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september 13
wednesday
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"Jade, it's going to be okay," Cimani said softly, rubbing her back in soothing circles.
I shook my head, tears spilling down my cheeks. "No, it's not, C. I lost him... It's done," I choked out, my voice barely above a whisper as I sniffled, trying to hold back the sobs that threatened to break free.
Cimani sighed, her heart heavy seeing me like this. "You didn't lose him, Jade. Y'all just need some time apart, some space to figure things out. Don't give up on it just yet."
I looked down, my vision blurred with tears. I had told the girls everything that went down between me and Zayvior—the arguments, the doubts, the secrets that weighed me down. I needed to let it out, and they came through, like they always did. But right now, nothing felt like it could fix the mess I was in.
My'Ari reached over and grabbed my hand, squeezing it tight. "Look, Jade, relationships get rocky, but that don't mean it's over. Zay just needs to cool off, and so do you. Ain't no way y'all throwing away what y'all got over this."
I sighed, wiping my face with the back of my hand. "I know, but... it's more than that. It's like, everything's been building up, and I don't even know where to start fixing it. It feels like the trust is gone."
"Girl, you stronger than that," Kailany said, sitting down beside me. "You ain't got this far for nothing. You just gotta get your mind right. If you love him, then fight for it. But if you need to walk away for your peace, do that too. Don't let nobody rush you."
I nodded, taking in their words. They were right, but it still didn't take away the pain sitting heavy in my chest. "I just... I don't even know what to do next. It's like everything is falling apart."
"Jade, you gotta take it one step at a time," Cimani said, her voice calm and steady. "First, focus on you. Get yourself right, and everything else will follow. Zay gonna come around when he sees you doing you."
"Exactly," My'Ari added. "And we got your back, no matter what. You ain't alone in this."
Their support meant the world, but the ache in my heart still lingered. I just couldn't shake the feeling that maybe, just maybe, Zayvior and I had reached the point of no return. But as I looked at my girls, I knew one thing for sure—I wasn't going through this alone.
"Thanks, y'all," I said, my voice small but filled with gratitude. "I don't know what I'd do without you."
Cimani pulled me into a hug, holding me close. "You don't have to, Jade. We got you, always."
And for the first time that day, I felt a small glimmer of hope. Maybe things would be okay after all. Or maybe they wouldn't. But either way, I knew I'd make it through—one way or another.
