He is too well-behaved

Chapter 6. Don't tell him, please

    　When the secret was told so blatantly, Shen Gusi thought he would panic and get nervous, but he wasn't.

　　He just lowered his head, because he could feel He Zhou's sympathetic eyes from the corner of his eye, leaving only two words in Shen Gusi's heart.

　　sad.

　　Shen Gusi wanted to laugh when his love for someone ended up with others sympathizing with him, but he couldn't because he was afraid that his heart would die from the heart-wrenching pain.

　　He Zhou saw Shen Gusi's expression and knew that he had guessed right. Shen Gusi's silence was the best answer.

　　He Zhou sighed: "Gu Si, after so many years, don't you understand it yet?"

　　"If Xu Jiashen was moved by what you did and the efforts you made, he would have been moved a long time ago. Why don't you understand? Why do you have to hang yourself on a tree?"

　　He Zhou spoke with deep sorrow.

　　He couldn't understand what Shen Gusi was thinking. Over the years, he thought that as time went on, Shen Gusi would wake up after being hurt.

　　The fact is, instead of coming to his senses, Shen Gusi fell deeper and deeper into depravity.

　　"I understand." Shen Gusi slowly clenched his palm into a fist.

　　There were some truths that he understood from the very beginning.

　　But understanding is one thing, and doing it is another. Not everyone can let it go, at least Shen Gusi can't.

　　He would rather crawl humbly beside Xu Jiashen than have nothing to do with him anymore.

　　"Well, whatever you want. You won't listen even if I tell you." After saying it so many times, He Zhou didn't expect Shen Gusi to listen. If he could listen, he would have left Xu Jiashen long ago.

　　"But what about the child? What are you going to do? Will Xu Jiashen accept it?"

　　Shen Gusi shook his head: "I don't plan to tell him."

　　"Don't tell him?" He Zhou was stunned for a moment: "Then what are you going to do? Wait until the baby is born and then tell him? Based on his personality, he will definitely be angry."

　　Shen Gusi smiled bitterly: "I know, so I came to the hospital today to abort the baby."

　　"Knock it off?!"

　　Compared to He Zhou's astonishment, Shen Gusi seemed much calmer: "Yeah."

　　"Are you serious? No, you can talk to Xu Jiashen about it. Gu Si, I don't think he would be so heartless. You have known each other for ten years and have been together for three years. You should talk to him properly..."

　　Shen Gusi interrupted: "He will be angry."

　　"He will chase me away, so I can't let him know."

　　If possible, he also hoped that Xu Jiashen could accept the child and he can give birth to the child, but the risk was too great and Shen Gusi did not dare to take the risk.

　　"So I think..." He Zhou wanted to say something to comfort him, but the pale words made him at a loss for words.

　　"He Zhou, Xu Jiashen doesn't know about this, right?"

　　He Zhou nodded: "After you fainted, he took you directly to see a doctor. When I was about to leave, I saw your medical record card fell to the ground. He didn't know."

　　"That's good." Shen Gusi breathed a sigh of relief.

　　"Gu Si, I think it's better to talk about this. After you fainted today, he carried you to see the doctor. He must have feelings for you. If you talk to him, Xu Jiashen might accept it and even marry you."

　　"marry?"

　　He once had such a dream, but later reality made him dare not even hope for it.

　　"No." Shen Gusi said.

　　For most of every month, he was always in endless fear and worry, fearing that Xu Jiashen would not want him and that he would be abandoned by Xu Jiashen.

　　Shen Gusi spent three years and more than a thousand days and nights feeling like he was standing on the edge of a cliff, teetering on the edge of it.

　　"He Zhou, please don't tell him about this, okay? Please."

　　"Is that all?" He Zhou asked.

　　Shen Gusi didn't answer. He raised his wet eyes and didn't open his mouth, but He Zhou seemed to have heard the answer.

　　"You're like that again."

　　He Zhou sighed helplessly, "It was the same back then. He insisted on giving Xu Jiashen a blood transfusion even though he was clearly anemic. As a result, he almost died."

　　A few years ago, Xu Jiashen was in a car accident and was hospitalized. Shen Gusi rushed over immediately after hearing the news. He heard in the hospital that the patient had type O blood, but the hospital did not have enough blood in stock, and it would take time to transfer stock from other places. He was afraid that if he was too late, the patient's life would be in danger.

　　After hearing this, Shen Gusi had no time to think about it. He concealed his mild anemia from the doctor and had his blood successfully drawn and was sent to the emergency room.

　　When he woke up slowly from the hospital bed, the first thing he saw was He Zhou's angry expression, saying that he did not care about himself at all and did not know how to cherish life.

　　Who wouldn't cherish life? But at that moment, he wanted Xu Jiashen to be alive better than himself.

　　"When he wakes up, if he asks, just say that you donated your blood to him, okay?" This was the first sentence Shen Gusi said to He Zhou.

　　"Why? You risked your life to save him."

　　"No."

　　Shen Gusi shook his head.

　　"He will be angry and think my blood is dirty. He Zhou, he likes you so much. If he thinks that the person who gave him the blood transfusion is you, he will definitely be very happy."

　　"Just consider it a favor, please."

　　His pleading tone was so heartbreaking that He Zhou swallowed his words of refusal.

　　Time passes, scenes overlap, but Shen Gusi is still the same Shen Gusi.

　　Shen Gusi, who said nothing but was willing to give his entire life for Xu Jiashen.