Falling for them all

Realization

I shivered as I heard James voice in my head. Seeing that I was distracted Evan took the advantage to pin me down securely. He gripped my arms tightly to the ground as he kneeled over me.

I growled at Evan and yelled "let go of me damn it!"

"Ginelle!" Called Luke seeing my situation

James sped at him trying to take the advantage as he aimed his power at Luke's stomach. Luke was distracted but brought his attention back to James just in time to barely dodge his attack and swung his leg over at him. Seeing him shift, James stopped his attack and jumped out the way before he could land his blow.

Listen to me Ginelle! This isn't you. Remember! Back at the church. When we first met. Vincent said that your powers might overcome you. Fight it! Said James frantically into my mind as I struggle against Evan who was calling my name and begging me to become the real me. I wasn't listening to Evan. All I could hear was james voice.

Shut up! I thought then yelled aloud "This is me! Not my power! I'm in control! I'll never lose myself!"

Think about it! Ginelle would've never killed Alex. She wouldn't want all of this. The Ginelle I know was kind, naive, hopeful, and innocent! I promised vincent I would protect you! ....I promised I'd kill you if you ever lost yourself and take your soul.....BUT I DONT WANT THAT GINELLE! He yelled nervously and then quietly added.... I love the real you...I love her

I stopped struggling as tears filled my eyes. My necklace began to glow, slowly turning brighter. Evan let me go as he sheilded his eyes. James and luke stopped their fight to look over at us. My necklace flashed and envolped me in a warm, bright light. Images passed before my eyes. I saw my childhood. The innocent eyes of young girl. One that never yet knew of sadness nor pain. Playing with her beloved childhood friends and her precious big brother. I saw the day I received Mark. The biggest smile a little girl could have upon looking into the small husky's eyes. She knew then and there that he'd always be there for her.

I saw the day I met savi and Gabe. How I had tried to break up a fight between them before they got into trouble. It moved to the days we all spent together as friends. Having my three best friends over watching movies, eating snacks, making plans, and going aout together. I saw when I had met Cam I'm the library. Meeting Evan and James. The confusion of being the colored jewel that Vincent explained to me.

Then I saw images that made my eyes sting as I wept. The images of everyone's death in full detail. All I could think was, why did this happen! Why me? Why couldn't it have been someone else! They took away everyone from me.....They didn't need to die. This stupid war has to end. I'll make the rules change after this is over. For now.....they all fought for me. I need to do this. I need to even if I wish it was someone else.

The images had moved to the battle we had been previously fighting. I saw myself begin to internally snap as I stood up from Mark's still body. Then what I had done. I realized james was right. I had let my power consume me. This wasn't me. The light grew brighter than I had thought possible. The images stopped and then...there was nothing.