Clueless Boy - Minsung

Chapter 60

To apologize for his behavior, Jisung woke up to a whole buffet as a breakfast the next morning.

Fruits shaped in hearts, cute hot chocolates and some coffee, the table was dressed around the pretty flowers for a nice breakfast.

Jisung was the happiest, eating his breakfast eagerly as he couldn't stop thanking the boy, and Minho only kissed his forehead a few times as a response.

"Let's have a walk along Han River ?" Minho offered, wanting to have a little date.

"Yay" Jisung smiled cutely at that.

As soon as they got all dressed up, Jisung couldn't help but walk excitedly in the streets, holding Minho's hand.

He wanted to have a nice moment, knowing it'd be short. Jisung has to go to his shift in an hour or so.

"I never realized how much people get affected by their own emotions" Jisung said, talking mindlessly.

"Right ?" Minho chuckled "I can be very moody"

"You don't seem to be" Jisung said

"I am, though. I think you didn't realize. When I was pining for you while I thought you were straight, I was so damn sad. I was sulking for days, getting mad at the littlest thing, searching for other men to soothe myself. I'm really affected by emotions" He explained.

"Why am I not like that ?" Jisung asked curiously.

"I don't know... You spent so much time inhibiting your emotions while you were in your town ... It might be a traumatic response to all the pain you received when you did show emotions, you know ?" He thought for a moment "I still think you are, or at least, you're letting your emotions more and more out"

"Is it a bad thing ?" He asked

"Depends" Minho smiled softly "I think it's good to let it all out. It's important to not fill with too much, because it will explode someday. But, the way I did yesterday wasn't a good thing. I should have stated that I was being emotional and not discuss further about something that angered me"

"Anger is scary" Jisung mumbled.

"It is" Minho sighed "But it's a normal emotion, that we all bear with. We just have to know how to have the upper hand on it. I'm still working on it, even if I was born in a 'nice' place compared to you"

"Oh, I get it" Jisung mumbled, nodding.

Minho took a look at the boy, noticing how he seemed to be deep in thoughts.

"When was the last time you cried ?" Minho asked softly.

"Mmh" He thought for a moment "When Hyunjin insulted me and I went back to the dorms, I think. You saw me"

"And before that ?" He asked

"..." Jisung stayed silent, thinking about it "Can't remember" He shrugged

"I noticed already that you don't cry much" Minho stated, caressing his hand with his thumb.

"Is it bad ?" He asked

"Depends, again" Minho smiled "If you inhibit yourself to not cry, yeah, it can be bad for you"

"Oh okay" Jisung nodded, reflecting "Well, I used to cry a lot when I was little"

"What happened for you to stop ?" Minho asked, but he had a very clear idea of why.

"Men don't cry" He shrugged "I mean- I no it isn't ... But like, it's what I thought before arriving here"