Standing in your way

Chapter 37

How can I tell someone I'm fond of to never see each other again?
Stopping seeing Therese is like a breakup, not in the sense that I have feelings for her but by now I've developed a physical attachment to her that I can't let go of.

On the one hand I have her, who simply knows how to calm me down when I need it and take my stress away.

But on the other hand I have Helena, an easy person to attract and above all a person who attracts me, despite all the things about her that I don't like.

I don't like her character as a child, always ready to throw tantrums and not follow the rules, I don't like how she rebels against me and behaves like a brat, I don't like any of this part of her.

Yet there is something that keeps me coming back again and again, and even though I hurt her, disappointed her, and used her, she welcomed me back as if nothing had happened.

The decision was difficult but unconsciously I have already made it, so I enter Therese's apartment with the double key she gave me, I had warned her that I would come by so when I open the door I find her sitting on the sofa with legs attached to chest.
As soon as she hears me she raises her head and smiles, I smile back too but a dull one

"Hey baby, is something wrong?" she asks me, getting up from the sofa, I put the bunch of keys in my pocket and remain standing, she comes closer and places her hands on my shoulders

"Take off your jacket" she tells me starting to take it down, I stop her

"No, I just have to talk to you, it will be quick" she frowns, laughing, then she distances herself from me and sits down again

"So?" she asks me crossing her legs, I sigh looking at her, she's wearing a simple night shirt with little coverage and underwear, it will probably be the last time I see her like this

"We have to end things" I tell her in a low voice, my gaze moves from her body to her face, the corners of her mouth slowly move downwards, one of her hands grips the handle of the sofa

"Lydia are you kidding" she asks me, widening her eyes, I stay still looking at her then lower my gaze to the ground

"Lydia" calls me with a trembling voice, I hear her get up from the sofa and come closer, my head rises suddenly as well as my hand grabbing her forearm

"Lydia what the fuck are you talking about" she tells me almost whispering and grabbing my arms, I close my eyes and push her away from me

"Therese" I say looking at her, she shakes her head and lets out a little hysterical laugh starting to wander around the room, my eyes follow her

"We can't go on like this anymore" I tell her, raising my head, she suddenly turns to look at me, her eyes bright red from tears and anger

"Has the problem arisen now? We've been going like this for almost a year Lydia" she runs a hand through her hair looking at me then sits down on the sofa throwing her head on her hands, my breath gets stuck in my throat at the sight of the scene

"We can't"  I tell her

"For who? Who isn't okay with this?" she asks me, jerking her head up, her cheeks have taken on a red color

"It doesn't affect anyone else"  I tell her, shaking my head

"Are you sure? Then why this change" she asks looking me directly in the eyes, I release a heavy sigh remaining silent, she lowers her head and bursts into tears again

"You never understood, never" she whispers between sobs, I frown, not understanding what she's referring to.

"What?" I ask her as I approach her, I sit on a seat on the sofa next to hers but not too close, she raises her head looking at me, then smiles bitterly