Without you - Nikki Sixx fan fiction

Ch104 A new start pt1

*******ALL WARNINGS APPLY

Nikki- As I sang part of that song softly, I pulled the covers over me
laying down next to her. Then she rolled on to her back still
asleep. I put my head on her belly and softly sang "You are my
sunshine. My only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear how much I love you. Please don't take my
sunshine away." She stroked my hair and giggled softly.

"I love you Nikki Sixx."

"I love you." I whispered. "I don't care what you do. Lets make a
deal right now little Frankie. No rock stars. You can do anything
you want to do but no rock stars ok."

"So we're going with Frankie?" I looked up at Beth and smiled.

"Yes. I guess it would be nice to have one of the kids named after
me. Get some sleep before I attack you."

"Mm did the movers come yet?"

"No they'll be here tomorrow."

"Do we have to move? I like it at the other house. It's so quit
sometimes."

"We'll keep that place for later maybe. You always loved the beach
and its closer to everything. It's a whole new start to everything
baby. A new baby, a new band and a fresh start with us. We have half
the block to ourselves and you can get your massage parlor opened
when the baby is born if you want. You can meet new people. The kids
will have a better school and they won't have to go so far for it.
We need the extra space baby. Just think Ozzy's beach house is like
two blocks down the way." I seen her eyes were getting heavy. I laid
my head half on her pillow and half on mine. "Rest baby. Just rest."
I massaged her hip a little until I fell asleep snuggled up to her
pregnant body on the couch.

I woke to my cell ring. Beth was still asleep in my arms but she had
her head on my chest now. I was on my back and had my arm around
her. I opened my eyes and looked at my watch to see it was 8 in the
morning. I picked up my cell trying not to wake Beth up. "Morgue how
can I help you?" I said groggy trying to wake up sitting up on the
couch stretching.

"Where are you? Why haven't you been home the last few weeks? Tracii
working you that hard or are you back with her again in Malibu?" Sam
just rattled off with questions to me. "Are you going to leave me
alone and pregnant here in Los Vegas for her?"

"You know she is my wife. Uh it's to early in the morning for this
bullshit Sam. You have your little boyfriend. Let him support you. I
have five kids and one on the way. Don't try to tell me that baby is
mine because I know its not. I told you there was no us that
whatever we had was a fling."

"I'm sorry you're right. I don't know what I was thinking. Can I talk
to Beth?"

"No she's asleep. With all the craziness yesterday she tried to go
into labor. Uh I don't want to get up." I said laying back down
still holding the phone.

"Well if I was there I know how I could get you up and going."

"Mm." I laid there with my eyes closed remembering a morning that Sam
woke me up with a blow job. Something Beth only did to me once. I
remembered how I called Sam Beth in the middle of sex. That was when
I realized I would never divorce Beth. I'm telling you have you ever
just felt like you wanted change. Well that's what I wanted. I
wanted to see if the grass was greener on the other side. Let me
tell you its not. It may look green but when you get there its shit.

I half listened to Sam telling me how she would wake me up but I was
falling back to sleep. "Nikki you there?"

"Huh. Um the movers will be here soon. I have to call John and see
if I could get Beth in for an appointment. I'll have her call you
later maybe. I hope your boyfriend doesn't get mad. I need to go." I
hung up and Beth's hand slid in between my legs. She started
stroking me slowly. I ran my fingers down her back as she had laid
her head on my chest curling up to me again. "Mm John's going to try
to bring a ultrasound machine here. I need to get up and see if the
movers are here."

I laid there letting Beth stroke me. Her hand kept a steady pace. I
pulled her up to me and she straddled me. Her long curly, wavy, red
hair hang down in my face till she pulled it back. "I was scared you
went off to die. I kept thinking Vince was going to show up and tell
me that you OD in some alley and that you were never going to come
back. Then I kept waiting for the divorce papers. By the way I know
that you been stalking me the past months since you got out of
rehab. I knew you were outside the night I was at T's."

I had my hands on her hips rubbing them and also rubbing her
stomach. I seen a scare on her wrist that I never seen before. I
took her hand in mine and rolled her on her back. The couch was very
big. "What's this? Is this new? Did you try..." She yanked her hand
from me and I sat up.

"No it's not new. I did it sometimes after I shot my father. Jenna
came to check on me when she brought Decker to me when I was in
Idaho. She of course got me to the hospital on time and that was why
I was committed there. You know every inch of me and you never
notice this till now." I just sat on the couch hearing the gate
buzzed and seeing Nancy on the intercom there in the living room. I
turned to Beth.

