18. Scared of intimacy

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"She holds him close in her dreams, yet reality makes her afraid to let him too near

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"She holds him close in her dreams, yet reality makes her afraid to let him too near."

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K A R T I K

"Yes, baby, just a little more," I whispered, now fully inside her, thrusting slowly.

"please slow down," she moaned as I moved gently within her.

"It's so good, Lili," I murmured, sucking on her soft breasts while continuing to thrust.

"Ahh, please slow down," she cried beneath me.

"I can't," I breathed, my hands roaming across her naked body.

"Ohhh," she moaned louder as I thrust deeper inside her.

"I need more, Lili, harder... I can't hold back," I said, grabbing her legs and placing them on my shoulders, thrusting deeper.

"Ahhhh..."

I slipped her toe into my mouth, all while moving deeply inside her.

"Please wake up," I suddenly heard Lili's voice. I immediately opened my eyes and saw her standing in front of me. I looked around, disoriented, and then it hit me—I had been dreaming.

Damn. What kind of dreams am I having about Lili? I felt disgusted with myself.

"Please get ready, I have classes," Lili said, snapping me back to reality. My gaze unintentionally lingered on her lips, and before I knew it, my eyes drifted to her chest. I couldn't help but recall the inappropriate dream I just had.

Suddenly, I felt a surge of guilt. How could I have such thoughts about her? She's not ready for any of this, and here I am, consumed by desires that make me hate myself.

Without another word, I bolted to the bathroom. The first thing I did was punch the wall, frustrated at my own mind. Damn it! How could I let myself think like that about her? It’s wrong, especially when she isn’t ready. I shouldn’t be having these thoughts.

I turned on the cold shower and stepped under it, hoping the icy water would cool me down and calm my nerves. I needed to get a grip and focus. Lili deserves better than this from me—she deserves my patience, my respect.

After spending nearly an hour in the bathroom, I finally came out, dressed in a shirt and pants. I grabbed a comb and started fixing my hair when I heard Lili's voice at the door.

"Breakfast," she said softly.

"Go, I’ll be there in a minute," I replied, not wanting to face her right now. The disgust I felt for myself was overwhelming.

I finished getting ready, put on my watch, and all I wanted at that moment was to disappear from her sight. I buttoned up my coat and headed to the dining table.

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