Standing in your way

Chapter 22

I recoil slightly at the sudden closeness of our faces, as much as I am attracted to her I don't deny that it still scares me to be so close to her.

I put my hands on the sink behind me to support me, she does the same, trapping me in her arms and towering over me. My throath closes, blocking my breathing 

"I'm afraid you can't go any further" she smirks at my nervousness, I can't even maintain eye contact.I look down at our almost intertwined legs

"Look at me" my gaze doesn't move even an inch

"Don't make me repeat myself darling" she comes close to my ear putting my hair behind it 

"You know I don't like it" she whispers, I feel her breath on my neck and I'm sure she can hear my heart pounding

"Don't tell me what to do" I decide to tempt her with a sense of confidence. Quickly she straightens up and slides one leg between mine, bringing her knee into contact with my center, I let out a gasp at the sensation.

"Behave" she says sternly, this time I look up and meet her gaze, her eyes darkened. I smirk

She intensifies the contact by pushing her knee, I release a whine, this time she is the one to smirk

"You're always so tempting" she puts her face close to my neck, I throw my head back to give her access, she attacks immediately

"Fuck" I whisper into her kisses left under my chin

"You always seem so fuckable" she whispers into my skin, this time I let out a moan at her voice and actions

"Lydia" I almost moan her name, I'm a little ashamed to let her see me in this state but I'm desperate for her, so I don't give a fuck

"But I guess you already have someone to fuck you" she suddenly moves away from me, I furrow

"What are you talking about" I grab her wrist to keep her still

"The one at the table with you" she removes herself from my grasp and puts her hands in her pockets looking at me, I laugh

"That's my best friend" I grab her wrist again and pull her closer to me

"Please Lydia" I say in a desperate tone 

"What" she looks at me in my eyes, I don't even think about it for a second and I throw myself forward, smashing our lips together.

Her hands return to my hips with a tighter grip than before, my hands cup her face.I was hungry, hungry for her, hungry to finally find a release from all the tension that had built up between us. Our lips dance with a fast rhythm, she tastes like red wine.

I decide not to give up so easily so I pull away after a while, our breathing labored.I push her slightly away from my body, she doesn't try to hold me there, I don't even turn to look at her and leave the bathroom

"See you tomorrow at the rehearsal, maestro" and so I leave the bathroom with a smile on my face and my cheeks painted red, which does not go unnoticed by the woman in Lydia's company as she looks at me and raises her eyebrow.

I sit at the table, Sarah looks at me confused

"What's wrong?" I bite my lip not knowing whether to tell her or not

"I kissed her"

Lydia's pov

I watch her walk out of the bathroom through the mirror, God she drives me crazy.

I look in the mirror and fix myself, I remove her lip gloss from my lips.

I leave the bathroom and return to my table, Anne has a disgusted face

"What have you done?" she tilts her head to the side and looks at me through half-closed eyes, I sigh

"It's none of your business" I quickly reply, grabbing my glass of wine, she scoffs

"Don't bullshit me, Lydia" she tells me sourly

"I saw how toothy that bitch was smiling" she looks towards their table

"Don't call her that" I spit out, God I can't stand this jealous side of hers, we're not even together, we just fuck, she's just a stress reliever for me but she hasn't figured it out yet

"Like you don't call her like that while you're fucking" she smiles sarcastically

"We're not fucking, stop" I clench my jaw

"Are you kidding me or what? I can see it Lydia, stop lying like you always do" she's starting to piss me off for real, I feel my bllod starting to boil in my veins

"Enough" I get up from the chair, she looks at me surprised.
I put my hand in my pocket and take out my wallet, taking out some bills.I leave them on the table and leave the restaurant --------------------------I see Lydia get up and leave, the woman remains sitting in her place sipping her wine alone

"What happened?" I ask Sarah, since she has a better perspective than I do

"I don't know, she seems angry" she whispers to me, alternating her gaze between me and her. Suddenly she gets up from the chair too, leaves the money on the table and approaches us

"Is she coming?" I ask Sarah, she nods. I turn to the woman

"I strongly advise you to stay away from her" I hear her annoying  voice again, she looks me up and down

"Leave me alone" I roll over, she places a hand on my shoulder

"If you still haven't understood it, for her you're just a disposable toy, she'll fuck you and then abandon you" she laughs evilly

"Definitely," I say, not wanting to let her know that her words are destroying me

"Believe it dear, she just told me. You know we have an open relationship and she told me you're good for a fuck but nothing better" I feel tears welling up in my eyes

"Go away" Sarah says as she gets up from her chair

"Of course, have a good day" she smirks and walks away, as soon as we are alone I let the tears flow

"Helena" Sarah tells me as she approaches me and hugs me

"Don't believe her" she tells me

"Sarah, they kissed, she was at her house" I cover my face with my hands.
 A few minutes ago I was on cloud nine, now I come to find out she's just playing with me, great

"Yes, but you don't know what relationship they have" she tries to reassure me

"She took her out to lunch, she cooked her breakfast, it's obvious they're together" I shoo her away, get up from the chair and get my things

"I want to go home" I tell her, wiping my tears, she nods

The ride home was silent, I was absorbed in my thoughts and Sarah was worried about me.Now I'm on the sofa watching some TV, I don't know how I should behave with her honestly. The thing that disgusts me the most is that she even had the courage to tell me that they are not together, for what purpose?

Just to fuck me, of course

I grab the television remote and click the off button, I get up from the couch and go to my room to get some sleep.

Tomorrow morning I will decide what to do