The phone rang just as I was going to kiss her "Fuck." I picked it
up. "What now? Stop acting like a fucking child Samantha."

"Nikki its John."

"Sorry."

"Listen something came up and I'm in the middle of a delivery.
You'll have bring her in next month. She needs a check up then
anyway. Call the office and set an appointment up. If she seems fine
its ok if she gets out of bed and all. Try to keep her exercise to a
min. I don't want her trying to walk a million miles or anything. I
think what she had yesterday was a little Braxton hicks."

"She'll be ok to get out of bed right?"

"Yes I just said that. Remember lots of water."

"Right I remember that with the twins. I'll call the office." I hung
up and put a shirt on. Beth got up and went to the bathroom. I heard
her get sick in there and I seen the movers start coming in with
boxes and all. "Hey honey. Did I tell you about my offer?" I heard
the shower down the hall now.

"Yeah about the new clothing line right? Trying to help this guys
son stay off drugs. You told me over dinner last Friday." I went
down the hall after telling the movers to put the boxes where ever.

"You taking a shower baby?"

"Yes. I feel like shit." I grabbed her overalls and a short tee
shirt. I also grabbed some clean clothes. I stuck my head out the
bathroom door. "Nancy can you keep an ear out for the kids this
morning?"

"Already on it Nikki." She yelled down the hall.

"Thanks. Oh and Nancy if this job is to much or you need time off
let me know."

"Yes Nikki I'll let you know." I closed the door to the bathroom
with the clothes and towels. I watched Beth rinse her still slender
body. After I took my clothes off I opened the door and got in. I
ran my hand down her tattoo's then wrapped my arms around her to
crease the small stretch marks on her pregnant body.

"I love the stretch marks you have going. You using coco butter on
them? Have you been eating any? It's like you haven't gained that
much weight with this baby."

"I eat. Its just I work out. Have to if I'm going to live near
Hollywood."

"Stop it now. You're pregnant. I don't care what anyone says." She put
her hands on the wall along with her head making the water go down
her back.

"Prove it." She said softly. "Read the book. You didn't even mention
me in it. I read how you married Brandi after you got out of rehab
and how she had your kids. Then about Sam. Was I ever a part of you
or am I just your imaginary wife?"

"Baby I didn't want my personal real life in there. That book was to
be about our rise to fame and then back down again. I can't believe
you read it. You lived it with me. I just really want to keep my
life private and it's hard to do that. You out of anyone knows that.
You are apart of me. You know me inside and out. You keep me sane
and level headed. When you told me that we should spend time apart
at first I was happy about it. Then I missed my partner in crime. My best friend since I was 18."

She kept her hands against the wall as I rubbed my face up her back
getting a face full of water. She stood up and I looked like a cat
rubbing up against her. My hands went up to massage her breast as I
licked up to her shoulders. I licked the tattoo of my name that she
still had there before I sucked on her neck. I opened my eyes
resting my chin in her shoulder to see her touch herself. "You know
we said that at the same time so I think we needed it." She said
softly.

"Mm you're so right baby. It's like you read my mind. Uh let's have a
really hot make up session. Uh yeah touch yourself baby. You make me
so fucking hot." She leaned against me a little and I got her to
turn to face me so she could sit on the little love seat we had in
the shower. I turned the water off and reached out to turn the heat
on in the bathroom to keep us warm. I licked her leg up spreading
her legs getting on my knees in front of her. I licked the Frank
tattoo she had there and traced it with my finger tip. "Tell me how
I can prove to you that I don't care what people say and I'll do it?"

"I want you to spray paint my name on the highest billboard sign in
Hollywood and scream that you love me and that you don't give a shit
what anyone says. I want you to say I'm Nikki Sixx the meanest punk
mother fucker on this planet and I love Elizabeth O'Connor Sixx my
wife, my best friend and my soul make and if you don't like it suck
my dick."

"You wish it so be it." I was going to eat her out but she grabbed
my head and shock her head no at me. I stood up and went to help her
up but she grabbed my hips and gave me a blow job. One that made me
weak in the knees. I had to hold on to the bar in the shower to keep
from falling. She never gave me a blow job the way she was there.
She sucked even after I came she kept sucking making me scream
out "Ahh stop. Stop. Uh uh holy fuck." She stopped and I fell on my
knees. "Uh Jesus."

I felt pain and pleasure at the same time. What hurt was that I came
and like I said she just kept sucking and dug her finger tip into my
balls a little along with my ass. "The pain you're in makes us even
now." I opened my eyes to see she got out and was drying off now. "I
seriously had thoughts of shooting you that night I seen you in our
bed with Sam. She is old enough to be our daughter and you brought
her to our bedroom. Nikki, I'm warning you now if I ever see
you....." I got up and out.

