainly dosen't help. I shake off that useless thoughts and going to put on my coat ready to go. As I was grabbing my car keys they ring the bell 

"I hope it's not that one" I open the door and I find myself in front of a bouquet of red roses, a head pops out from behind the flowers

"Good afternoon miss, I have this flower deloivery for you" he handle me the bouquet, I already know who the sender is 

"Thank you" I smile to him and grab it "Bye" he leaves

I take a look at the roses and find a note "forgive me please, I can't live without you baby" I laugh to myself, crumpling the note. I get into the car and place the bouquet on the seat next to me

"But when you fucked her you didn't miss me" I say to myself pulling over to the first garbage can I came across. I throw away the roses and head to rehearsal

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I'm preparing the violin for the lesson, there aren't many people yet and Lydia hasn't arrived. I hear the door opening so I turn around and I instantly meet Kristine's gaze as she stop's on the spot when she sees me. I lower my gaze to my violin pretending to be busy fixing it so she can leave me alone, but of course this didn't work

"Helena" she gently calls me sitting in the chair next to me that belonged to a member who had not yet arrived

"Yes?" I look up and meet her face with a sad and worried expression, I can tell she feels guilty

"I swear I had no idea, I met her in a pub one night, we danced together and then-" she was looking to my arm unable to handle eye contact, i see that her eyes are watering, I feel bad . She stops and swallows leaving me to understand what happened that evening. She was desperatly waiting for me to say anything

"I know, I know it's not your fault-" she suddenly bursts into tears

"I fucking ruined your relationship how it's not my fault" she looks up to me, her eyes are red and her hands were shaking, I wide my eyes at her condition, she was in a really bad state 

"Kristine please listen to me" I get on my knees in front of her and put my hand on her wrist trying to get her hands off her face. The scene captures the attention of the people around us ad apparently also Lydia's one who had arrived without me realizing it