Standing in your way

Chapter 7

I slept very well at night, I really needed some sexual release after almost three months. In the morning the alarm went off earlier than usual since I had to meet Kristine for breakfast before going to rehearsal. When i woke up the left side of the bed was empty, I guess my girlfriend didn't go back to sleep last night either. 

Right now I'm driving to the bar where we are supposed to meet , I'm actually very happy to meet with Kristine, she's a nice girl and she's kinda cute. I park my car and enter the bar, I see her sitting at a table with her back to me, i gently go to towards her and as I get closer I notice that she was texting with someone, I try to look on the screen but I can't see well

"Hy Kristine" I sit in front of her, she drops her phone 

"Oh hello Helena, I din't hear you coming"

"I'm a quiet person!" I wink at her laughing

"So how are you? How did you sleep?" she asks me with he gentle smile that shows her dimples

"I slept well thank you, what about you?" of course I slept good after masturbating at the thought of Lydia

"Oh all good thanks! Anyway, what do you want for breakfast?" she sais passing me the menu

"Uhm i don't really know, I heard that here they make some really good pancakes, I think I will try them" I look at the choice for toppings, I always pick raspberry

"Mh I don't know, I don't eat sweets for breakfast, I think I'm going for an avocado toast"

"Oh good choice" I nod at her while closing the menu

"Do you like it?" 

"Oh yes, I really love avocado, I could eat them at every hour of the day" we laugh together and in the meanwhile the waiter comes to us asking what we want to order. While waiting for the food we start talking about ourself for knowing eachother 

"So Kristine, how old are you?" 

"28, and you?"

"26" 

"Really? I thought you where older, I mean not in a bad way" she blush at the statement "Oh don't worry! A lot of people tell me that I look older" 

"Good to know" she looks at the table and then her gaze meets mine

"So, are you single?" she asks with a slight smirk

"Mh, I can't really define the situation right now, I have a girlfriend from almost two years but right now things are quite complicated so I don't really know" her smile slowly fades away

"I'm so sorry Helena, I didn't want to open a sensitive topic" she puts he hand above mine on the table, she's warm

"Don't worry it's not a sensitive topic for me, I can talk about it well" I smile 

"And you? Are you in a relationship?"

"Uhm at the moment no, but I'm seeing a girl and you know she's cute, I hope we turn into something more" she drops her gaze and blush at the thought of the girl

"I'm sure you will succed" 

"Thank you" In the same moment a message pops out on her phone, she quickly garb it and responds. I was only able to see that the contact begins with A, but I couldn't read the name. I guess it's the girl that she's seeing so I don't want to ask anymore questions. 

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After we ended breakfast we went to our cars and head to rehearsal. As i was driving the shame starts to make itself felt, how could I think those things about Lydia? And now how will I face her without becoming red as a tomato? 
I can try to think about her differently, I'm sure that her behavior today will instantly turn me off, at least i hope it will

"You ready to face the monster?" Kristine whispers to me as we enter the room, I let out a small laugh. Only a few people had arrived, I see Francesca standing in her station, I want to greet her

"Hey Francesca"

"Hey Helena" she gives me a warm smile, she's always so gentle

"How are you? The last time you didn't come"

"Yeah I was sick, but now here I am!" 

"glad you recovered" as we where talking we didn't notice that Lydia entered the room and that she was right behind me. 

"Goodmorning Lydia" Francesca sais looking at the figure behind me, I turn around and see that she was looking at Francesca, as i face her, her gaze locks with mine

"Will you move?" she rais an eyebrow indicating her station wich I was now occupying. As i expected my face turned red as a tomato right at the moment i saw her

"Oh uhm, yes, sorry maestro" I quickly go away and return to my station, while felling her eyes burning at my back

"What happened?" Kristine asks me concerned

"N-Nothing why?" I shake my head a little and smile shyly, good I'm not credible at all

"Your face is red, are you feeling okay? Did you have a fever?" she stands up and comes closer to me putting her hands on my forehead and the other one on my waist. My face turned automatically to Lydia and to my surprise she was looking at us, but as soon as i meet her gaze she looks away to her paper

"You're not warm"

"Kris I'm ok, don't worry" I put my hands on her forearms

"Okay, if you need anything I have some painkillers" 

"Ok thanks" I don't need painkillers, I need hornyness killers. I try to recompose myself, I don't want Lydia to think that I'm scared of her or something 

"Goodmorning everyone, let's start, it's already late" she checks the times on her watch. Let's say that her outfit it's not helping with my situation, she's wearing a fucking suit that hugs her body perfectly and underneath a shirt obviously unbuttoned at the top and with the sleeves  half pulled up.

Keeping my eyes fixed on her face is pratically impossible, i let my gaze wander around her body checking her out

"Helena?" everyone was ready to start, they were waiting for me. Fuck why do I had to check her out? She was watching me, always with a raised eyebrow, her look was killing me, she defenitly saw me looking at her body. I swiftly pick up my violin and nod at her, letting her know that i was ready to start. She nods and exhale

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"Ready to go?" I say to Kristine while waiting for her 

"Yes I'm ready" we start to head out of the door "Uhm actually, can i go to the bathroom, I'll be fast i promise" 

"Yeah of course, did I need to carry something?" I offer to her seeing that she had many things in her hands

"Yes, can you take my phone and my bag, thank you" she hands me the things and disappearse behind the bathroom door. While I was looking out the window, lost in my thoughts, her phone buzzes pulling me out of my trance. I ignore it at first, because obviously it's not my buissness, but then it buzzes another time. Curiosity prevails and i give in, i turn around the phone facing the screen and see who's texting her, that was probably her soon to be girlfriend

Abigail<3

I frown at the name, what a coincidence.
I quickly turn off the screen as I hear the toilet flushing, after barely a minute she's out

"Thank you so much" she picks up her things and we leave the building. I say goodbye and leave entering my car.