He is too well-behaved

Chapter 3. I was deeply wrong

  　Shen Gusi felt that the person on him stopped.

　　His heart skipped a beat, and the hot and ambiguous atmosphere took a sharp turn for the worse. His confused mind suddenly came to its senses as if it had been slapped in the face when his eyes met Xu Jiashen's cold gaze.

　　It's so cold.

　　Shen Gusi couldn't help but shiver.

　　He wanted to cling to Shen Shen tightly, hoping that Shen Shen's hot body temperature could be transferred to his body through their skin.

　　But no matter how much Shen Gusi wanted to hug him, Xu Jiashen didn't move, and his cold eyes made Shen Gusi despair.

　　It's like a person standing on the shore, watching him struggling in the water, letting the life-saving straw he is holding on to break.

　　"Shen Shen." Shen Gusi cried with a trembling voice.

　　It was obvious that he only needed to raise himself a little to hug Shen Shen, and the two of them were so close that there was no barrier between them.

　　But Shen Gusi still felt it was very far away, and getting farther and farther.

　　He put his arms around his neck and kissed his cheeks and earlobes, but he didn't dare to kiss his mouth.

　　Because to be honest, kissing someone you don't love is disgusting.

　　Once when Shen Gusi was confused and infatuated, he couldn't help but kiss Xu Jiashen lightly.

　　In just a moment, he was pulled out of Xu Jiashen's warm embrace and thrown on the bed alone. Shen Gusi waited for the whole night, but Xu Jiashen did not come back.

　　He didn't see Shen Shen for that month.

　　So Shen Gusi learned his lesson. Shen Shen didn't like kissing him, and he couldn't do anything that Shen Shen didn't like, otherwise he would be abandoned.

　　But he always forgets the pain once the wound has healed, and becomes complacent as long as someone is just a little bit nice to him.

　　It made him deeply angry again.

　　"Shen Shen."

　　Feeling Xu Jiashen's withdrawal, Shen Gusi became anxious and almost cried: "I was wrong, I shouldn't have said that, don't be angry."

　　"Shen Gusi."

　　His lower body was still hard and hot, but he could say such cruel and cold words.

　　"Don't say such disgusting things. If you say that again next time, just get out of here."

　　Just go away.

　　These four words are too heavy for Shen Gusi.

　　He loosened his hands around Xu Jiashen's neck and covered his slightly bulging belly tightly, fearing that Shen Shen would notice the strangeness of his body: "No, never again, I'm just kidding, Shen Shen, don't be angry."

　　Shen Shen dislike children.

　　Maybe he doesn't like children, or maybe he just doesn't like being with his children.

　　Shen Gusi didn't know how it ended in the end. He only knew it hurt. Xu Jiashen's movements were no longer gentle, and every one of them seemed like a punishment for him.

　　Punish him for his wishful thinking and self-conceit.

　　It hurts too much, both physically and mentally, it hurts too much for Shen Gusi. He is a person who can endure pain very well, but he can endure pain only because he is a good actor, it doesn't mean that he doesn't really feel any pain.

　　Many times, Shen Gusi looked at Xu Jiashen's face so close to him and was about to shout out.

　　"Shen Shen, I'm in so much pain, I'm so sad, can you have pity on me and like me for a little bit."

　　He didn't dare to ask Xu Jiashen to like him, he could only hope that Shen Jiashen would show him some love out of pity for him. But even so, Shen Gusi didn't dare to say it out loud.

　　Shen Gusi had gone through everything, no matter the joys or sorrows, over the years, walking very carefully, as if walking on thin ice, and had survived one year after another.

　　After a lot of effort, he finally came to Xu Jiashen's side. He didn't want to let all his efforts go to waste because of his pain and sadness.

　　He loves Xu Jiashen.

　　Much more love than he had imagined.