Without you - Nikki Sixx fan fiction

Ch33 Going with the flow (Smut m/f/m)

*****This chapter details a three some and is told by a narrator

**Told by narrator smut male/female/male

Once Nikki got Beth into a bubble bath, he got in with her. He
started kissing her back as he was rubbing her hips. "I want you to
know that no matter what happens tonight I will love you. As much as
I hate talking about it. I know this is payback for the hell I put
you through. I want you to relax and be yourself. I'm not going to
think of you as a whore and I want you to know this is ok with me."

She turned in his arms and faced him. She put her arms around his
neck. "If it happens when you want to do a foursome lets just do it.
Nikki I've always been pretty good about reading you like a book. I
know what you want and how you feel. I say we go with the flow for
once together." He smiled and they kissed.

Once they got dressed which Nikki just put on a pair of jogging
pants and she put on his black silk shirt and underwear. When she
came out after brushing her teeth Nikki was lying on his stomach
with his head at the foot of the bed watching MTV.

His shirt swallowed her whole. It came down to just above the knees.
She grabbed the brush in the bag and when she bent over in front of
Nikki he noticed what she was wearing. She started brushing her wet
hair and she seen him now sitting up in the mirror on the wall
drooling. "What?" She said turning around.

"Um didn't Tommy pack any of your night clothes?" She started going
through the bag. Nikki had long brought in the room out of the van.

"Mm unless you want me to wear this, no." She said holding a black
teddy up. Nikki got up and started going through the clothes. She
stopped him and wrapped her arms around him. "You don't think this
is sexy?"

"It's very sexy. I didn't think that shirt could look anymore sexy."

"We'll buy some PJ's in the morning. I like to wear some of your
clothes sometimes cause your scent is on them. Nikki I've been
thinking I'd like to be your manager what you say? I can make
sure...."

He pulled her close to him. "No offense but um no. If you were to be
my manager I think we'd have more problems. I know you got a
business to run with the clothing line baby and I don't want you
stressing yourself out over trying to get us here and there. All
that shit. I love you but you know I like to keep the band separate
from us. Just like the clothing stuff its separate from us." There
was a knock. "That must be Tommy. Remember just be yourself."

He opened the door while she sat on the bed thinking about what she
wanted to do suddenly becoming nervous. She could sense Nikki was
having doubts. She started thinking about writing again. She had
loved writing when she was in school but gave it up the day she
meet Nikki.

She thought Nikki was a good writer and she knew he'd do great
things with his writing now that he was sober. She took Nikki's
notebook out and pen. Tommy and Nikki were busy talking both nervous
as hell.

She went to start writing but when she opened the book it was
filled with Nikki's chicken scratch. She seen he wrote about seeing
his mother sometime before Theater of pain tour. She read what it
said, 'That bitch is just as bad as my mother. If I could get the
court to give me and Lita custody of Nick I'll stop getting so
fucked up. Why can't she see I need her? Just like my mother and
father she's abandon me and our son.'

Nikki turned to see her with his notebook opened. She started
flipping through the pages like crazy all having writing scratched
on the pages in big letter, 'BITCH, ABANDONED, WHORE, ALONE, AFARID,
FORGIVE ME, HELP ME.' She looked up and their eyes meet. "Is this
how you feel about me Nikki?"

"Baby I was fucked up and angry when I wrote some of that. It's not
meant for anyone to read but me. I was just getting my feelings out.
Why you looking in it anyway?" He said sitting by her and handed her
a beer. She looked at him. "I wasn't calling you a whore. Its how I
felt about myself."

"I left you and Decker. I didn't know your mom c..."

"Beth can we just not talk about this shit please. I know why you
committed yourself and I'm grateful you did. Not only did it give me
time to know my son but it gave you time to make peace with
yourself. You have made peace haven't you? Don't feel guilty about
what you did cause at lease we're alive." He took her hands in his.

"I wanted to write something. You know I use to be a writer."

"I know here use this. This one's empty." He handed her another
book. "How about I burn this one?"

"You don't have to."

