lunch, caitlin clark

28 | 3 weeks before

tell me why i made articles willows number one opp

taylor's apartment | march 15

We won our conference like we were supposed to. However that didn't manage to fix anything. During our celebration they wanted us to wear Caitlin tshirts and I wouldn't. Not to be that girl but now I really don't want to get caught in her shirt.

I'm staying at Taylor's right now because I can't stand the thought of being in the same room as Caitlin right now.

Honestly the fact that she wanted to change her image wasn't that got me. Sometimes you listen to those around you too much and see a problem where there isn't one. But then she went through with it without telling me about it.

The whole world thinks that article is true. The sad part is that the article was right. I haven't been playing as good as usual and Caitlin seems to be thriving.

At least my bad is still on level with her good.

No wait that's really petty. Pretend I didn't think that. It is true though.

Everyone is telling me to talk to Caitlin about the articles and Connor but I can't. I took Betty with me and she hasn't been too sad about not seeing Caitlin so neither am I.

A'ja has been in constant contact with me and is just giving me advice about things. Which I appreciate because she's definitely got more experience than I do.

I'm supposed to be asleep right now but I can't seem to shut my thoughts down. My phone has been ringing nonstop and you'll never guess who has been trying to talk to me.

It's been a week on the dot and I'm still struggling to process everything.

If she was afraid of her image then why did she wait for us to be out to the public for over two months? She never acted like it was a big deal. Which makes me think that it wasn't her thoughts that made this happen.

Not her thoughts that wrecked our relationship.

But it was still her. I just feel as though she's should have seen my feelings and realized how genuine they were. That I would have done about anything she wanted me to do.

The sun is coming up again and I find that I didn't sleep at all last night. My thoughts seemed to be yelling at me and my heart seemed as though it couldn't calm down.

Does that ever happen to you? You're trying to settle down and sleep but your body doesn't want to let you. It's really annoying let me tell you. It's been happening for a week.

I actually have a practice today with the team since we have a game in one week. I think it's against Holy Cross but I haven't been paying attention in the huddles so.

You guys should be proud of me though. Because I don't pass to Caitlin the other girls have been scoring more than usual. Which helped me break a record for most assists in a ncaa game. Look at me go!

It didn't really matter because one of the two people I wanted to celebrate with kind of stabbed me in the heart. However, I need to give her my ear. I need to hear her out soon but until I've come to terms with everything I don't think I will.

The talk needs to happen before the games start up again. I just need to clear the air a little and I have a week until I absolutely need to do that. Might happen before, might not.

Since the sun is up it's finally appropriate for me to be up as well. It seems like the perfect time to get a coffee for Taylor and I. She won't be awake until I come back anyways.