Without you - Nikki Sixx fan fiction

Ch101 A friend in need/Summer of 2001 pt1

*********ALL WARNINGS APPLY. This one we have Beth being there for Tommy

Beth- Going back some it was March 15 about three maybe four weeks after
my birthday. It was our first court hearing. Nikki wanted to press
charges on me for kidnapping but my lawyer which was a good friend
of Larry's said they ran to me. Nikki wouldn't look at me in court
and I seen Sam there next to him holding his hand and all. When we
went outside I walk up to him and said "Why?"

"Because I love Sam. I don't love you anymore. I only stuck with you
because of our kids. It's not fair to them. I didn't want to tell you
on your birthday. Why don't you do what you always do and run away
from this Liz? It will be less painful for you."

"I'm not running from this Nikki. Those are my kids to. Your lying
to me. I can tell. Your eyes won't stay still." His eyes had been all
over the place. Randy came out and put his arm around me trying to
calm me down.

"Come babe. Let the lawyers deal with him." Before we could walk off
I passed out in Nikki's arms from the heat. Randy and Vince were the
only two that tried to help me so Nikki wasn't too happy with them.
They were doing it because he was still sniffing things with Sam and
Ryan walked in on them screwing one night.

Anyway when I came to Vince was sitting there. "Hey babe. How are
you feeling?"

"Hot. What happened?"

"You passed out at the court house. Nikki went ape shit. I don't
think its Nikki wanting this divorce. I think he's confused and Sam
is making him choose between the two of you. Other wise he wouldn't
of flipped out on Randy the way he did. I'm pretty sure Sam is
giving him coke to keep him confused. It's like he doesn't care about
anything not even music anymore and I know that's not the Nikki Sixx
I know. When was the last time you and him had sex babe?"

"Vincent that's none of your business."

"Your pregnant again so unless you cheated on Nick. Why don't you
two get rid of the lawyers, get in a room and hash this shit out?"

"He's the one that wanted this not me Vin."

"I'm telling you Sam is up to something. This isn't Nikki. To suddenly
disappear then reappear, fuck your brains out and then turn around
and take you to court. This coming from a man that would cut his own
dick off then divorce you. It doesn't add up. He sold his studio and
guitars to me. Not even the young selfish Nikki Sixx would never do
that. That's not the Nikki Sixx we all know and love. Something is
up and I'm going to find out what. In the meantime drop the case.
Work on keeping yourself healthy. If you need help Heidi or Randy
will help. Nikki's in jail so I'm going to go bail his ass out and
throw him back into rehab even if he kicks my ass."

"He needs a cat scan."

"Honey he's on coke. If Nikki didn't care or love you he wouldn't of
flipped out on Randy the way he did. That's why he's in jail. Let me
deal with Nikki. You can't help him right now. Not in your
condition. You and Nick have been trying to have a baby for almost
two years now. You don't need any stress. Let me deal with him. He
won't divorce you. He loves you way to much to. Trust me on this for
once. I couldn't save you brother let me save Nick."

I hugged him and he left. Randy's cancer was back and he helped me
whenever he could even if he was sick from the treatments. He took
me to Lamaze classes and everything. Nikki was in rehab again for a
good three months at lease. He started sending me love letters and
poems anything telling me he was getting a better treatment.

When summer started the boys all went to summer camp so it was just
me and Stormy. Somewhere in July I think before I seen Nikki again I
heard Tommy's name on the news again. I dropped everything I was
doing and turned up the volume on the TV. All I kept hearing was
some boy drowned in his pool at Brandon's birthday party. I tried to
call him but he wouldn't answer the phone. I got worried about him
and went to his house to see him.

He didn't answer the door either and I had a key he gave to Nikki
years ago. They all always swapped keys I swear. I walked in and the
house was quit and somewhat empty. "T." I said looking around. I got
in his elevator that went to the master bedroom. When it opened up
Tommy was curled up on the bed crying his eyes out. "T."

I sat on the bed and he lifted his head up. His face was red stained
with tears. "It's so fucked up. Why me? Out of all people why did it
have to happen in my pool and at Brandon's party? Now his parents
are taken me to court. If I wasn't Tommy Lee they wouldn't be taking
me to court. I just want to crawl under a fucking rock and die."

I pulled him to me and he rested his head on my lap crying. His arms
wrapped around my waist and he cried and cried. "It's not your fault
T. It could of happened to anyone."

We were quit and I let him cry to get it all out. I never seen him
like this expect when he was in jail. He finally pulled back from me
and looked at me funny wiping his face off. "I don't mean to be mean
but did you stop working out because you look like you put on some
weight or something? Has Nick been making you eat a lot?"

"No. Nikki's in rehab again." Tommy looked at me weird. "I'm
pregnant. About five months almost. After you left and all Nikki
fell off the wagon pretty hard. Took me to court for custody of the
kids, divorce, told me he was in love with that fan Cindy and
Samantha Maloney."

"That girl that took Nichals V? That Sam?" I shock my head
yes. "That asshole. You still took him back and now your pregnant
again and he's in rehab again?"

"Basically yes. Vinnie threw him in rehab. He did a little coke in
front of Ryan and Ryan walked in on him and Sam, so Vince got pissed
especially when I passed out at the courthouse. I haven't seen him
since then and that was in April, but he's sent me all kinds of love
letters. He's getting real major help to deal with his problems.
They did a cat scan on him and he had some head trauma so their
putting him on anti depressions along with more Zoloft to help
restore balance to his brain. He's doing really good. Made some new
friends and says he's now keeping a diary to help sort out his
thoughts. I would go see him but...."

Without warning Tommy kissed me and his hand went up the skirt I was
wearing. His fingers rubbed on my underwear. His thumb moved it to
the side and he slid his index finger into my sex and his kiss got
more passionate. He laid me on the bed as his hand cuffed my sex
pulling his finger out and inserting it back in again. He was now
lying on his side propped up a little his tongue still probing mine.

I was getting hot fast as he pulled out his finger and his hand now
slid down my skirt to rub my small round belly. I wasn't that big
actually looked like I was three months. His hand went around my
belly as my hands stroked his tattooed back. Just as his hand was
about to go back down my underwear Nikki's face popped into my head.