A Taste of Heaven and Hell [COMPLETED]

EPILOGUE

EPILOGUE

KELLAN DRAKE DONOVAN

It's been two weeks since Viane and I broke up. It's been two weeks since she left me. Broken. Alone.

I woke up two weeks ago in a place I don't know. It was a pink room, filled with teddy bears from me, and girl things. I startled when I saw Andrea beside me, naked, and sleeping ever so peacefully.

I immediately pushed her away. We argued, I cussed her for doing this before I go home. I used the duplicate key she gave to me pero wala na siya. Her things, her shadow, her familiar steps were all gone, leaving her scent on her pillows.

I cussed and kicked what's in front of me. Hindi ko napansing umiiyak na pala ako habang nakaupo sa sahig. Damn! Damn! This is all my fault! I should have not left! I should have told her I love her so  fucking much. Pero nasaan ba ang pagsisisi? Sa huli.

I calmed myself down. Pumunta ako sa bahay ng tita niya but damn. Wala rin daw sa kanila. I went to Pia and Sab to asked them where she is. They did know where she is but they didn't want to tell me. I beg them to tell me.

But they just said: "She needs a break. In a beautiful place, alone. Let her go to figure out anything. She's tired and hurt, Kellan. Please."

I explained my side. How hurt I am also and broken without her. They hesitated again and told me to leave her alone, that she need time for herself.

Damn! I got to a bar that night. I was wasted and drunk and out of control. But I didn't got laid. Si Viane ang laman ng sistema ko. A friend of my brother saw me there knocked out on the counter. So the next day, I woke up to a fucking bedroom again!

Lily, Travis' wife got me a medicine for my hangover. Napansin ko ring may benda sa bandang pisngi ko. Pumasok si Travis.  Nakakunot ang noo niya at hindi maipinta ang mukha. He's angry and I don't know why. Why's he even angry?

"What happened?" he asked after almost half an hour of silenced.

"Nothing. I don't know? I was asleep." kaswal kong sagot sa nakakatandang kapatid ko.

"Nothing? You got a fight last night at the bar," matigas niya sabi.

My eyebrows raised. "I did?" He said yes. "No, I didn't." I don't remember anything last night but I remember exactly what happened that night we fought. It's still in my head. And everytime I think of it, there's a big pang in my chest. That caused me more pain than this one on my cheek.

His eyes narrowed. He's raging mad, I knew it. "You got a physical fight with a boy and a girl, Kellan. What happened to you? Who taught you to fight with a girl? Ganyan ka ba pinalaki ni mom?"

"I don't remember anything, Travis! I was drunk for fuvk's sake!" I yelled. He talked as if he doesn't do that. I know what he'd done to Lily before. Fucking put a drug on her and kidnapped her. Hindi ako ganun pinalaki ni mom, pero hindi ko pa iyon nagawa sa isang babae. I was drunk!

"Why did you got drunk?"

"Why do you even care?"

"Answer me, I'm trying to help you here as an older brother," he seriously said. I felt an awkwardness between us. Hindi ako sanay na tumutulong siya sa akin. He has his own kind of world. We're the total opposite. He is serious type and I'm the happy-go-fucky type of guy.

I sighed. "We broke up."

"Why?" he is so serious! Para siyang isang pulis na isang mali mo lang, mababaril ka na.

"It's my fault, kuya."

Umupo siya sa gilid na kama at naka-dekwatro ng upo. "Fucked up?"

"Yes," I said. I gulped, remembering what happened, controlling myself not to break down infront my older brother. "Saw me with Andrea. She kissed me, I don't know but I kissed her back. We fought that night and I left because I want to think. Pagkatapos, I woke up in bed with Andrea, I didn't know how I got there." I pressed my eyes to stop the tears. There's still a lump in my throat and I'm at the verge of crying. Damn! Not now!