His Favorite Student | Levi Ackerman x Reader

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Levi leaves the doctor's office with a baffled look on his face. The vasectomy didn't work. He was still capable of being a father. Your baby was his.

"What have I done?" He keeps mumbling to himself over and over again. 

He sits on a bench with his head in his hands. "Y/n, I'm so sorry."

...

Meanwhile, you were recovering well at the hospital when you jolt up suddenly remembering something. 

"Jean" you mutter. By now, Zeke surely told Eren about Marco. It was likely Jean would know any minute now.

"I have to go" you whisper to yourself. (A/n: Serena Van Der Woodsen core) 

You see Colt still asleep in the room and carefully unhook yourself from the various wires and IVs in your body. You change out of your hospital gown as quietly as you can in the restroom, and leave without disturbing Colt. 

You call a cab back to campus and hope to get there before Jean finds out the truth about Marco.

You have the driver drop you off about halfway between Jean's apartment and Levi's house. Luckily, you happen to see an angry Jean storming towards Levi's house. You were right..he already knew.

"Don't try to stop me. Your boyfriend's a fucking murderer" Jean seethes. 

"Jean, please just wait. Hear me out for a second."

"I don't want to hear it. That piece of shit gave Marco the drugs that killed him. He deserves to feel how I'm feeling right now."

"Jean, as fucked as it is to say..Marco was depressed. If he hadn't been able to get his hands on those drugs, he would have simply found another way. He didn't want to be here, Jean. That's not your fault."

"What the fuck do you know about Marco?!" Jean screams. "Don't talk like you knew him. I loved him. I fucking loved him and now I have nothing. I am all alone! Are you fucking happy?!" 

You started crying at this point. Jean already had hot tears dripping down his face. You were sure your interaction was attracting some attention, despite it being nighttime. 

"Jean, I'm not happy. The last thing I wanted was to see you hurting like this...but Levi didn't do it on purpose. He was selling a product and Marco was buying. He needed the money. Simple as that."

"What to pay for whores like you?"

You swallow back the insult and bite your tongue because you know Jean is in pain. That one definitely hurt. You try to refocus the conversation.

"I may not have known Marco, but I know Levi and he wouldn't wish what you're going through on anyone. You don't have to forgive him, but you need to at least understand that he never wanted this to happen. No one did."

"Why are you defending him so hard? What the hell do you know about loss?" Jean shouts.

"A lot" you say before you can bite your tongue. "I just lost our baby."

Once those words leave your lips, Jean stops in his tracks.

"You what?" He says softly.

"I was pregnant with Levi's baby. Zeke ended up putting his hands on me and I lost the baby. So, yes. I do know about loss."

"Y/n I-" Jean says choking up. "-I'm sorry. I didn't know."

Little did you know, Levi was on his way to what he thought was still your apartment...not realizing you moved off campus. He overheard everything and stood still in shock. Staring blankly at the scene unfolding before him.

"I love Levi, Jean. If you bring this to light, you'll ruin him. You'll ruin me. Please don't make me lose anything else right now. I don't think I can bare it."

"Fuck Y/n, I'm sorry" Jean cries wrapping his arms around you. "You're right. It's not his fault."

You decide to leave out the fact that the only reason you went to Zeke in the first place was to protect Jean from this pain. He didn't have to know that much. It would only make him feel more guilty. 

You and Jean both shut your eyes tight and just held each other for a bit. It felt good considering the heightened emotions you both were feeling. You open your eyes, still hugging Jean, and see Levi staring back at you. 

"Hi" he says lowly.

"Hi" you mouth, surprised to see him. 

"Can we talk?" He mouths back. 

You nod and indicate you will be a minute with your hand. After you and Jean finish talking, you make your way to the all to familiar house of your favorite professor. 

You enter and you see Levi with watery eyes with his head in his hand. It was clear he'd been crying. He looks as though he hasn't slept a wink since you left. With his PTSD, he probably hadn't. 

"Y/n I don't even know where to begin" Levi finally says. "I went to the doctor today. My vasectomy didn't work."

"Well, it must not have since I haven't slept with anyone else" you say matter-of-factly. 

"I'm the biggest idiot in the world."

"You just might be."

"Y/n, I am so unbelievably sorry. I shouldn't have started throwing accusations around without being sure it was impossible to get you pregnant. You never gave me a reason not to trust you. I was insecure and stupid. Will you ever forgive me?"

You take some deep breaths and process what he just said.

"I get why you acted the way you did, but it doesn't me it didn't hurt."

"That's completely understandable" Levi says calmly. 

"I really needed you Levi and you weren't there" you say starting to cry. "I really fucking needed you."

You clutch your stomach and feel the pain in your heart across your entire body. You still shudder at the absence you feel after losing your baby. It's an indescribable ache you can't fill. Levi's tears flow down his cheeks and he looks at you. 

"I kind of overheard you and Jean. You lost the baby?"

It was a question but you could tell he hoped he misheard. You glance at him and slowly nod. 

"What happened love?" He asks holding your hand for comfort. 

You slowly tell him everything and you can see his face contort in pain upon hearing what Zeke did to you. He maintains his composure, but you know Levi is seething inside. The guilt is eating him alive at the fact that the only reason you went to Zeke in the first place was to protect him. 

After hearing everything that happened, Levi knew there was a lot about himself he had to work on. You deserved so much better than who he was right now, and he was determined to do anything he could to become the man he needed to be. 

Levi was ready to be there for you the way you needed. He never wanted to see you hurting again, especially not because of him. He would do better for you. Be better. He had no other choice. He loved you more than anything this world had to offer. 

A/n:

unedited.