He is too well-behaved

Chapter 27: Habits That Can't Be Changed

"Shen  Shen......"

　　Xu Jiashen didn't say anything. The silence made Shen Gusi feel uneasy. He reached out to touch Xu Jiashen, wanting to hold his hand.

　　Just as their fingertips touched, Xu Jiashen withdrew his hand the next second, as if he regarded Shen Gusi as some bacteria carrying a virus: "Don't touch me."

　　The voice is cold.

　　Shen Gusi felt as if he had fallen into an ice cellar, sinking deep into the lake, getting farther and farther away from the shore until he could no longer see it.

　　"I don't want to eat anymore." Seeing Shen Gusi's surprised and sad expression, Xu Jiashen felt uncomfortable. He tried hard to ignore the vague feelings that controlled him and denied that all this was influenced by Shen Gusi.

　　He was in a bad mood, which must be because he didn't sleep well last night, so he was in a bad mood when he woke up in the morning. It had nothing to do with Shen Gusi.

　　"I'm going back to bed."

　　Xu Jiashen was upset, especially when he saw Shen Gusi's face, he couldn't help but get angry and couldn't help but want to show his bad mood to Shen Gusi.

　　It was as if he wanted to let Shen Gusi know that he was very angry, unhappy, and irritated.

　　Xu Jiashen didn't know that he was now like a child who was throwing a tantrum and wanted attention.

　　Shen Gusi looked at Xu Jiashen's back as he left without looking back. He looked so decisive as if he was about to leave his world. Just one glance made Shen Gusi almost unable to breathe.

　　He never asked Shen Shen to love him, never asked to be able to see Shen Shen every day, and even gave without expecting anything in return, swallowing all the grievances in his stomach.

　　Shen Gusi has never been a greedy person. He knows that being able to stay with Shen Shen is a blessing, so he has to be nice to Shen Shen because he likes her.

　　Because only in this way can you avoid being driven away and abandoned.

　　Just like when he was little, every adult liked to say to him: "You have to be obedient and sensible, then adults will like you, otherwise who would want you."

　　Shen Gusi lived cautiously like a dying patient. He attributed the reasons why others disliked him to himself, but forgot that there are many people in the world who are disliked for no reason.

　　He lived too hard. Even He Zhou said: "Gu Si, don't give in unconditionally just to please others. Your life is your own, and your future life is also your own."

　　"I can't change it." Shen Gusi said with a smile: "I'm used to it."

　　His sadness is always insignificant because he is always used to hiding it.

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　　Xu Jiashen was awakened by hunger.

　　It was already evening and the curtains were drawn in the bedroom, making it too dark to see anything. There was a crack in the bedroom door, and the light from the corridor shone through it, leaving a streak of light on the ground.

　　Xu Jiashen got off the bed, rubbed his hair and pushed open the door. His eyes, which had already adapted to the darkness, were caught off guard by the sudden light. After a brief adaptation, Xu Jiashen slowly put down his hands that were blocking the light.

　　He walked towards the restaurant with disheveled clothes and messy hair. The closer he got, the more he could smell food in the air. Xu Jiashen carefully identified it and found it was curry.