Without you - Nikki Sixx fan fiction

Ch131 Family and Friends pt1

***********ALL WARNINGS APPLY

Beth- I sat there watching everyone do something feeling a little
tired and a little down. I thought Nichals was talking about bring
Aimee home and that the shit would hit the fan with Nikki. Nikki sat
by me as the front door opened before Nikki could say anything to me
we heard Nichals say "We're just in time. Mom, dad I'd like you to
meet Kira." Nichals said bring in this woman.

She was Asian and very good looking. She reminded me of a girl in
some Hawaiian movie. "Oh she's pretty Decker." Kira said sitting by
Starry who Nikki had just put in the high chair next to him at the
table. "He's been so scared to say...."

"Why?" Nikki cut her off asking. "Oh is it because you think I'm
racist?'

"Nikki." I said and he patted my hand.

"I'm not racist. As a matter of fact my ex Vanity was half black and
half white. My wife and I had a threesome with a Japanese woman. Son
the only thing I'm mad about is you leaving Starry here for months
with your mom alone. She's not supposed to be picking anything up."

"That was more information..." Stormy started to say and Nikki cut
her a look to make her be quit.

"I'm sorry but I wanted to keep those fries from coming up over the
hills. I did a damn good job of it. At lease mom doesn't have to go
back to the beach. I've been scared of how Starry would react to
strangers. I've been getting a place set up for us. I know I've been
leaning on you and mom. I've been mostly scared of how everyone
would react to some news. Maybe might think that someone could
replace Tonya. They can't and they won't." Decker said and he
sounded like he was trying to avoid something. Like he was lying or
something he acted to much like Nikki would when he was lying.

Nichals sat by Kira a bit nervous and everyone was quit. Till Ryan
said, "Why would you think that for? I mean no one thought I was
taking Sasha's place." I dropped my fork because no one ever
mentioned her name expect a few times that Nikki and I did in
private.

"Hell Decker, your mother and I have been there for you and will
always be there for you. You're our first-born son. I told you that once
and I'll tell you it again. We're just happy your finally going to
start taking responsibilities. That's what's important. Now let's
eat."

Everyone started eating. My blood boiled and I don't know why but I
just snapped. "How do you know anything about Sasha? How dare you
ever say her name Ryan?" I said standing up. He looked at me and all
I could see was Brandy in him or Jenna what ever she was calling
herself.

"Baby maybe Stormy mentioned her or maybe he over heard us talking
about her one day. Sit and eat you need to keep your strength up."

"I'm tired of pretending. Stop treating me like I'm royalty
Franklin. Stop pretending your someone your not. And you Decker I
don't care if your fucking the entire world this baby should be your
number one thing. You are our son and always will be. Ryan we took
you in as a baby and tried to raise you the best we could only
because your mother is a selfish slut that your daddy just had to
feel sorry for and try to take care of the mistake he made." Nikki
looked at me and trying to stop me. "Yeah I'm talking about you
Franklin Carlton Serafino Ferrana Jr. I know all about your little
pecker getting you in all sorts of trouble Mr. You think your dad is
dead well take a good look at him because he's alive and well Ryan
right fucking here."

I stormed out of the room pissed and I really didn't know why other
then an email that a girl named Silvia sent me saying Nikki had the
real DNA papers hidden from me. That my thinking was right about
Ryan being his son. It hurt me because I felt Nikki didn't care
about Sasha. I felt like he had always planned to run off and start
a new family with someone else. He should of I had nothing to offer
him anymore. We hadn't made love since New Years Eve. I was scared
with him being on tour with Motley old habits would creep in for him.

Nikki walked in to the kitchen where I was standing at. He put his
arms around me and turned me around to face him. "Where did that
come from? Have you heard from Jenna and don't lie to me Elizabeth."

"Yeah she said you hid the real papers from me because you were
scared I'd leave you if I ever found out the truth and that even if
Sasha lived..." He put his finger to my lips.