He is too well-behaved

Chapter 8. Jealousy makes you look ugly

　　Xu Jiashen frowned.

　　He couldn't describe the feeling in his heart, but it was uncomfortable. Shen Gusi's happy look made him feel guilty.

　　Is this a thankful thing to say? Has he ever been mean to him?

　　"You mean I'm not nice to you?"

　　Shen Gusi never thought that Xu Jiashen would misunderstand him, and panicked for a moment: "Shen Shen, I didn't mean that, you have always been very good to me..."

　　Xu Jiashen sneered, obviously not believing Shen Gusi's words: "You say that on the surface, but who knows what you think in your heart? Maybe you have scolded me a thousand times."

　　"No!" Shen Gusi suddenly became excited.

　　He was too scared, afraid that Xu Jiashen would be angry, afraid that Xu Jiashen would really think so in his heart, afraid that Xu Jiashen would abandon him.

　　Years of living in fear like this have become a mental illness for Shen Gusi, tormenting him every moment, every minute, and every second.

　　A word, a look, or an expression from Xu Jiashen would sometimes make him happy for a long time, and sometimes keep him awake all night.

　　Xu Jiashen was shocked by Shen Gusi's overreaction. He didn't understand why Shen Gusi was so excited. He just felt strange: "It's not, it's not. Why are you yelling nonsense?"

　　He didn't understand anything, he didn't understand Shen Gusi's worries, he didn't understand Shen Gusi's fears, so in Xu Jiashen's eyes, such weird behavior was like a lunatic.

　　He didn't understand how much Shen Gusi was afraid of being abandoned.

　　Xu Jiashen had never asked about Shen Gusi's past, perhaps because he was simply not interested, or perhaps because he felt it was unnecessary.

　　He didn't know that from childhood to adulthood, Shen Gusi had been kicked around like a ball.

　　When his parents divorced, no one wanted to start a new life with a burden, so they left him to be raised by relatives.

　　Ever since Shen Gusi could remember, he had been moving from one relative's home to another every ten days or half a month.

　　All the elders praised him for being sensible and obedient, but none of them were willing to keep him and raise him.

　　Shen Gusi spent ten years worrying every day about whose house he would stay at and whether they would welcome him.

　　Until He Zhou took his hand and said, "Gu Si, you can live in our house from now on."

　　Because He Zhou had been frail and sickly since childhood, the couple loved their only son very much, so they kept Shen Gusi.

　　Shen Gusi knew clearly what it felt like to live under someone else's roof and be looked down upon by others. He knew that Mrs. He didn't like him, and Mr. He was only reluctant to say it out loud because of his uncle's status.

　　Although Shen Gusi has never told these things to anyone, the wound has always been there, waiting to fester.

　　"I'm sorry Shen Shen." He apologized quietly, looking uneasy as if he had made a mistake: "Don't be angry."

　　He is just too bad. He always makes people deeply unhappy and never learns his lesson.

　　"I'm not angry." Xu Jiashen curled his lips and said, "You won't understand even if I tell you."

　　He put the empty bowl on the table and said habitually: "You will clean these up yourself later..."

　　Halfway through his speech, Xu Jiashen probably realized that Shen Gusi was still a patient, so he paused and said, "Forget it, I'll ask someone to clean up later."

　　"Shen Shen, I can take care of it. No need to ask others."

　　He was afraid that Xu Jiashen would feel that he was useless, so he spoke quickly.

　　"If you're sick, just stay put. Don't go and complain to He Zhou, saying that I bullied you."

　　Shen Gusi was stunned: "I didn't complain to He Zhou..."

　　"Really?" Xu Jiashen obviously didn't believe Shen Gusi's words: "He just warned me not to look for him in the future."

　　He showed Shen Gusi a contemptuous smile, and nailed him to the cross of sin without any explanation: "Shen Gusi, jealousy makes people look ugly."

　　Shen Gusi's face, which had finally regained some color, suddenly turned pale. The more he tried to prove that he didn't do it, the more he looked angry and embarrassed in Xu Jiashen's eyes, and he couldn't defend himself.

　　"Shen Shen."

　　Countless words of explanation came to his lips, but after meeting Xu Jiashen's disbelieving eyes, he swallowed them back.

　　"I know, I won't do it again." He could only admit it, even though he had never done it before.

　　Xu Jiashen snorted softly to show that he heard it: "It's better to do this. You stay in the hospital well and don't let it happen again."

　　Shen Gusi watched Xu Jiashen leave. The closed door blocked Xu Jiashen's back but failed to block Shen Gusi's sight.

　　She didn't dare to ask him to stay, even though he hoped in his heart that Xu Jiashen would stay, even if it was just to accompany him quietly without saying too much.

　　But he couldn't, he had no identity, no qualifications, and no reason, so he couldn't express even the simplest wish.

　　Shen Gusi stared blankly at the closed ward door, as if Xu Jiashen was still standing there, just with his back facing him.