Without you - Nikki Sixx fan fiction

Ch67 Summer vacation of 1994

**********ALL WARNINGS APPLY SMUT

Nikki- After the show that night in New York. God I just had to slap
myself everytime I wonder off the beaten path. That night was a
killer. I went through the entire box of condoms mainly because it
had been so long. That I'd enter her and the second I did, I came. I
was so worked up about it. I'd get frustrated because she'd lay there
looking at me, "You came already?"

"Sorry I can't help it. Fuck." She's giggle and I'd take the condom
off. "It's not funny." That went on about three times till she threw
me down taken the condoms away from me because I'd get frustrated rip
it, toss it, open another one start going at it, cum get even more
pissed.

The floor was full of ripped or used condoms. When she threw me down
she got on top of me. "Fuck Nikki just fucking forget the damn
condoms. It's been to fucking long."

"What if I get you pregnant?"

"We'll cross that bridge when we get to it. We don't even know if I
can get pregnant again. So just fuck me. Uh god." She rode me for a
good thirty minutes and I rolled her on her back. I pulled out of
her and flipped her over making her get on her knees.

"Oh yeah. Tell me you're sure about me fucking you?"

"YES." I smacked her ass to get her to put it up higher. "UH."

I spread her legs a bit and put myself back inside of her. That was
when all hell broke loose with us. I grabbed a hold of the headboard
and just fucked her as hard and as fast as I could. The entire floor
heard us going at it. Because the next afternoon when I was getting
my morning coffee to wake up Tommy and John ran up to me. They first
ribbed me about it and then Tommy said, "Dude why is it you get the
wild bitches and I just get the crazy ones? How do you do it? I
couldn't get her to be..."

That was when I had it and flipped out on him. I couldn't take it
anymore. I threw my coffee and jacked him up against the wall. "Stay
away from Elizabeth."

"Nikki let him go." I looked at Beth. "He could have easily kicked your
ass for what you did but because he loves you as a brother he
didn't. Now I'm going to tell you both this. I love you both in
different ways. You two are brothers and what happened when we
weren't together is none of your business. You guys are always harping
on letting go of shit but you hold so much of it in. I dealt with
Tommy. What we had is passed. I dealt with you and that's passed. Yes
I loved maybe even lusted Tommy for years and he seen the opportunity
to be with me but it was bad timing. He realized I can't love him
the way I love you as far as being wild in bed I'm sorry Tommy but
you're....Oh you know what I can see this is not going to go away.
That's it I want both of your jealous asses in the gym now. We're
going to settle this the old fashion way. Whoever gets knocked out
first losses."

I let Tommy go and he fixed his shirt. She walked off towards the
gym. Which was right next door. The two of us stood there and John's
fucking rolling up his sleeves pulling people over to the gym. I
turned to look at Tommy and he has his shirt off walking to the gym.
I thought about that night and how amazing she was. Every part of
her body had healed and she was my hot wife again. Granted the
tattoo on her back still needed to be redone and I had watched her
grow up from a pretty punk 15-year-old into a beautiful, classy lady,
then she got tore up for being so beautiful to make me think it was
all about looks.

I thought a bit about what she said to me about how Tommy made her
feel wanted. I had done nothing but made her feel unwanted for a
very long time. Now she was egging a dual on between us. I though ok
in the old days if another man likes your wife or whatever you had
what you call a dual. Whether it was 20 paces pistil fight, to
sword fight, or a game of chicken. You get the idea. Tommy and I
were brothers.

We diss each other till we're blue in the faces but if someone other
then ourselves calls the other names or disses them it was a full on
war because we'd come together and kick that person's ass. That's
what brothers do and now I'm standing here thinking should I bow out
and leave Beth with Tommy again or should I get in there and fight
for her love?

"Fuck this." I said and took my shirt off. By this time the gym was
filling with nearby fans saying Tommy and I were going to get into
a fist fight. I stood there holding my shirt and a few girls are
standing there saying,

"Nikki you're really not going to fight Tommy over a girl, are you? You
guys are buddies. She's not worth it if she's going to make you two
fight."

