He is too well-behaved

Chapter 66. I don't want to see you again

　　Shen Gusi shrank back.

　　He dodged the hand that Xu Jiashen extended, looking a little panicked.

　　"I do not understand."

　　Shen Gusi took a step back, distanced himself from Xu Jiashen, and raised his head, his eyes full of confusion and doubt: "Why do you like me? I don't deserve your love."

　　He is obviously so bad.

　　Even though he was no longer wearing tattered clothes and was wearing clothes that Xu Jiashen had carefully selected for him, Shen Gusi still felt that he was not worthy of standing next to Xu Jiashen.

　　He is too low, probably a seed buried deep in the dust, never sprouting, waiting to be slowly forgotten.

　　"I don't like jokes." Shen Gusi shook his head. He felt that Xu Jiashen was just teasing him, but such jokes made him feel sad.

　　"I'm not kidding." Xu Jiashen said.

　　"I know you must think I'm joking, but I'm serious. I really want to be with you and I want you to give me a chance so that I can take care of you."

　　"Okay?"

　　Shen Gusi looked at him blankly, his heart touched by Xu Jiashen's deep gaze. For a moment, he was really shaken.

　　But it was only a brief moment.

　　Shen Gusi came back to his senses and realized how big the gap was between him and Xu Jiashen, the distance between reality and fantasy.

　　"No."

　　He became flustered. On the one hand, he thought that Xu Jiashen was just joking to make him happy, but on the other hand, he wanted to believe it.

　　Why is it so contradictory?

　　"I can't promise you..." Xu Jiashen hasn't said why he likes him, so those words must be lies and he can't believe them.

　　Besides, he is a man, what's there to like in a man?

　　"Don't you like me?"

　　Xu Jiashen was not too surprised to be rejected by Shen Gusi. He had not intended to say it out loud at first, but he just couldn't hold back and vented his emotions.

　　Shen Gusi's rejection would not make him give up. Although he would feel frustrated, it was nothing compared to the fact that Shen Gusi had persisted for so long.

　　Xu Jiashen was mentally prepared to stay with Shen Gusi for one, two, or even ten years.

　　Xu Jiashen's words left Shen Gusi unable to answer.

　　Shen Gusi lowered his head and looked at his toes, hoping that he could disappear from this world right on the spot.

　　"So do you hate me?" Xu Jiashen asked again, but this time, his tone was sad.

　　"No."

　　Shen Gusi raised his head anxiously, afraid that Xu Jiashen might misunderstand him, and quickly said, "I don't hate you..."

　　As soon as he finished speaking, he saw Xu Jiashen's triumphant smile: "So you like it?"

　　"Why do you always tease me?"

　　Shen Gusi felt extremely embarrassed. He was really troubled and at a loss because of Xu Jiashen's words.

　　"I don't like this." Shen Gusi said: "You must not like me, you must think I'm interesting and want to tease me. You give me so many good things just to make me dependent on you, but..."