Standing in your way

Chapter 38

After talking to Francesca I took Helena and told her to go to my house.
I needed to get my mind off all the thoughts and worries and I know she would be the only one who could do that by now.

Now she is lying in my bed, the first light of dawn coming through the window slightly illuminates the room, allowing me to see her naked torso half covered by the sheet, her breasts showing slightly.

I remain still at the end of the bed looking at her, looking at the decision I have made, I have to accept that from now on there will no longer be any Therese or Anne, only Helena.

I don't want to think about the situation right now, so I tie up my sweatshirt and get closer to her, I silently lean over her and leave a kiss in her hair, she moves slightly at the contact but continues to sleep peacefully. A smile appears on my face.

I grab my house keys and headphones and then head out for my morning run.
I love running in the morning, it's practically the only moment of the day when I'm alone at peace with myself, it's when I think about everything and everyone.

Except these last few mornings, I haven't really thought about everyone, I've been thinking about one specific person, since she doesn't seem to want to get out of my head.

I never heard from Nina again after that little discussion, perhaps out of fear of admitting that she was right, admitting that there is something that attracts me to Helena, or simply admitting that Helena attracts me.

I stop panting on a park bench, a very specific park given that without even realizing it I ended up in front of the old apartment I had with Sharon.

Some mornings I happen to think about her too, who knows what has happened to her now.

After a few minutes I get up and start walking home.

Entering the house I notice that everything is in order and as silent as when I left a few hours earlier, Helena must not have woken up.

I take off my shoes at the entrance, leaving them there, I slowly make my way towards my room, the sunlight now illuminates practically the entire room.
I approach the bed placing a cold hand on her warm naked back, I feel her muscles contract at the contact and her back arch slightly, then she slowly turns around leaving me with a full view of her naked breasts.

I bring my lips close to her neck leaving a few delicate kisses, after a few hums her eyes slowly open

"Good morning" she says to me in a sleepy voice, I look up meeting her eyes still half closed from sleep, her lips curved upwards

"Good morning babe" I tell her smiling, she grabs my face and joins our lips in a quick kiss.
I lower myself towards her lips to leave her a good kiss, she comes closer so that our lips barely touch but then she immediately moves away.
I raise an eyebrow

"Mhh are you starting in the morning already?" I whisper in her ear as my hand goes down between her legs caressing her inner thigh, she throws her head back

"Come on" she says in a desperate voice at the loss of contact of my hand with her thigh, I let out a laugh and capture her lips leaving a nice kiss

"It's time to get up" I tell her, getting up from her, she sits up and takes the sheet off completely, tries to cover herself with her hand on her most intimate area

"Here" I say, passing her her underwear, she grabs them and quickly puts them back on, I turn around to not look at her, understanding that she is embarrassed.
I wait for her to get dressed and then we go to the kitchen together

"What do you want for breakfast?" I ask her as I open the fridge

"Nothing, thanks" I frown and turn around