He is too well-behaved

Chapter 73. The person disappeared again

　　Xu Jiashen stayed in the alley until the sun rose in the east and a glow appeared on the horizon.

　　In the mornings in the city, the air is always mixed with the smell of rust from steel and concrete. The wheels of cars speeding past, raising dust. The clouds are blown away in the white sky, and the horizon slowly rises as the sun moves.

　　The glass of high-rise buildings reflected colorful light, the newly paved asphalt road was shiny black, and the bamboo broom made a "squeaking" sound as it rubbed against the concrete ground.

　　Xu Jiashen rubbed his dry eyes. After not sleeping all night and working and looking for Shen Gusi all day, his spirit has been stretched to the limit. His cloudy eyes are red, and if you look closely you can see red bloodshot.

　　His lips were dry and pale. Where he stood, there were cigarette butts all over his feet, and there was an empty cigarette box that was twisted into a ball.

　　Xu Jiashen kicked the empty shell and smoothed his rough and messy hair. His throat was dry and sore from smoking too much, and it felt hot as if it had been burned by fire.

　　Xu Jiashen had a bad feeling in his heart. He touched his forehead and felt it was a little hot.

　　It looks like I have a cold.

　　As he was thinking this, a gust of wind blew and Xu Jiashen shivered. He was never afraid of the cold, so even in winter, in order to pursue visual appeal, he never wore down jackets that would make him look bloated. At this moment, the coat he was wearing really lived up to the saying that it looked good but was not practical.

　　Xu Jiashen wrapped his clothes tightly. He planned to buy some breakfast, then go back to the car to rest, drink some water, and then continue to guard here.

　　Although Shen Gusi remembered everything and made it clear that he didn't want to see him, Xu Jiashen did not decide to give up.

　　Xu Jiashen was mentally prepared that Shen Gusi would not want to see him, including the fact that she would remember everything. Xu Jiashen expected that such a day would come, it just happened faster than he imagined.

　　Maybe Shen Gusi had never forgotten it, but it was just hidden somewhere invisible for a while, and then suddenly dug out.

　　The hurt will not be easily forgotten and will be reflected in countless unintentional actions.

　　Shen Gusi's distance from him, his struggle and resistance when he touched her, which seemed insignificant in the eyes of outsiders, were infinitely magnified in Xu Jiashen's eyes.

　　Because he cares so much, any small action will make him have wild thoughts.

　　Xu Jiashen began to think about the past, wondering if Shen Gusi was also like this when facing him. He often couldn't sleep all night because of his expression or unintentional actions, with mixed feelings.

　　Are you as cautious as yourself now, or even more cautious than yourself now?

　　Xu Jiashen knew it better than anyone else.

　　He could never make it up to Shen Gusi, and could never repay what he owed Shen Gusi. He was the one who committed the heinous crime, and he should be struck by lightning. Shen Gusi should not have to bear this.

　　Just like Lulu, he should know how difficult it is to get Shen Gusi to speak out, and he should think about what he said at the beginning, which was the reason why Shen Gusi kept silent.

　　But if he had checked earlier and found out earlier that Lulu was his daughter, instead of waiting for others to throw the truth in his face, then the situation now would definitely not be like this.