"I want to. I don't want to really drink this shit. I don't need it
to relax. Here why don't we put this up for now? Let's get on the bed
and relax." She smiled at him. She picked up the brush and made him
sit in front of her on the bed. "You know I seen Vince at the hard
rock fucking drinking." He said as she stared brushing his wet hair.

"Maybe Vince is having problems with Sharise." Beth said. "You know
I love your hair when it's not all bushy."

He laughed and Tommy sat at the table drinking his beer all to
himself rolling his eyes. He kicked his shoes off. "Guess we'll have
to get Vince to talk. How do you know he's having problems?" Beth
pulled the brush through his hair pulling his head back so that he
was looking back at her.

"Don't know just a guess. Heard her yelling in the center two days
before they let you all go. I didn't mean to pry but everyone heard
her yelling at him to give her more money." Nikki rolled his eyes.

"Enough talk about that. Honey can you be less aggressive with my
hair there."

"Sorry baby." She tossed the brush and Tommy stared at them. She put
her legs beneath her and sat on them. She started massaging Nikki's
shoulders. He closed his eyes enjoying the massage.

"Now that I look at you two you fit so well together. The light red
in your hair really makes you glow. I've never notice how much you
two complement each other. I sometimes wonder if Heather and I got
married just so we wouldn't be alone." Tommy got a sad look on his
face and Beth sat up on her knees.

"I know lets play truth or dare. Great way to break tensions. If you
can't do the dare then you must drunk a full can of beer in one
breath which means no sipping it."

"Ok but no dares of touching him or anything." Nikki said and Tommy
shook all over making a nasty face.

"Ok in that case sine I know the two of all to well no nasty dares
on my part. That means no dares of trying to see what I can stick up
my pussy." She pushed Nikki seeing the evil grin on his face in the
mirror. He started laughing. "Yeah I've heard all about the shit the
two of you pulled. Still think you need to ditch Doc. He's going to
fuck you guys over."

"Ok no more talk about the band. Tommy put the beer down and you
start this little game." Nikki said a bit upset clicking off the
TV. He laid across the bed on his stomach his head now facing the
table Beth and Tommy sat at with his elbows on the bed and his hand
on his face.

"Ok Beth truth or dare." She smiled and decided to go a safe route
for now.

"Truth."

"Chicken shit." Nikki said laying there.

"Is it true you ate Lita out in front of Nikki?"

"Yes and we did more then that." Nikki remembered the tape and
jumped up. He picked up the tape and looked at it. She seen him with
it. "My turn. Nikki truth or dare."

"Dare." He blurted out forgetting the tape a second and picking up
his smokes.

"I dare you to play that tape there in your hands." He dropped his
smokes and looked at the tape. His face turned red and Tommy sat up.

"What's on the tape?" He said curious.

Nikki smiled at her. "Yes let's find out what's on this tape. Think
she's been a bad girl. What you think Tommy?"

"I have nothing to hide unlike some people." Nikki put the tape down
and found a hidden VCR. He plugged it in and put the tape in. He sat
on the bed and pressed play. This is the scene that played out on
the screen before them.

On the TV, 'Nikki and Tommy were cuffed to the bed and Heather
whispered, "These are our lovers after a night of partying. What you
think we should do with them Beth?"

Beth giggled going in front of the camera. She undid Tommy's pants
and Heather giggled as she undid Nikki's pants. Camera's put down
and Heather comes over to the bed. View is blocked for a bit and
then when the girls move and the camera picked up again. Tommy's
hand is down Nikki's pants.

"I think their to fucked up to move." Heather said.

"Watch this." Beth said giggling a little. "Oh Frankie fuck." Heather
started laughing as Nikki started moving and Tommy's hand started
moving.

"Mm baby right there." Nikki moaned.'

Back to room. Nikki and Tommy's eyes watched the TV and then looked
at each other. Tommy jumped up and took the tape out. He held it in
front of Beth. "That was a low down dirty trick you and Heather
pulled. You both knew we were fucked up. I thought I was jacked
myself off." Beth laughed.