That's The World?!『A Hetalia FanFic』

Chapter 55~ The Secret Pt. 2

"They have Tokyo Mew Mew!" I whisper-shouted.

"So. Much. Manga." Xero breathed.

"I can give you a boost if you need it," Daddy offered.

The shelves were stocked high with glorious books of manga. Xero showed me the manga versions of Soul Eater, Lucky Star, and Ouran High School Host Club. She leaned against the windowsill as she read silently. Her modest pose excited me, making my heart jump in place. I approached her less confident than before, but presented her the next volume that she needed.

"Olivine, where did Mr. Kirkland go?" She looked up at me.

"Um... I d-dunno. He was h-here a second a-ago," I searched around once more.

Daddy~? Da--" I quickly found him. He was deep into a manga that he had found.

"I'm so sorry Olivine, I didn't mean to stray away again. I just saw the name Phoenix Wright and--"

"I thought you didn't like manga~" I teased.

"Well, I never said that. I just prefer to read novels," he tried to hide his sass.

"Mmhm, sure. C-Come over here a-and join the g-group. One of us~ One of us~" I chanted.

"Alright, but only for a little while."

He followed me over to the place were Xero read. I sat across from her while Daddy sat on the floor. Climbing onto the seat, my attention was directed to the pouring rain. It knocked on the glass like an unwanted stranger. The mesmerizing sound echoed through the mute library, creating another realm. The cool touch of the window spiked the hairs on my neck and disrupted my breathing. I was left in a trance of peace... but a voice seemed to suffer.

"I know that Olivine means what she says, but I can't help but to face the truth: She doesn't need me anymore. She's all grown up inside, she just needs to get her power and memories back. I loved her too much, more than I loved myself. But who am I kidding? I never loved myself in the first place. Why would I love this cursed body? I never wanted to be immortal.

I never wanted to be alone.

I don't want to be the person I was before I met Olivine. I don't want her to see who I really am."

I immediately knew that the voice belonged to Cody. He said before that we have a certain bond. I was fully awake before the bubbly feeling was instantly replaced by a deep, deep whole in my heart. I never knew that he felt that way. I couldn't think of a reason why he would think like that.

He doesn't have any self confidence. But why? Why would he push himself down this far? Was it because of me? Because I suddenly left? Is he jealous?

It is my fault... isn't it? I never even considered his feelings with me poof-ing all over the place and how close we used to be. I don't... I don't even remember half of the times we shared. Just a few sparks here and there. I just don't want either party to think that I don't need them!

I want them both!

I WASN'T CREATED TO CAUSE DISCORD!

"Olivine, are you alright?" An English voice pulled me out of my abyss.

I didn't realize that tears were streaming down my face at a steady pace. I quickly wiped them away as Xero became aware. They wouldn't stop, my world was fading away. I tried to think of an excuse to use, but the manga in my lap seemed to be the only thing.