That got me thinking 'I worked my ass off to try to get her back. I
should do this. She's, my girl.' The more I thought about it and
hearing the guys saying, 'Kick his ass.' I threw my shirt down,
turned and walked away. Not worth it. I love her don't get me wrong
but it wasn't worth fighting over. Normally it would be the other
way around. Tommy would have walked because he's more a lover then a
fighter. That day the roles were switched. I walked away. Figured if
it meant to see her happy and keep my friendship with Tommy then so
be it.

I stood in the shower alone with my head on the wall letting the
water run down my body. A pair of hands started to frisk me patting
me down and cupping my balls. "Just leave me alone."

"No. Did I ever tell you that I love your goofy ass?" Beth's voice
whispered in my ear as her hands massaged my chest from
behind. "What you did today was very gentleman of you. I can't
believe your Nikki Sixx. I was testing you and you know what you
passed it. Frank turn around and look at me." I turned around to
look at her. She was naked in front of me. "You just proved that
friendship is a lot deeper than some stupid woman and I love that
about you. I admit it was a low-down dirty trick for me to pull on
you but I was trying to make a point. You were going to beat Tommy's
ass for something neither of us could control. I am madly head over
heels in love with you. Tommy is a little eye candy but my heart
belongs to you. Always has always will. Tommy knows he can't have
that but we will always be friends. His words are that you and I are
the two oldest dearest friends he's ever had and he loves us both."

I pulled her to me and we made out. First time we ever did that in a
slightly public place but I didn't care. She was mine all mine. She
went back home to sort things out about what she wanted to do. Tommy
and I made up our way which was I bought him a bottle of Jack and a
few groupies. We spilt the jack and I let him have the groupies.

I started thinking it be nice if Beth and I had another boy. Even if
Ryan was mine legally. Nichals was our only son and he was growing
up so fast. About two months later around July fourth, 1994, Beth came
out with the kids. Even Ryan who as I said was a year old. He was
sort of walking and it seemed I had him more than Brandi did. It
really seemed as if she didn't want him.

Anyway, it was round April that I last seen Beth, so it was about two
months later. I called her ever day at least three times. She was
back into our house and even set up her own office where she'd sit
in there and drawl ideas. Anyway, she brought Tina with her so we
could have time alone.

I had an idea she was coming out and that night we were somewhere in
the states. I don't know where. Tommy and I were on a roll dropping
cherry bombs or whatever he had that blew up. Just drinking and
having a blast. John walks us over to this field that he says that
someone's going to set big fireworks off in.

Tommy and I are bombed at this point laying in the field slurring
that there were no fireworks and that someone was filling John's head
up with shit and then singing off key. Out of fucking nowhere and
this is what I love about Beth. Out of nowhere this huge firecracker
shots out of the ground and into the sky over us. "Wooo." Tommy and
I laid there watching it.

John starts tapping me. "What man? I'm watching the fireworks. DUDE."

"Uh you might want to turn your attention to the stage."

I sat up about to say what stage but stopped mid sentence when in
front of us was a stage. We were in the middle of an old field.
Sparklers and all these pyro stuff started going off and there in
the middle of the stage was Beth. She had these sparkling tassels
spinning on her breast. Tommy sat up. "Woo heavy. Dude are we so
drunk that we're seeing that your wife is on stage half naked."

"Fuck that she's practically nude." John said as the lights dimmed a
bit and she came closer to us dancing to Girls, Girls, Girls. I seen
John was right. This is what covered her. She had a diamond stud on
her belly ring. This g-string that cover her just right. The front
was red, white and blue. The side of the string was a small visible
line with a few diamonds. She had glitter on her body that made her
sparkle. She had no top just those sparkly tassels that looked a bit
like something off a tree or something.

She started to do a rattle snake dance to rattle snake and the three
of us were sitting there like a few sick perverted teenagers
watching. Then she turned her back and the lights went boom lighting
the entire place showing off how beautiful her tattoos were redone
and shone brightly. "You lucky son of bitch Sixx. God damn."