F A D I N G M E M O R I E S; {JACOB BLACK}

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𝑰 𝒓𝒆𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒕! <<<33333 Enjoy reading it! 

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4 Years Later

"Hey come on the pools warm and Aleah keeps begging me to go in!"

"Yeah I'm almost done," I said back as I grabbed an envelope. I heard his footsteps get closer as the door squeaked open. "Hey..whatcha writing  there?" I turned around as he leaned on the door frame I quickly put the letter in the envelope as I sealed it shut. "Done!" 

I slowly pulled back from the desk as I turned to him. 

"So when are you gonna mail those letters your writing? And most importantly who are they for?"

I smiled as I tried to change the subject, "Uhh there for me....like a d-diary!" I grabbed the towel on the bed as I hurried over. "Let's go then," I walked in front of Jake holding his hand.

It's been four incredible years raising Aleah together, from hearing her first words to seeing her first steps I couldn't be more grateful to see our family grow. Especially now that I'm almost 9 months pregnant with our son. 

Jacob asks why I'm writing all these letters that I've yet had time to "mail" or actually seal off. But the truth was these letters are for our kids. 

After giving brith to Aleah I knew the news was gonna come sooner than later. Life always finds a way to bite you in the ass. Writing these letters brings me peace knowing they'll be able to open them with each mild stone and each birthday that comes, knowing a part of me was there to guide them brings me a bit of joy. It's been hard to keep this a secret and I'll be known to be the one who notoriously held many secrets but I want my last few days of life to filled with happiness and not sorrow. 

I decided to write these letters because I was told last week that giving birth would take all of my energy that I have from fighting the leukemia without treatment for all these years.

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A few days later:

"Why are you so beautiful, sweetheart," Jacob asked Aleah as she played with the building blocks in front of her. 

She was too distracted as she finally said, "Because of Mommy and daddy!" I smiled as Jacob looked up at me as I sat on the rocking chair. 

"Will little brother take all of my toys?!!" She suddenly asked looking up at Jake. "U-Uhh no sweetheart he'll be too small to play with your toys but maybe when he's older you guys can share," he replied hoping she wouldn't have a tantrum. 

"Awww I wanted to play with him right now!" We both smiled as she frowned. 

"Well in the mean time your cousin Alex can play with you," I spoke as she looked upward. Her mouth turned into the biggest smile. "How about now? Is he gonna come play with me right now!!?!" I widened my eyes, "Hey maybe I can call his mommy and see if that alright with her," I replied fast. 

In the meantime Jacob continued playing with her as she got up running towards the make-up kit I bought her last week. "Come on daddy I'm gonna make you look super duper pretty like me!"