Trapped In His Melanchony

Coping Mechanism

My stomach, it hurts.

It hurts.

I can't breathe...

Levi gasped just small amount of air, because if he do...the part where he was shot will be in severe pain.

His eyes are widely open but his vision is so foggy, that he could no longer see what's happening around him. Is he even conscious? Or is he dead?

"Levi? Levi hey. Get up bud. Get up. Let's go"

Zace?! Zace!!

He screamed in his mind. He tried to utter a word but nothings coming out, like he's paralyzed, deafen, blinded.

The sound of rattling leaves from the fallen trees, the wind that blowing in his sore wound and Zace's voice in the background. If that's the case, he's already dead.

This is not a good idea at all. Addison will surely not forgive him but what else he could do? He don't wanna leave of course. He wanna spend more time with Elvi, make Addi happy. He's dead and scared.

"Get up bud, we gotta go."

Now, his dead friend is calling him, like he's there to pick him to wherever the fuck after life is their up to.

Zace. Please! Don't drag me to hell yet.

Please.

Zace stop pulling me to my death.

"Levi, can you hear me?" his voice is echoing. Fuck, I am already dead. This can't be real.

The pain became dumber. His eyes were filled with tears. That's the only thing he could express how his heart is in pain right now. He regrey doing this, he regret planning not saying the real goodbye to them.

Addi...please still love me even death embraced me.

Don't forget about me. Still think about me, wife. I love you so much.

He tried to breathe hard as he felt his chest is being pressed hard. He is out of air. His mind is clouded as inch by inch, he felt like he's going to go to sleep.

"A--addi.." he sobbed, then his vision blacked out.

**

Addison been staring to the three pregnancy tests that turned out to have the same results.

Nakapungko siya sa sahig ng shower area, madungis at mahina. Ni ayaw na nga niyang tumayo sa kinauupuan dahil sa pagod ng katawan niya kahit na wala naman siyang ibang ginawa kundi kumain, sumuka at matulog.

"H-how can I do this?" pampit niyang sabi, sabay nagsimula na namang umiyak. "If I were just alone... It will be fine for me to starve and die." she confessed in the air. "Satingin mo ba madali sakin ang lahat Levi? Na nadudurog ako pero kailangan kong magpakatatag sa mga anak natin?!" now, she's alone again.

She rubbed her belly, to somehow comfort the little thing inside. After her tantrums, she felt guiltu saying those words. There is still hope left in her. Baka ito na talaga ang tadaha niya, ang puro pasakit at sakripisyo. Nakakapagod pero wala siyang magawa.

"Now I know why your dad wants to kill himself before....I am feeling it right now." she said, still rubbing her stomach. "But don't worry about me. I might live keeping all the misery, I will not going to let you experience being parentless like me before as a kid." she smiled as tears flown to her cheeks. "At least you still have me, right?"

It's been a week since Levi left, but still Elvi and her is staying to where they've been locked up. Ironic how she begged him countless time be freed yet now, she don't think of leaving anymore.