He is too well-behaved

Chapter 13: Don't Leave Me

　For a moment, Shen Gusi thought he was going to cry.

　　In fact, he was about to cry. His vision was blurred by tears, but he held on tightly to prevent them from falling.

　　Why, why would Shen Shen say such a thing?

　　Did he do something wrong? Did Shen Shen feel that he was disobedient? Was it because I looked for him without permission that made Shen Shen angry?

　　"Shen Shen."

　　Shen Gusi grabbed Xu Jiashen's clothes again, as if he was his only life-saving straw. He tried hard to smile, but looked particularly funny.

　　"Shen Shen, please don't be angry with me. From now on... I will listen to you in everything. I will never come to you without telling you again. I will be very obedient. I'm sorry, I'm sorry Shen Shen, I was wrong. You can punish me however you want. Please, don't say this..."

　　Don't say you don't want me.

　　Xu Jiashen didn't know that Shen Gusi had had many nightmares about leaving him for countless days and nights. After waking up from a nightmare, he would always breathe a sigh of relief, glad that he was still by Xu Jiashen's side.

　　He stayed beside Xu Jiashen in fear and trepidation, without any extravagant demands or hopes. In those days when even meeting him was difficult, he just kept waiting.

　　Waiting for the day when I will miss him deeply and look back at him.

　　But Shen Shen still didn't want him anymore.

　　Shen Gusi attributed all the causes and mistakes to himself.

　　This is an awareness that has existed in him since he was a child.

　　When his parents divorced, no one was willing to take him away. The adults always said that they didn't want him anymore because he was disobedient.

　　I was sent to a relative's house, and every time I stayed there for a while, I was driven to another family's house. The first thing they said when they met was: "Have you been naughty again?"

　　Therefore, Shen Gusi got used to looking for the reasons in himself every time he was abandoned or rejected. He felt that all the mistakes were ultimately caused by himself.

　　He was abandoned because he made the other party unbearable.

　　"Shen Shen, I was wrong. I was really wrong."

　　He shouldn't have come to Shen Shen without telling him just because he missed him so much, and he shouldn't have insisted on appearing in front of Shen Shen even though he knew that Shen Shen didn't want to see him.

　　"Shen Gusi."

　　Xu Jiashen pried open Shen Gusi's fingers, one by one, and pulled them off his sleeves: "I think it's quite suitable. It just so happens that Mr. Xiao likes you so much. Although he is not as good-looking as me, he is also a handsome guy. Or do you think Mr. Xiao is not worthy of you?"

　　"Shen Shen, I don't like him. I only like you."

　　I only like you, so whether others are good or bad has nothing to do with me.

　　I only like you, so I don't want to be with anyone else, I only want to be with you.

　　"Shen Shen, please don't do this to me, okay?" Tears had already slipped down his cheeks without him noticing. Shen Gusi raised his hand and wiped them away forcefully. The rough fabric on his cuffs made his face red.