He is too well-behaved

Chapter 48. Something is wrong with Xu Jiashen

　　The atmosphere between the two was so good at the beginning. Shen Gusi was half-hearted and finally did not reject Xu Jiashen. But when he was about to take a step closer, Shen Gusi screamed as if she had been electrocuted.

　　"When did you get a scar on your stomach?" Xu Jiashen's words echoed in Shen Gusi's ears over and over again, defeating him.

　　Shen Gusi pulled his clothes hard, not wanting to expose the scar to Xu Jiashen again.

　　"What's wrong?"

　　Xu Jiashen held Shen Gusi's hand and called his name, trying to wake him up.

　　Shen Gusi slowly opened his eyes, fear revealed in his confusion, tears reflected in his eyes, and his eyelashes trembled slightly.

　　"What's wrong with you?" Shen Gusi just now really scared Xu Jiashen, and he still feels a little scared.

　　Shen Gusi had almost recovered. He did not forget to cover his stomach and said with a breath, "I... am fine..."

　　His voice was still trembling, his face was pale, and his lips were white, as if he had just experienced a life-and-death ordeal.

　　How could Xu Jiashen possibly believe it, but he couldn't think of any reason.

　　Everything was fine in the previous second, but suddenly changed in the next second. Everything happened so unexpectedly that Xu Jiashen didn't have any time to react.

　　There were no signs at all.

　　No matter how good the atmosphere was, it was now completely gone. Xu Jiashen let go of Shen Gusi's hand, got up from him, and sat down beside the bed.

　　He turned his back to Shen Gusi, buttoned up his shirt silently, and said, "If you don't want me to touch you, you can say it. Don't force yourself. I'm not such a beast that I would force you."

　　"No." Shen Gu wanted to explain, but when he opened his mouth he found that he couldn't find any reason to explain.

　　Could she just tell him directly that it was because she had a scar on her stomach? I was afraid that Xu Jiashen would think such a reason was ridiculous.

　　Only Shen Gusi knew that, to this day, he still hated looking at himself in the mirror with his upper body naked, so there was no full-length mirror in the bathroom at home, and he only took a quick shower every time.

　　Even though Lulu was so well-behaved and obedient, and he loved her so much, Shen Gusi was glad that keeping Lulu was the right choice, but it did not mean that he had accepted this deformed body.

　　He was still afraid, so Shen Gusi never told Lulu who gave birth to her. He would rather make up a lie that her mother went to heaven.

　　It's ridiculous, isn't it? Even Shen Gusi himself finds it ridiculous. He has even given birth to a child, but he still wants to retain some self-esteem.

　　So the words came to my lips and became "I'm sorry".

　　"What are you sorry for?" Xu Jiashen turned his head and asked.

　　The word he heard Shen Gusi say most often was "I'm sorry."

　　"Maybe, I'm just not used to it yet. Maybe it will be fine after a few days." Shen Gusi said, pursing his lips like a child who had made a mistake.

　　Seeing him look so pitiful, even though Xu Jiashen was a little annoyed just now, he couldn't vent it on Shen Gusi now.

　　He sighed, as if admitting defeat: "Okay, just treat me as a fool today, and don't push me away next time."