the biggest star in the world

Part title

i seriously can't find him anywhere i try calling him but he doesn't answer. i don't even see any of his friends.

i let out a breath and move the hair from my face.
walking to the girls change rooms i head for the showers. not in the mood anymore for a workout, i can always do it at home. this isn't even my gym.

the shower was freezing cold to get the sweat off me. and i got changed into jeans and a hoodie before calling caleb.

he didn't pick up. so i started to blow dry my hair. when i was finished i saw a text from him.

caleb
we're out for a drive what do you want

madeline
just wondering where you were.
why did you leave the gym

caleb
they were just finishing and invited us out, i couldn't find you she i thought you left

madeline
oh okay, ill see you later

caleb
yeah

i guess it is my fault i wondered off.
when my hair was dry i put my headphones back on and went outside where it was gloomy.

i walk down to the train station and wait for it since i had no ride home.

there was an old guy busking, genuine rats on the floor. luckily the train was there quickly and i was only a couple stops away.

after a smelly and loud train ride i really wasn't in the mood for partying. or seeing anyone really. but i already had messages asking what was wearing.

i said i didn't know yet and laid in my bed until 4pm.

i considered just going to the party in my jeans and a hoodie but i knew caleb would get mad i didn't dress up.

so i grabbed a tight dress and put a jacket over the top. brushing through my hair and starting on my makeup.

i really don't want to go.

but i invited violet and if im not there i feel bad for ditching her. it's okay, ill just take a nap half way into the night.

at 7 i get in my car and drive to chloe's. the second i get in there i take a shot. then i start to socialise.

caleb isn't here yet. i'm not in the mood to talk to him. me and nola are doing shots when i hear someone enter the room. spinning around i see violet looking goregous as ever, then i see her cunt of a girlfriend.

she sees me and grabs ambers hand to bring them over. "hey V im gald you made it, im madeline its nice to meet you amber" LIE

"im glad we could come madz, she sits beside me as amber sits linking their arms and resting her head on violets shoulder, genuinely dragging her down with clinginess. in my personal opinion at least.

i handed violet a glass my rings clattering against it. she takes it with no hesitation until amber hits her arm.

"hey! i said i dont want you drinking, whos going to take care of me in this house with a bunch of people i dont know" i cant stop my face from being disgusted until nola kicks me from across the table with a laugh.

"amber why dont i go introduce you to people?" nola said with that look in her eyes. i didnt even want to know what she was going to do.

"oh no i dont want to leave my girlfriend" she said clinging to her arm. i seriously lent back into the couch and stared at the back of violets head mentally trying to tell her that this bitch is fucking crazy.

"oh my gosh hes cute, violet ill be back" amber left all suddenly. and thats when i leant forward finally able to talk to violet.

"break up with herrrrrr" i whispered into the air and she hit my knee downing the next shot i had her to deal with the stress.

"madeline you know i cant" she says watching as amber shamelessly flirts with tristan. "she asked me yesterday for an open relationship, but i couldnt date anyone else" she shakes her head.

"violet watson. listen to me" i was tipsy at this point "this is a toxic relationship, its obvious you deserve better" i put my hand on her shoulder. then more people walked in and so did my annoying boyfriend.

im just petty. if he apologies ill forgive him. i know myself enough for that. so when he comes over and wraps his arms around my shoulders with my favourite flowers in hand i instantly smile.

"im sorry for leaving you, i should have checked better before i assumed you left" he kissed my cheek.

"its okay, baby" i kiss his jaw.

if im being so honest i had a bit to drink after that. to be specific 400mls of midori, 4 cruisers, many many sips of doubles, many many sips of vodka in all sorts of things, had some beer but that wasnt good, some other stuff and some other stuff.

i was aware of what i was doing but didnt always think before i acted. so right now i was on calebs lap out near the fire just relaxing.

"why dont we go upstairs" he said sitting up.

"caleb i dont feel like it" i said standing since he stood up. he grabbed my hand and started leading me back inside. just as we got to the stairs i realised we were inside. "caleb-"

"dude she said no" i hear violet pull me behind her.

"shut up, shes my girlfriend i can do what i want"

"you're not even drunk, whereas she cant stand" she said seeing me against the wall giggling.

"pretty lips its fine, caleb takes care of me always" i giggle sitting on the stairs playing with my shoes.

"yeah see, now mind your own business and go back to your girlfriend" he said holding my hand and pulling me to my feet.

"bye bye V" i laughed and blew her a kiss. i didnt realise what was happening until we were in a bedroom with his hands up my dress. "caleb" i said but shut up quickly. i didnt want to anger him.

a/n

it took days to finish this.

i dont even know what ive been doing with my life

this also isnt proof read. lowkey dont remember whats in it.