Without you - Nikki Sixx fan fiction

Ch137 Tommy's birthday/Frankie's birthday in Paris a day with mommy

*******ALL WARNINGS APPLY.

Beth- Nikki called my every single night and sent me emails telling
me he burned the tape and how tired he was and that he really wanted
to just call the tour over and come home. So he got excited when
they got to Fresnio. I came out to see him and we got matching
tattoos on our feet of a rosary. Nikki never really told me what
happened that night in Tucson but I knew it that his animal side
come out that night and we blew the power somehow.

Anyway, we had a lot of fun doing the tattoos together and he wanted
to take a shit load of pictures of me and him. He also wanted to
take tons of pictures when I came out for Tommy's birthday which
they had the night off for. On Tommy's birthday I begged Nikki to
let me do something I always wanted to do. "Nikki please let me
drink him under the table. Just once please."

"Baby no. First your kidney had a tumor on it so it's in no shape to
deal with alcohol. Second you been sober for to damn long baby. If
you try to drink T under the table I'll be nursing you all morning
long and I might be tempted to get fucked up and you know how I am."

"Please Nikki. Please, please, please baby. Just one time I promise.
You heard him. He's all cocky on that bus thinking no one can drink
him and Vinnie under."

"But baby their drinking Jagger. That shits ten times stronger then
Jack. No."

"Urgh your no fan." We were standing outside of the bus and he
stared at me. He sighed heavily.

"Go. But when you start pucking all over the place I'm not cleaning
up your mess." I jumped up and down getting excited.

"Thank you, baby." I kissed him on the check and ran on the
bus. "I'll take you and Vinnie up on that offer." Tommy and Vince
looked at me and I seen Nikki behind me put his hands up.

"Woo no way. I remember the last time you drank. You fucked Nikki
right in front of all of us in the limo. Then you were sick for two
weeks because you got pregnant with Stormy." Vince said.

"Well, that was then." So, I got drunk off my ass. I drank a few times
but I haven't gotten drunk, drunk since the girl's, girl's tour
technically. We had a blast laughing about things we did in the past
and Nikki sat there with his video out filming us. I lost count on
how many shots we all had. "Mm I know one way to really totally get
pissed and prove that a woman finally whipped your asses. Whipped."
I laughed a little. I don't why I said pissed which is the British slang word for drunk.

"Woman you have loose lips when you drink. Don't you dare tell them
what I think you're going to or....or no sex for a month." Nikki said
and I looked at him winking and laughed.

"Ok let's play I never. If you never did something you don't drink.
If you did it, then you drink for each time you did it. I'll start
off. I never fucked a man in the ass before." I slammed my empty
shot glass down.

I remember watching Tommy and Vince make faces. Tommy busted up
laughing when Vince downed his drink. "Shut up man." Vince snapped.

"Yeah, shut up T-bone. You can't sit here and say you never been with
a man before. After all I did see you follow that cross dresser into
the bathroom." I said and Nikki started laughing.

Tommy stopped laughing. "How can you fuck a man up the ass? I know
you don't have the equipment unless you and Nikki are hiding
something." Vince said looking at me. Nikki cleared his throat and I
looked at him. I stood up on the table and wiggled out of my
underwear. I had a skirt on.

"Ok have a look and see for yourself Vinnie. Tommy no looking you
already seen it." I giggled as Vince put his hands on my legs to
look up. "Ok who's next?" I laughed almost falling off the table
laughing but Nikki jumped up dropping the camera and caught me.

He held me in his arms. "I never been in love with a man." Tommy said and funny thing we all drank a shot. Tommy put his empty glass down. "I was in love with Vince once. That's why we started fighting. It was a faze I was going through."

"I admit I was in love with Nikki for long time and was jealous he
was with you." Vince said. Nikki sat down.

"Your all fucking sick weirdo's but I love you guys and if I was
drinking I'd have to drink the whole damn bottle for that one." Nikki said.

"I'm in love with all of you. Including you Vinnie expect when your
all fucking drunk. I'm sorry but you guys are all either mean drunks
or lousy ones." We all laughed and I kissed Vince on the
check. "Thank you for trying to defend me."

He blushed a little. "Ok my turn. Uh I never had wild, kinky, fucked
up, crazy sex before or any of that dominatrix shit or S&M." Vince
said.