I put my arms around her waist. "I will never ever do anything like
that to our girls. If I even have thoughts about it I'll kill myself
before I ever act on it. You want to yell at me and kick my ass. Go
on get it out of your system. Make yourself feel better." I let her
go and folded my arms. "Come on don't hold it all in that's why you
get so stressed out because your scared to tell someone off thinking
you might hurt their feelings. Well my girl she would never do that.
Come on lets have it out right here and now."

"I can't."

"Why I fell off the wagon and fucked girls that are either young
enough to be my daughter or just plan young."

"Because we're naked." She half yelled.

"So it's not like you never seen me naked before."

She stood there rubbing her belly looking at me. "You know I've
changed my mind. I want you to take a picture of me just like this
naked and pregnant." I looked at her.

"Ok but now pussy shots. Now come here you crazy ass bitch." She put
her arms around my neck and I remembered her taking a knife to
me. "You took a knife to me. Uh baby. Look at me." I pulled back
from her and she looked up at me. "I don't like you trying to play
with guns or knifes. I never want to see a gun in your hands unless
I'm teaching you how to fire it because you have really bad aim."

She laughed a little. "I do not. I can't believe I took a knife to
you. I just seen you with her and my first thought was....."

"If it was me I would of shot at you and then asked questions later.
I almost did but I realized you were trying to pay me back. So I'll
call Larry and set something up. I'll put your naked crazy pregnant
ass on the highest billboard in Hollywood that says Nikki Sixx loves
his beautiful crazy pregnant wife Elizabeth. Still want you to yell
at me or something."

She slapped me across the face "There how's that. I'm tired of
yelling at you." She stood there and then smacked me again. "Better?
Feel better?"

"No, doyou?" She went to smack me again and I grabbed her
hands. "You know I always wanted to do this to your ass since the
first fight we had when you were pregnant with Nick." I pulled her
to me and dipped her back putting her in a lip lock. I swept her off
her feet and carried her to our bedroom. "I bet you burned those
sheets didn't you." I said putting her on the window sill. We had a
window that bowed out to over look the ocean. She went to cover and
I grabbed her hands shacking my head at her. "You are beautiful. You
shine and glow so much that everyday I see you I fall more and more
in love with you. What I did was selfish. I was...." The phone rang
and I growled. "Ok days wasting. Go get dress woman. Clothes are in
the bathroom." I picked up the phone. "I got it Nancy thank you.
Hello Nikki here." Beth got up and went back to the bathroom.

I sat on the window sill rubbing my face where Beth smacked me
at. "Don't hung up on me. I need to talk to you about something's." I
heard my mother on the line.

"Mom I'm in the middle of trying to get things moved in and I was in
the middle of something with Beth."

"Frank..."

"Mom I told you its Nikki not Frank." I said rolling my eyes.

"Well I don't care if you call yourself Satin. I'm your mother and I
can't help that your father just had to name you after himself to
piss me off. This is what I need to talk to you about. Come on its
long distance." I sighed and Beth stood in front of me holding my
clothes out. I smiled and took them kissing her round belly. The
shirt under the overalls covered her breast but not her sides. I
winked at her.

"Ok. How about I save you money and get you a ticket out here so you
can talk to me in person about it. I'll fly you first class and we
will talk." I heard her sob a little.

"Yeah I'd like that."

"Can your not call me Frank?"

"I'll try. You know I wanted to name you Michal but I like the name
Nikki. You look like one. I'm so proud of how you turned out. You
stuck in there and raised your boy. He's so fine and has your
stubbornness that's for sure."

"Mom how does Friday sound? That's in three days. You can talk and
I'll listen to you. I'll send the tickets just tell me where?" She
gave me her address and I wrote it down. "Ok I'll get them and send
it over night. You can bring Ceci if you want."

She hung up and I shock my head and got dressed. I went out and
stopped Beth from picking up a box. I took it and pointed her to the
couch. She growled at me and sat on the couch. I took it to the
bedroom and then went out to the truck. "Do you want the furniture
from the other house?" The mover asked.

"Uh the couch, china cabinet, uh oh the gun cabinet goes to this
address." I gave them Mick's address in Tenn. "Lets see um the safe,
toy chest, the book case, the queen Ann sofa in the master bedroom
and the wall mirror all go. Um the studio stuff. The vanity in the
bathroom and all the boxes."