He is too well-behaved

Chapter 78. I want to be with you

　　Shen Gusi himself knew that he was the one that no one wanted.

　　Even though so many relatives and friends praised Shen Gusi for being obedient, compared him to their own children, and always liked to say similar things, "Look how sensible Gusi is, unlike our children, who are naughty and mischievous."

　　But even so, although they said they envied Shen Gusi for being so obedient, they would still give all their love to their own children and put delicious food into their children's bowls.

　　When the children pick out the food they dislike, they will just pretend to be angry and scold them, saying "you are picky about food", and then put the food on the table into their own bowl.

　　After seeing it so many times, Shen Gusi got used to it.

　　Since his parents divorced, neither of them has visited him. They never asked about the child support after it was deposited into his bank card. The trajectory of his life became that he was sent to different families every few weeks and had to live his life according to other people's wishes.

　　Shen Gusi's life was a cycle of being taken in and then abandoned.

　　He tried his best to please everyone. He tried his best to please those who were mean to him and bullied him, and he tried even harder to please those who were good to him. Shen Gusi became a pushover in school.

　　Whether it was the duty he didn't want to do or the group assignments for exams, Shen Gusi always did everyone's work by himself, from childhood to adulthood, from junior high school to university.

　　Later, when he fell in love with Xu Jiashen, Shen Gusi didn't know how to do anything. The only thing he could do was to do what he had done since he was a child, be obedient, please others, and wait for others to look at him and praise him.

　　But what you get from compromising is never love, but even more disgust.

　　He was constantly injured. Before the old wounds had healed, another wound would appear on top of the original ones. This happened over and over again. The scabby wounds could never heal and began to fester.

　　Shen Gusi covered the scars all over his body tightly to prevent others from seeing them, thinking that this way he could stay with Xu Jiashen longer.

　　What's the result?

　　He was given away to someone else and then abandoned. He gave birth to the child alone with great difficulty, thinking that he would just live an ordinary life like this, but then Xu Jiashen found him.

　　He thought it was the beginning of happiness, but he didn't expect it to be the beginning of a nightmare.

　　Lulu died, and he was once again thrown to someone else.

　　It seemed as if all bad things kept happening to him, leaving him no chance to refuse, as if to punish him.

　　Lulu's death, grandma's death, he has nothing left, Xu Jiashen is pressing him step by step, Shen Gusi thinks back on the first half of his life, he has accomplished nothing, it's both ridiculous and sad.

　　He thought, it would be nice if he could escape from this world.

　　It was so painful. Why was living such a painful thing? Hope for the future became weak and slim. He could hardly see the light and the sky was covered with dark clouds.

　　He is now at the bottom of the abyss and cannot see the sun at all.

　　"dad."

　　In the layers of fog, he heard the familiar voice.