the biggest star in the world

communication is key

madeline's pov

i told caleb to come over. i don't care that it was 11pm. i had been staying up the last few night and i wasn't even tired yet.

he came right over and when i opened the door he had flowers in his hand.
"please, let me apologise. i don't want to loose you"

i fear you already have.

he passed me the lillies and i smiled finding a vase. "alcohol doesn't make me a good person" he started the conversation.

"i should start to put you first. rather than never hearing you out and putting my needs first. i know i have been a shitty boyfriend and i'm sorry. i'm starting my sober journey as i've realised i have a problem. i'm dropping some of the boys as they are bad influences and i want you to to realise i am trying to make a difference. i want to be a better person for you. you don't deserve to be treated how ive been treating you"

"caleb, i apreciate you trying to be a better boyfriend but ive given you so many chances" i sighed leaning against my kitchen bench.
"last night just added to it. like are you seriously pro life?"

"that's how my father raised me, he told me that a woman should take responsibility but i don't think that's always true. there's many circumstances where abortion is the right option. it really depends" he sat on on the bench stools across from me. "what i did to you wasn't right it was a childish move and not okay, please madeline. give me another chance"

"you have one more chance" i told him as a warning. he smiled and reached his hand over the counter for me to hold. "im being so serious caleb don't turn back into that guy" i made him promise he promised so i let him stay the night.

when i woke up in the morning i heard him singing hozier in the kitchen and it just reminded me of violet. i laughed at the comparison and left my bed to find him making me breakfast.

"i got coaching in an hour but i wanted to make you breakfast" he smiled passing me a hot cup of coffee.

he kissed my head before serving breakfast. he the proceeded to clean the kitchen before having to go.

i got ready myself for work and looked the most put together i have in ages. driving to work i played some music again as i was in a good mood. my holiday and the people i've been around in the last few days has been exactly what i needed.

i seriously expected to break up with caleb last night but ill give him another chance. what's the worst that can happen.

i just won't tell violet what he said the other night. it's in the past.
i got to work with 20 minutes till i start so i see what juices they have today.

i hugged violet when i saw her. moving back and forth. "what got you so happy" she said squeezing me back just as hard.

"my holiday worked, then when i got back i just spent it with my friends so im all good!"

"well im happy for you" we crashed onto the couch together and we talked until we had to start work.

"what are you doing after work today?" violet asked me as we walked with our pinkies interlinked to craft services.

"going over to caleb's" i said like it was nothing. i could feel her staring at me but i shrugged. "he apologised and he wants to be better"

"you are too forgiving"
"you say that like it's a bad thing" she just sighed and we grabbed our lunches.

scarlett came in and hugged me from behind my chair. scaring me a little but i hugged her back.
she joined out conversations and the day seriously went very smoothly.

afterwards i drove to caleb's he greeted me by the door with a kiss and i heard his little brother go ewwww from the lounge room. we headed to his room and i really wanted to get into some pyjamas.

i looked through my drawer in his room and found. clean set of underwear and some adequate pyjamas.
nola and i actually have matching sets it was this whole thing from a couple years ago about a 2 man but that never worked out. anyway i could have sworn i saw my set at home but im not surprised if it ended up here.

i had a shower and settled in the lounge room. he put on a movie and had his arm around me. he played with my hair and as calming as this was i couldn't fall asleep.

usually i have no problem sleeping, anytime anywhere. but right now i felt unable.

his mum made us dinner which i don't even realise she was making otherwise i would have helped.

it was just steamed vegetables and sausages. i ate most of it but gave the rest to caleb. i don't have much of an appetite.
after the movie i was pretty tired so i decided to go home.

i got all the way to my apartment before not being able to find my keys. i dug through my bag and even went all the way down to my car to see if i left them in there. when i didn't i sighed resting my head against the headrest. 

i could just sleep in here for the night. till im more functioning. then i remembered my app on my phone can unlock the doors.

this scarlett is what happens when i dont have atleast 2 coffees a day. and so i walked all the way back to my apartment. got inside and fell asleep on my couch.

i knew this was going to be the best sleep of my life.

a/n
i am not happy with how this turned out but it's fine.
we're about to get into the drama