𝘔𝘺 𝘙𝘰𝘴𝘦 🥀

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I couldn't sleep. After seeing Bunny in town yesterday I know Mama told her to come to our house.... but she never did. It made me think that maybe she didn't wanna be around me. Which I could respect it.

Our interaction was kinda weird, I knocked everything out of her hands. She rushed away from me too, so I didn't talk more as I wanted to. Maybe she still needs time to think.

But she looked different. Like she'd been going through somethin alone and I don't want that for her. I'm supposed to be there for her cause I told her I would.

And hearing that her parents ain't been home.... touched a part of me that Id never felt. I can't imagine what she goin through right now. What her minds thinkin... She shouldn't be doing it by herself when she got two older siblings.

But I told her I would take their place. So I need to be down that road with her...comforting her... rocking her to sleep like usual. But I don't know if she wanna see me.

All these buts.

I closed my eyes, attempting to go to sleep for the umptenth time but having no luck. Somethin was calling out to me...my mind was tellin me somethin. It was hard to catch on and I just felt the need to talk to Mama.

Hopefully she was awake.

I tip toed through the house. Peeking in my sisters rooms to see if they was sleepin, all lookin peaceful under the covers. It's good to see they're resting.

Downstairs I could see Mamas room lamp on, meaning she was up. Most likely reading a book or watching her stories on low. I softly knocked on her door before hearing her say to come in.

"You still up? I thought you were sleepin." She smiled small as I walked inside, glancing at the tv.

"Mama I can't sleep...it's like somethin bugging me."

"Yep...I feel the same thang. Every time I try to close my eyes it's like my mind get to wonderin."

"You think it got somethin to do wit Ms.Carol?"

"I know it does. Ain't no way she just up and left without tellin me nothin. We don't do that."

"I feel like what's botherin me got somethin to do wit Bunny...She ain't seem like herself when I saw her yesterday."

"I'm sure she losin her mind. Her parents goin through somethin that no child would wish. She lost her happiness ridin horses, her parents goin through the trials and tribulations....now she left alone at home with no guidance. I want her here so bad but I don't wanna force her."

"Not to mention her sister and brother blame her for everything."

Mama shook her head, still facing the tv. I sighed.

"I wanna check on her..apologize."

Mama went quiet. She looked like she wanted to say somethin, but was holdin back. It scared me. Mama never hold back on what she gotta say. At least not to me. I get the first thing that come to her mind every time we talk.

"Beyoncé...."

"Mama."

"I know what you saw that night."

"Huh?"

"You heard me." She looked at me. A hint of anger but concern at the same time. I became scared. My heart beat quicker than it ever had and I wanted to cry. It still ain't felt real. "Robert should be in jail right now, and you could go down wit him."

"Mama I ain't do nothin, I promise you."

"I know you ain't. But you planned to. That's what made you go out there in the first place, ain't it?"

"Not to kill him Mama."

"You gotta tell." She sat up in the bed, getting up. I looked at her confused as she moved around her room. Am I hearing her right? "Tell the sheriff before they find that body and it be a case leadin back this way. We been peaceful all these years."

"Mama I can't tell-"

"You can. If you wanna see the light of day forever you oughta. Cause with nobody knowin where Robert is, they gon trace all of it back here. And you the only other one that know exactly what happened that night. I don't even know. But I know enough."

"Mama-"

"I don't wanna hear anotha word unless it's yes ma'am." She pointed at me. I swallowed my words, looking at my feet. Mama knows what's best, she always has. Even though we would be scared she knew. And i'm scared like hell but....she knows. "Now...you got about two days to think about what you gon tell 'em. But once they find that body, it's over with. I prefer you gon down before they find it, tell 'em the body in the lake and keep it-"

"The body not...it's not in the lake Mama." I mumbled, finally looking up at her. Why'd she say the body was in the lake? We never hid it...We left it close to town so somebody could see it.

"Or wherever it is." She turned her back to me, her focus on her dresser. There's somethin she ain't tellin me...

"Mama what did you do?"

"I ain't did nothin Giselle."

"So why you say the body in the lake when we ain't-"

"I was makin a guess. Now don't ask me nothin else about this. Understand?" She turned to me, a look of seriousness. I nodded. Those eyes alone put fear in me and I didn't wanna think of another question. "Now....I think you should go check on Bunny. Make sure she alright cause we ain't havin these feelings fa nothin."

"But what if she don't wanna speak to me?"

"Then that's somethin you deal with when you get there. Until then, be a good friend and do your part. I'm sure she need you."

"It's late at night, I can go now?"

"Take ya truck and gon head. Be careful Giselle."

"Yes ma'am, Mama. I'll call you if anything happens."

"Let me know when you get there."

"Yes ma'am."

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I drove down that road the slowest I ever had. Somethin in me was afraid. Afraid of what I would see, what I would hear. But a part of me needed to see her. I hate when we're apart on bad terms.

She deserves happiness at all times. The happiness she had when we first met...always. That's the best version of her.

At some point that road came to an end. I was parked in front of the Maraj home, starin at the porch. She gotta be here, the porch light on and the animals put away. Maybe she's doin fine.

That gave me a push and I got out the truck going to knock. I remembered the signal knock I gave her a bit back, knocking three times. She could be sleepin.

I didnt stop knocking though. It felt like thirty minutes had gone by....I was still waiting. Sitting in the rocking chair on the porch, I stared into the darkness, thinkin.

My foot kicked the hay made rug on the porch, scooting it the more I kicked. And I just knew the lord was answering my prayers.

A key shined clear and I gasped when it opened the front door. Now I became scared. It was dark inside. Knowin Ms.Carol always kept some type of light on, my nerves peeked.

"Bunny! You home?!" I clicked on the kitchen light. Looking around I could see the home items that she'd just bought sitting on the counter. She must ain't feel like puttin em away. "Bunny it's me!"

I made my way upstairs, hopin to see her inside her room. Maybe sleepin the peaceful way she does in my bed.

"Bunny." I knocked on the door, opening it next. There was a cold breeze that hit me from her window being open and I closed it. Her bed was empty, like she was asleep and never made it up.

I huffed. Maybe she sleep somewhere else. I kept looking around. Not believing that I was out of luck on finding her....

At some point I realized my search was over.... so I called Mama.

"You made it?"

"Mama....Bunny ain't here."