Club - a Breddy Fanfic.

107) Jealous

"Holy fuck." Brett says, once his breath has finally steadied to a more comfortable rate. He feels like never before.

"You can say that again." Eddy agrees breathlessly.
They lie flat on their backs besides each other waiting for their wit to form a coherent matter again, covers somewhere at their feet, their pants elsewhere in the room to be found later.
After a full minute Eddy turns, kisses him hard on his mouth and puts his head on his shoulder. "That was fucking hot." he sighs with content.

Brett sighs with him. In all these years he has never had such an experience. Didn't know it was possible to be so indescribably close to someone without poking his dick into the other. Eddy has shown him so many different ways to feel good together. It's just epic. But it makes him wonder...
"It was clear that I haven't done this before, but have you?"
Just as he hears himself say it, he suddenly realises he doesn't really want to know the answer to that question. He would like to have this just between them, no one else. But now he's asked he has to wait and see what Eddy says.

"Not from this side." Eddy nuzzles closer.

Brett blinks rapidly to process this. So from the other side he did?
He knows it shouldn't put him off like this, because of course he knows Eddy had men before him, but he can't help feel the sting all the same. Because it's not only that Eddy did this with someone else, but knowing Eddy he must have loved that person as well. He can't help almost literally going green with jealousy.
Eddy must see his face fall, because he squeezes him softly.

"What is it?"

Brett shakes his head sideways to get the unwanted thoughts out of his system. He knows it's not fair to think this way, but it's hard to not think about it. He swallows. A few seconds pass, but the green eyed monster is quite reluctant to leave.

Eddy squeezes him once again. "Brett? Tell me?"

Brett contemplates what to do. He wants a relationship built on honesty. No secrets. For the first time in his life he does. But this is not a nice side of him. What will Eddy make of it?
"I'm just feeling very jealous for a moment." he shrugs. "Is that stupid?"
He feels Eddy gaze on him while he weighs him. Oh, shoot. Maybe he shouldn't have said it.

"No." Eddy says seriously. "I am jealous of all the girls who have been with you as well, so why not the other way around? I think that's quite healthy."
Brett feels the shrug and he kisses the top of Eddy's black hair. That's true, of course. It's not that he hasn't been sleeping around before he met Eddy. He's been much more promiscuous than Eddy even, so he shouldn't be the one to complain. The significant difference is that he knows that his hook-ups have never meant anything. It was just a way to satisfy the urges of his body. Nothing more.

"It has never been like this with anyone but you, you know." Brett says quietly towards Eddy's head, positioned meaningfully on his heart which has a space curved out for him already. Does he know that? "Never."

"Same."

They lie there peacefully for the longest time. Suddenly Eddy scares the hell out of Brett by coming up quickly and leaning on his elbow. He leans over to get into Brett's vision and wiggles his eyebrows.
"You know what? You didn't slip away from me this time." he quasi teases and kisses him softly on his mouth.

"No, I didn't." Brett smiles his most heartwarming smile. Eddy is right. He didn't think one second about painful memories from the past. Where would he be without Eddy? Presumably spiraling more and more. It's weird, but now it feels like those memories happened a lifetime ago, so blurry that they might have happened to someone else. To someone he used to be, but isn't anymore. He doesn't know how to say it yet, but it's like those past hurts are not really his anymore. He feels light, the burden on his shoulders lifted. He can only hope he can be as important to him in return, one day.

"Shower?" Eddy asks sweetly, breaking Brett's train of thought.

"Definitely."

Eddy gets up and takes Brett's hand to pull him up as well. Then suddenly he scoots behind him, one leg on each side of Brett hips and hugs him tight.
"Thank you for trusting me." Eddy whispers softly, his chin on Brett's shoulder.

"Always. I'm trying. Thank you for not giving up on me." Brett squeezes his arms closer. "And now let's shower. I'm sticky AF."

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