FATE: KTH FF V/S JJK FF

part: 46(2)

When taehyung pushed open the ICU room door, while his eyes scanned the space until they landed on you, as you were lying motionless in the hospital bed. And to be honest just the mere sight of your condition took his breath away. He didn't know what he should feel or how he should react but one thing was done automatically by himself when the very male instinctively covered his mouth with his palm although his face was already covered with a mask and scrub, but like wise he couldn't help himself when it comes to his closest one, and who is more closest to him then you and Soohyung to him, and he did that act just to stifling a gasp or a cry cause he knows he will definitely lost when he witnessed you like this. Tears welled up in his eyes and in no time they also couldn't help but streaming down his face unchecked, and he felt his heart shatter into a million pieces.

He took a step forward and then another until he reached the particular place while his movements were slow and deliberate, as if he was approaching a fragile treasure. the male's  gaze roamed over your pale and dull  face, your closed eyes and then your still form making him nothing but his heart clenched in pure anguish, he still or maybe never in his entire life couldn't bear the thought of losing you. and he didn't want to say aloud but he badly want to cradle your limp figure in his arms and want to hug you until his heart full by your solace, he just wants to embrace you so badly and maybe  want to kiss you, to snatch your all pain and worry you're facing, and his thoughts releted you, doing nothing obvious but just describe how much you mean to him, how much your presence affect him, but despite that he didn't have any gut feeling to show it to you, because he knows that it was meaningless for him and that's why he was holding back all his emotions in his heart knowing that you were never his...

And repeating this thought in his mind taehyung bitterly smiled and wiped his tears with the back of his hand and took a deep breath, most probably trying to compose his breaking self. And after that he reached the bedside chair and sat down as slowly as he could, because he didn't want you to know his presence beside you, although while doing so his teary eyes never left your close one even for a moment, he was simply sat there while taking in the frailty of your form. After a few seconds of adoration his one hand automatically extended yet the hesitation was clearly seen, as if he was afraid to touch you because the IV lines which attached to your hands maybe cause a pain through you. But the saddened male's need to connect with you, and he is overwhelmed his doubts. And without hurting you he gently enveloped your hand in his for the last time, and he intervened his fingers with yours, and only he knew how your touch made him dead soul alive in second and  Within a quiet movement, the very male removed his mask and scrub provided by the hospital staff, and placed it on the bedside table. As now His face, unobstructed finally revealing his raw emotions which he was used to hide from you. The male finally leaned forward getting closer to your figure, while his breath warm on your skin as he planted a soft yet gentle kiss on the back of your hand, which was nothing but a whispered promise from his eyes, which were saying that you will never face this kind of situation because of him ever again, he will do everything all right in your life, His eyes again locked onto yours but they were pleading, longing for you to awaken to return to him, but he again blink his eyes to fade that thoughts because it's again going in different direction, where it shouldn't.....

Time stood still as taehyung sat beside you, because he still not able to form a complete sentence, he feels like his throat has lost its vocal system while his brain is lacking to find a proper words to communicate, he can feel only few things, and in one of few things was his heart, which were beating in tandem with the beeping machines. And The silence was oppressive punctuated only by the steady rhythm of life support. Yet, in this fragile moment taehyung found solace in your presence because you were near him..His eyes took your fragile sight before returning to your face and as expected it was filled with remorse... after that he again leaned forward but again stopped as if he wants to get closer to you but some boundaries stopping him, and now his face Just inches from yours. His voice barely above a whisper when he finally utters your name in one of the faintest and desperate voice.., "YN, I...i am..m so sorry." He mumbled while his words trembled echoing the anguish in his heart.