GREYS ANATOMY| Amelia x OC

Remember the Time

Christina hadn't talked for awhile, I'm talking weeks. Arizona went into a huge depressive episode. And mark was, mark. Derek turned angry and depressed. Meredith was trying to keep us all together. And Lexie was dead.

We all tried visiting mark and Arizona since they couldn't get out of bed but every time I stood up my lung would collapse so it was mostly just mer and Derek walking.

I had other people fill me in on what was going on because for myself and others because any time a doctor spoke it was like they weren't even talking. Everything was a blur.

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"I remember getting the bugs out of Arizonas leg. I put leaves on it, trying to keep them out. And mark, mark just kept dying. It was so annoying. I kept trying to help him but he just kept trying to die on me. I just wanted to lie down and sleep on him because he was warm. And I wanted to sleep. Meredith was asleep. Everyone was asleep. Arizona got the last of the water. And I remember drinking something bad. It might have been the fuel from the plane? I drank my pee. The noises, the animal noises. Fighting and growling right next to us, right there. I kept waiting for them to come and kill me but they didn't. And then I realized they were fighting over Lexie."

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I feel bad for Callie. She has Arizona and I to take care of. She had mark to take care of but now she doesn't have mark and that's worse. I keep apologizing but she just tells me to stop saying sorry. Which is somehow worse. I just want to say sorry. 

I want to take care of the kids and Arizona but I literally couldn't stand. I was wheelchair bound. Sometimes I still am. We have at least four in the house along with a seat in the shower and walkers everywhere.

I watched the surge. I listened to Marks life advice. I watched him go through the surge. And I hate to admit it but every time one of us got happy a part of me thought it was a surge.

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"Hey"

"Hey they let you out?"

"No, I made them bring me to you. I cant stand but i uh, probably shouldn't be talking about standing to you."

"No it's okay, my leg doesn't hurt"

"Nick drew you a battleship. Kinda looks like a balloon with a spout but it's a battleship."

Arizona laughed

"Hey thanks for taking care of me out there. Sorry if I bruised your shoulder for passing out on it so many times."

"It actually does have a red mark I wonder if that's what it's from" she laughs

"Probably" I laugh but I start to cough so that's my cue to get back to my room

"Bye"

"See you later Arizona"

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"Owen" I called

"Torres"

"Everyone keeps trying to milk my condition but can I ask you a question?"

"Yeah, of course."

"Two actually, am I gonna be able to stand without almost dying? And am I going to be able to be a surgeon?"

"The goal is-"

"I don't want the goal. I want a surgeons opinion"

"It'll take awhile but you'll be able to stand. Which means you'll be able to be a surgeon. You're going to be okay Elena."

"You know I hated you right"

"I know"

"But thank you. Because for a kind of crappy person you're a damn good surgeon. Actually I take that back. You're a crappy boyfriend, but you're an okay person, and I don't hate you."

"I never hated you"

"Well I Hope i Never gave you a reason to"

"No, you haven't"

"I would hug you but I can't get up so I'll shake your hand"

"A hand shake will do."

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I've been avoiding some of the meetings and putting Callie there in my place. She was already taking a place for Lexie and mark, but I don't mind not going.

I'm sitting on the couch with Arizona and we're watching tv when Callie comes over to talk about the settlement. Arizona has been avoiding and not talking to Callie. Callie leaves for work and now it's just us two.

"Elena, put your head on my shoulder"

"What- okay?" I say following her order

"Just for now, until you have to go to work."

"I'm home from the hospital not back to work yet. One week no problems, then I'm back."

"Well alright then"

"I'm asking you this here because physically we both can't move but uh, when are you going to use your words with Callie."

"I don't know. I mean she did the one thing I asked her not to do."

"She did save your life" I shrug

"I'll take away your oxygen mask"

"Sorry sorry" I laugh