He is too well-behaved

Chapter 9. He doesn't want to see you

　After Xu Jiashen left, Shen Gusi slowly got down from the bed, cleaned up the leftover dishes, picked up the quilt stained with porridge from the ground and placed it on the stool.

　　After finishing all this, Shen Gusi wiped the sweat from his forehead and left the hospital carrying the insulated lunch box brought by Xu Jiashen.

　　His fever had not subsided yet, and even his steps were unsteady. Logically, he should have stayed in bed and rested, but the ward without anyone by his side was too depressing, and Shen Gusi didn't want to stay there for even a minute longer.

　　I hailed a taxi at the hospital gate, and the moment I got in, my tired body let out a sigh.

　　I fell asleep in the car in a daze, and was awakened only by the driver calling me a few times. I rubbed my eyes and found that the car was parked in front of the community gate.

　　"I'm so sorry, I fell asleep. Thank you."

　　Shen Gusi apologized, paid the money and hurriedly got out of the car. When he was about to close the door, he saw the driver turned his head and said to him, "Young man, I see that you don't look well. Are you feeling unwell?"

　　Shen Gusi was stunned for a moment, shook his head, and smiled at the driver: "It's okay, I just have a little fever."

　　"Then you should have a good rest."

　　"Well, thank you. You should be careful on the road too."

　　He closed the car door and watched the car speed away until it gradually disappeared from view.

　　Strangers he had never met would express their concern for him, but the people he cared about never cared about him.

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　　After going to the hospital last time, Shen Gusi rested at home for a whole week.

　　Shen Gusi's body was not in good condition to begin with due to the high fever, and he didn't dare to take any medicine during pregnancy. He could only drink more hot water and sweat more to get rid of the heat, so the effect was naturally slower than taking medicine.

　　After a lot of effort, the fever finally went away, but the cold came back again and again, and I was tortured by nasal congestion and headaches for several days.

　　At the end of a long week, Shen Gusi felt as if he was in another world. He opened the door again and stood in the sun, feeling as if a century had passed.

　　And during the entire week that Shen Gusi was at home, Xu Jiashen didn't come once.

　　Except for the night when Xu Jiashen returned home from the hospital, he called and asked Shen Gusi why he left without saying a word. Before Shen Gusi could explain, he hung up angrily.

　　After that, no matter how Shen Gusi called, the call was either busy or no one answered, and all the messages he sent fell on deaf ears.

　　He knew that he was deeply angry, but he was sick and he didn't dare to look for him, for fear of infecting Xu Jiashen.

　　Shen Shen is already busy and has a lot of work to do every day. It would be bad if he caught a cold.

　　Now that he has finally recovered from his illness, Shen Gusi took his temperature before going out.

　　It only takes ten minutes to walk from home to Xu Jiashen's company.

　　The house was where Xu Jiashen lived before, and later it was left to Shen Gusi. Xu Jiashen would come back to live occasionally, but most of the time, it was Shen Gusi who was waiting.

　　Waiting and waiting, several years passed.

　　When he walked downstairs to the company, Shen Gusi hesitated.

　　He knew in his heart that Xu Jiashen definitely didn't want to see him, but he was still secretly holding on to that unrealistic fantasy.

　　The relationship was like walking on thin ice, so Shen Gusi took every step carefully.

　　But missing you is too hard to bear, especially when I am sick. I seem to become extra fragile. Things that I didn't feel wronged or sad about before often make me cry when I think about them.

　　So Shen Gusi went in anyway, even though he knew he wouldn't be treated well and wouldn't be welcomed, but he still couldn't control himself.

　　The people coming and going in the hall made Shen Gusi feel uneasy. The glass ceiling above his head allowed sunlight to penetrate freely, leaving its mark on the clean, reflective tiles.

　　Shen Gusi took a deep breath and when he walked towards the elevator, he was stopped by the receptionist because he didn't have a card.

　　"Sir, who are you looking for?"

　　"I..." Shen Gusi swallowed nervously: "Looking for Shen... No, I'm looking for Xu Jiashen, Mr. Xu."

　　The lady at the front desk was stunned for a moment, then after looking him up and down, she smiled professionally and said, "Sir, do you have an appointment?"

　　Shen Gusi shook his head: "No."

　　"I'm sorry, I can't let you in then,"

　　Of course Shen Gusi thought that he would be stopped. It was not easy to see Xu Jiashen, but now that he was there, he felt unwilling to go back like this.

　　And Shen Shen doesn't contact him at all. How long will it take for these days of being left out to end?

　　"Then can you help me tell him that someone named Shen Gusi is downstairs and wants to see him."

　　The receptionist wanted to refuse, but she couldn't say no when she saw the expectant look in the other person's eyes. "Okay, then. Please wait a moment."

　　"Thank you, thank you."

　　The receptionist dialed Xu Jiashen's number, and after a few brief "Oh", "OK", and "I understand, Mr. Xu", she quickly hung up the phone.

Shen Gusi held his breath, like a prisoner waiting for sentencing.

　　"I'm sorry, Mr. Xu said he's very busy today and can't see you."

　　"I see..."

　　Even if you have guessed something long ago, you will still feel sad and disappointed when it actually happens.

　　Shen Shen definitely didn't want to see him, which was something he had expected, but he still couldn't help but hold on to a glimmer of hope, hoping that Shen Shen wanted to see him as much as he wanted to see him.

　　Even just half is fine.

　　"Thank you for your help."

　　Go back, Shen Gusi, he doesn't want to see you, all you can do is wait.

　　Waiting for him to remember you.

　　Shen Gusi thanked the receptionist and turned to leave. When he was about to reach the door, he was stopped by someone behind him.

　　When Shen Gusi turned around, he saw the receptionist running after him, panting in ten-centimeter high heels.

　　"Um... Mr. Xu said that he wants you to go up."