the biggest star in the world

a penny for your thoughts

madeline's pov

at work the next day i see violet and run over for a hug. "morning V" i smiled at her.

"hey madz" she said back less enthusiastic.

"what's wrong?" i asked her. and she looked at me for a minute before looking at the ground.

"i broke up with amber, it was the messiest brake up i've ever experienced"

"oh im so sorry" i brought her in for another hug this time going on my tip toes so i can hug her better.

"it needed to happen, she was toxic, and the whole one sided open relationship thing wasn't and never would work" she explained but the tears welled in her eyes told me it hurt more than she's letting on. or something else happened that she wasn't telling me.

"okay so girls night tonight then, come over and we'll watch movies and eat icecream"
"thank you for trying to help but i think i want to be alone after work, to be by myself for a while"

"and that's completely valid, she was all over you, you probably didn't have much alone time" i assured her and we walked into headquarters.

not many people were on today. we were filming scenes in a school which the crew had built so it was mostly teenagers. i met some of the cast and we were all teenagers so we got along easily. some of them actually went to my school which im not surprised of because of the open casting call for my part. 

"so this is why you're barely at school" sienna commented, she was on the dance team at school and also in my english class. 

"yep. its really fun" i laughed and we were all in craft services i was eating warm pancakes. i then made a plate of some strawberrries, whipped cream, pancake and a glass of juice to hand to violet. i walked to her as she was by herself in a chair. 

"a penny for your thoughts" i said as i handed it to her. 

"ambers back in the hospital, her friend jt texted me, blamed me" she really didnt seem up for work today, i can only imagine how much this is ripping her apart inside. i wrapped an arm around her and i wish i could take her pain away. she doesnt deserve this. 

"i need you to believe me, it wasnt you're fault" "okay but it is. and i know that"

"if she was that dependent on you she needed help, its not healthy for either of you if that happens everytime you dont talk to her. you are your own person" i didnt know if i was being too insensitive but personally i think thats unhealthy. 

she stayed quiet and i knew she wanted to be alone so i went back to everyone else. "whos that" sienna asked me as i came back. 

"violet, shes also on the movie" 

"not social?" "no she is, just...not today" she wanted to ask further but i shook my head. soon the directors came in and talked us through todays game plan. it was going to be a long day. 

4 hours later 

this was our first break. it was half an hour so violet went to our trailer to get her social battery back. i was on the couch on call with caleb as he missed me apparently. although i was quite absent in the conversation as i thought about violet. 

"wait maddie and violet made out. girls got game" i hear the girls talking, my eyes flicker to caleb who had tilted his head and giving me a look that told me he heard it too. 

"madeline holmes you have some explaining to do" he said low and calm. i was scared. 

"caleb i told you this, im sure i did" my heart rate picked up as i continued. "violet is my love interest in this movie" 

"im not comfortable with you making out with a girl" 

"what you would rather it a guy?" i try to make light of the situation but he doesnt find it funny. "i understand your concerns and i can assure you nothing is going on, we're scene partners. its apart of the job" 

"its not good enough, you should have told me" 

"im sorry, ill come over later" 

"yes you will" 

he hung up on me and i felt sick to my stomach. so when violet re-entered the room and we shared the same look she looked at me confused. and nodded her head for me to follow her. i got up and she was grabbing a drink from the fridge.

"a penny for your thoughts" she quoted me offering me a drink as well. 

"it doesnt matter" i shake my head. her problem was definitely worse.

"hey thats not how this works" she said bumping my shoulder. she then literally reached into her pocket and passed me a coin. i  raised my palm and she presses it into the middle. despite the weight in my chest i laughed lightly. 

"calebs just mad at me, rightfully so" i shrugged. she could tell i didnt want to go into details. but luckily? unluckily?  we had to start filming again. and so grudgingly we walked back to set. 

after work i drove to calebs in silence. no music, no radio. just my thoughts. i genuinely thought it was more dangerous than blasting music. but when i got to his house i sat in my car for an extra 5 minutes. until there was a knock at my window.

"you coming in or what" it was his mum just getting home from work. i smile at her weakly and get out of the car to follow her in. "are you staying for dinner madz" she asked kicking her shoes off by the door. 

"im not sure yet" i answered and she nodded. caleb came downstairs and said hello to his mother before leading me upstairs. 

"why did you feel like you couldnt tell me this" 

"beacuse i knew how you would react" 

"how i would react! seriously maddie am i that predictable and familiar that you had to go make out with some GIRL" 

"caleb you know its not like that" 

"i know what its going to be like though, soon your skipping plans with me for her, and you're always together, then you will break up with me to go bang her instead"

"caleb im not going to go have sex with her! see this is why i didnt tell you, you overreact" 

"i overreact" he said flatly and took a step closer to me. "you never even want to have sex, sober atleast so how am i supposed to believe that you're still even into me" 

"you know i love you"

"oh yeah, then prove it" 

"im really not in the mood" 

"you owe me this much atleast" 

A/n 

DAY 5 RIGHT ON 11:59pm