Tommy and I went to grab for the bottle, but Nikki put a bottle in my
hands. Tommy and I drank half the bottle down making faces. Vince
shock his head. "Oh, you poor thing Vinnie. I..."

"I don't really care to be whipped or chained to a bed. I like being
in control." Nikki covered his mouth couching,

"Bullshit."

Vince flipped Nikki off as I handed Vince the bottle. "There is no
way Vinnie that you've gone your entire life without some sort of
weird kinky sex. I read your book guys, and I know you guys are the
sickest mother fuckers I ever meet on the face of the planet but I
bet I can be sicker." Vince drank.

"How?" Vince said after he shook his head. "If you read the book
then you know no one was sicker than us until Ozzy."

"Oh man don't go there." Nikki said taking the bottle. He went to
take a drink and I slammed my hand on his crock making him put the
bottle down. "Sorry." He groaned. "Bad habit baby." He put his
hands on mine and took them off his crotch.

"Mm I know change games. I dare you to do something to prove you can
be nastier than us." Tommy said.

"Like what?" I said. Tommy made this face. "What did you wish for
your birthday?" I said changing the subject.

"My wish is coming true right now. I wished for one last time to get
drunk with you so we could finally figure out who would actually
fucking win this time. I say it's getting closer now. Ok uh uh mm
golden shower." He said and I looked at him weird.

"What's that? You mean like being showered in gold. Pss like I get
enough of that and how is that nasty?"

"He's referring to someone pissing on you baby." Nikki said and I
made this face.

"Hah see you can't be nastier than us so fucking finish the damn
bottle off." Tommy put the bottle in front of me. I sat there
thinking.

"Have any of you ever gotten a golden shower?"

Tommy busted up laughing and took a large drink. "I have." He said.

"Man, you are fucking sick." Vince said slurring and the alcohol
started kicking in. I laughed a little and stood back on top of the
table.

"Ok who wants to do the deed?" Tommy pulled me down when Nikki stood
up. He held me on his lap as Nikki stood on the table. He whipped it
out and pissed all over my head. "Argh ewww." We cracked up laughing
and Nikki yanked me off Tommy before he could lick me.

"Ah ah not this time man." Nikki held me to him and licked the piss
that was running down my face up and then captured my lips with his.
It tasted a bit salty and after that I couldn't remember what
happened. I woke up to the sound of the phone ring to find myself
sprawled out on the bed at home.

I picked up the cordless by the bed. "What?" I mumbled.

"See your finally sobering up baby." Nikki said.

"Fuck you. Uh what happened?"

He laughed a little. "Well, you drank them under the table and then
you jumped my bones on Tommy's couch and fuck the hell out of me
damn I love it when you get fucking wild like that. Then you passed
out on the jet. So, I had a friend pick you up at the airport and
take you home. Vince and T are still fucking passed out. Sending you
a picture of them. Mick and I gave them their punishment for passing
out. How do you feel?"

"Like shit."

"When do you go to Paris?"

I sat up slowly my head was still spinning "Mm Nikki I'm sorr..."

"Don't say it baby. I know it was just one time and it's about damn
time someone drinks those two under the fucking table."

"Mm I think I go a day before Frankie's birthday." After I got up I
looked at the calendar. "Yeah, we'll be leaving out on the 8th."

"Well make sure she gets my gift baby."

"Always. You almost drank."

"I know. I'm sorry. Went to AA this morning."

"Mm I need to go. Don't need to relapse."

"Baby I know you won't ever fall of the wagon."

"How?"

"Same way you know I won't. Faith and trust."

"Mm get some sleep will you. Damn I swear I'm going to shoot your damn
ass up with sleeping pills."

"I'll try but you know what I'm like on the road baby. No rest for
the wicket." I laughed. So the day before Frankie's birthday we were
in Paris. Just her and me to spend a little bonding time together.
The 10th was a Monday and I redid my appointment for the next day so
I could spend a nice descent day with Frankie.

Nikki got her this ballet thing she been wanting him to buy her and
I took her to see a little French ballet and just basically spent the
whole day with her. Nikki called us at dinner and talked to her for
over an hour or two while we ate by the Eiffel Tower. Earlier in the
day Stormy called and all the kids wished Frankie a happy birthday.
The next day I was to undergo a week or two's worth of extensive
radiation treatments. They also found that lowering my estrogen would
minimize the risk of the cancer spreading and give my body a better
chance to fight the cancer as well.