Without you - Nikki Sixx fan fiction

Ch112 Facing old ghost at the old heroin house

**********ALL WARNINGS APPLY

Nikki- Beth and I haven't been back to that house in Twin Oaks since
Sam and Angel were murdered there. Well Beth went back that one time
to get her dress but it was ruined. As I said before the police
never found any traces of it being a murder. There was no forced
entry. No fingerprints that didn't belong there.

No sign of a struggle expect where we had Stormy's room at. The door
there was busted and I knew for a fact that Beth had boarded that
room up because she told me that was where it all started at. Anyway
we were going to spend New Years Eve in the house. I talked to the
people selling it and she said she's leave us a key in the mailbox.
I called Heather and told her not to freak if she seen light from
the house that night.

I planed on bring the lanterns, sleeping bags, flashlights and a few
candles. Beth decided to bring one of our knifes. The day before
Tracii came over the house. Beth had a bag of clothes for us packed
already. I didn't know Tracii was there because I was going through
the bag and put my witch craft book in there it was on how to use
protection spells. Anyway I put a dagger in the bag taken out the
butcher knife.

I went to the kitchen and wrapped my arms around Beth holding the
knife. "Honey unless your planning on killing me there's no need for
this." I said holding the knife. "Your not planning on killing me
are you? Because you know all my money goes to the kids. Your not
chickening out on me are you?" I said softly running the knife down
her shirt.

"Nikki Tracii's here." She said to me and he cleared his throat. I
let her go and stuck the knife in with the other ones.

"We need to talk Nikki." I opened the drawl that had extra batteries
in it and took them out. I took the whole thing and dumped it into
our bag. We were only taken one.

"There's nothing to talk about. It's none of your business. If that's
what your here for you need to leave. I have things to do." He had
over heard after my party that Beth had some nightmare about Jessy
and he wanted to know information about it. I zipped the bag and
took it out to our brand new SUV. I got Beth a SUV for Christmas. I
would of just took the bike but Beth was still working on fixing it.

When I told her we could take it to a shop she turned into the
exorcist on me saying she broke it and she was going to fix it so I
just left her be on it. Tracii followed me outside. "Why don't you
and Beth come over for New Years? Kristy and I are hav..."

"Can't. We already made plans man. Besides you and Kristy will be
drinking and parting. Beth and I can't be around that. She's an
alcoholic and I'm a junkie so we'd both be around temptation."

"Why won't you talk to me?" I spun around to him and jacked him up
against the SUV.

"I told you it's none of your business. I shouldn't of said anything
to anyone but let me ask you something Tracii. How much do you
remember when your high huh?" I had him by the shirt.

"Not much."

"Then you know that when your high you do things you don't know your
doing. You want to know so bad that you came all the way over here
hoping to pry the information out of my wife. When I'm high or drunk
I rapped her and beat the shit out of her. There now you fucking
know all my dark secrets. I don't need you or anyone judging me and
I don't need to justify my actions. I know what I done and I have to
live with it the rest of my life. Now unless you are here for other
reasons you have five seconds to leave or I'm going to kick your nosey
little punk ass." I let him go. He stood there with this shocked
looked on his face.

"Actually what I wanted to talk to you about was that we got the
studio to ourselves from January to December, in case we take a brake and
stuff. I know we'll need to go over things and have meetings. I
wasn't trying to be nosy." I folded my arms knowing better. "Ok
maybe I was but only because someone made it sound like you hit her
recently because they said Beth kicked you out for it."

"Cindy doesn't know shit. I left because I fell of the wagon again
and I didn't want to hurt Beth again. I left for my own reasons. I
shouldn't of said anything to her but my head was clouded and she
made it worst along with Sam. I should kick your ass but I know your
trying to be a friend. I got all the help I need. I go to AA,
counseling upon counseling, anger management and so on and so
fourth. Now excuse me I need to round all my kids up so we can have
a family talk."