The Maia and Ross Diaries 2

C43 - Black Friday

"Maia, he's missing! You have to help me find him, I know something's wrong! Something's not right."

Dear, Journal

I write in you a lot again because ... lately I feel like my thoughts have been too much for my head, too much to say aloud.

Austin's eyes are now blood shoot but he is still managing to get around, you already know his heart is broken and he's going mad like the rest of us, he is trying to find a reason to keep going back to that beach house where he lost his only will to live. What do I tell him? To move on when I couldn't move on from my own love because despite all the worst things that could come this person is your life. When they leave everything ... distinguishes into one big array of emotions that you can't control. They own your heart while it breaks.

Love is like that. It isn't what I thought at all. You know, cheesy and corny. Happiness, flowers, accidental booty calls. But it's devastating. Difficult. Painful. Life changing. And if your lucky it's extraordinary.

But we are all wrong about love at some point. We confuse it for ice cream and then we get hurt.

But that never means you should give up. Real life only comes in shades of grey... So I do what I can do. Help Austin find Riker, the light.

Maia

"Accidental booty calls." Ross laughs behind me leaning his head on my writing shoulder. I'm seated in the front of our bed figuring that I shouldn't close the journal now since he's probably read everything by now. I smile lightly lifting my hand behind me to his cheek. I pinch it.

Somehow he reacts back sliding from his position behind me on the bed and his body slides over my head. "No!"

My screams are hysterical and it makes him laugh even more at the whines, I can feel his bare chest contently pounding into me everytime he laughs.

Ross and I take in the last few hours of normal we can get with Shor and Charlotte. With each other. I shouldn't complain, oh but I'm doing that aren't I? Ross and I stand in there room. cuddling them back to sleep.

I love being there now. I used to be so distant and silent to my friends and even family for parts of the year and your mistaken if you thought my silence wasn't noise. My silence was the loudest scream but now I'm ice cream. I'm in the clear, a clean slate. Especially since I've compared myself to ice cream.

"Something sinister is going on with Austin and Riker." Ross blurts out. "Those rainbows were meant to be."

I look over to him, rolling my eyes back to Charlotte in a huff while cooing over her. "Your daddy's crazy. Isn't he? Yes he is."

"No." Ross interrupts me. "You're not good at that."

"Thank you, I'm very grateful you're a honest person now." I retort as he smiles at how defensive I've gotten.

He places Shor in his crib walking over to me while I raise my eyebrows. He's now breathing over me like a um, weirdo I guess. It's weird. My eyes widen while he continues to stand above me. "Isn't honest sexy?"

As soon as I catch on my eyes shrink to normal and I smirk. "You never stop, do you?"
"You don't either." He winks at me. I hold Charlotte up to Ross' head and lift her to where she sways to politely kick Ross in his eye with her little toes. I make a small blowing noise. "Whoosh."

He holds her foot back and takes her into his own arms. "What's the matter with your mother?" He whispers to Char getting back at me. He adds. "A lot."