Tere Liye .....

chapter 28

Pankhuri pov.....

A sob left my mouth as I took my little human in my arms .
He is so tiny ....so soft and pinkish.....

Mujhe dar lag raha hai kahi mei isse hurt na kar du ....I whispered to him and he smiled wiping my tears .

Haan toh laa mujhe Dede ...under confident aurat ...he said making me pout .

Ma'am .... you can breastfeed him now .....The nurse said and I turned red.
I will turn my face but I won't go away.....He muttered and I closed my eyes .

I know this stubborn man ....he won't go ...
I opened my gown buttons and took out my right breast but still I didn't know how to breastfeed and on the top of that my baby is very fragile.

I looked at the nurse feeling embarrassed and she understood my delimma.
She parted his mouth a little and I put my nipple in his mouth.

He tried to suck it very lightly but milk didn't ooze  out .
I looked at the nurse again .
She squeezed my breast a little hard squirting out milk from it making me hiss .
Kya hua ....he asked.
Kuch nahi ....I muttered slowly.

Aapko starting mei thoda asse hi karna padega ....usko dheere dheere aadat ho jayegi  ...she said and I nodded .

I fed  him and my eyes turned glossy seeing him .
After sometime he was full and slept again.

I buttoned my gown and asked him to turn .
Soo gya ye phir se....dhud hai ki bhaang .....He commented wipping the baby's chin making the nurse laugh while I glared at him .

We looked at his sleeping figure ,adoring him before nurse took him away and laid him in the glass incubator.

I hugged him as we came back to the room .
Mere rone ka mann ho raha hai ....I muttered.
Mann toh mera tujhe maarne ka hai ....par kar nahi sakta ....he said making me groan .

Jaye apne office .....aapka har time muje maarne kar hi mann karta hai ....I said getting away and he laughed.

Shaam ko kahi bahar leke chalunga tujhe ... doctor se baat ki hai mene ....you can go out ....He said and I grinned.
He squeezed my cheeks before plopping a kiss on my forehead.

Will see you in the evening...he patted my cheek and I nodded.
Kuch chaiye toh text kar dena .......he stated and I hummed.

I never expected my life could be this beautiful too after Maa .
But he made it beautiful.....and ofcourse my little cutie.

I love him ....I do ....I have accepted my feelings but I won't ever tell him this .
I know he loves his wife and my confession will only drift me away from him .

He will go away ....and I never want this . I will always keep loving him secretly.
His presence, his care , him being around me is enough for me to lead my life happily.

I do not Desire for anything else . What I am getting is more than what I have ever imagined.
I don't want to lose anyone  of them at any cost ....I thought as I Folded his t shirt.

I took a bath and changed to my normal clothes. Now that I am little better I prefer wearing my own clothes rather then those hospital gown that makes me feel sick .

I had some fruits and then start reading the book that he got for me a few days back .

I was feeling sleepy after reading few pages .
I shut the book and kept it away and my thoughts wandered to him again.

I was lost in my thoughts thinking about him ....how he teases me , flirt with me , kiss my forehead, how he listens to everything I share with him ......how can I not fall in love with him .