Erroneous (Andy Biersack)

Chapter Eleven

~Ashley Purdy~

Jade walked into the bus with tears running down her face. I could hear Andy yell outside. Jade jumped when he screamed and more tears ran down her face.
"Woah, woah, Jade," I said, standing up, "c'mere."
She walked over to me and I pulled her into my arms. She hugged me tightly and cried into my chest.
After about twenty minutes of her standing there crying, she pulled away.
"I'm going to change," she muttered before disappearing into the back of the bus.
She came back a few minutes later in some sweats, black Uggs, and her BMTH hoodie. Andy was sitting on the couch and there was an awkward silence haunting the room.
"Jade-" Andy tried, standing up.
She took my hand, disregarding Andy's comment and drug me outside.
"Can we go for a walk?" she asked.
"Of course, princess," I said. I put an arm around her waist and led her down the sidewalk.
We turned a corner as I asked, "Do you wanna tell me what happened?''
"Juliet's pregnant. Andy got her pregnant while he was with me. I told him whatever we had was over and now I feel like shit. I love Andy, Ash. I can't live without him. I thought I could, but I can't. I need him in my life, every day. But, he can't be. He's an asshole. He got my fucking sister pregnant literally an hour after he kissed me in the middle of the hallway in a hotel. He had just told me he loved me. Has he been lying to me this whole time?" she questioned.
"No, Jade. He loves you. You mean the world to him. But honey, Juliet loves him and didn't know. She hadn't seen him in forever and they were in a hotel room, alone. Think about it. What did you expect?"
"I-I don't know. I was just way in over my head, I guess," she sighed.
"Just talk to him Jade," I advised.
She nodded, "Can we go back?"

~Andy Biersack~

Ashley and Jade walked back in the bus. I stood up, expecting Jade to walk right past me, but she didn't. She walked right towards me and hugged me. I hugged her back and smiled, "Hey."
"Can we talk?" she asked, looking up at me with her perfect blue eyes.
I nodded and we walked to the back on the bus and sat down on the couch back there.
I closed the door and Jade sighed, "Andy, I love you. I do, I really do. But, we can't keep doing this. It's finally come clear to me what I have to do. When you break it off with my sister, I'll be back. I'm done living a lie. I'm quitting merch and I'm going home. I don't want to be around Juliet, so I'm going to live with Blake. He's coming to pick me up tonight. He'll be here in about two hours."
She had tears forming in her eyes as she leaned over and kissed me. The kiss was slow and full of love. I pulled her to me, not breaking the kiss. She bit my bottom lip, something that had become a habit of hers whenever we kissed. I wasn't complaining. I absolutely loved it. Jade crawled over me and straddled my waist, deepening the kiss. Damn, was I going to miss this. Her arms laced around my neck and mine snuck around her waist. Her tiny fingers played with my hair as I kissed her. She pulled away a little and took a breath of air before reconnecting our lips. This kiss was a little different. It gave me the same feeling Juliet's goodbye kisses used to give me; a sorrowful feeling of knowingness of the fact that she was about to leave me. A tear fell down Jade's face as she pulled away from me. Her normally bright blue eyes were a dark blue color, full of sadness. I sighed and she crawled off of me.
"I love you," she whispered, before leaving the room.
I sighed and put my head in my hands. All of this because one stupid, stupid mistake.

~Jade Aslenna Simms~

Tears ran down my face as I packed my stuff. I looked in Andy's bunk for my cigarettes when I looked at the sort of wall behind it. Pictures of him and I littered the wall along with a few pictures of Crow. One of him and Chance was stuck to the wall. A note I had written him was also taped up, along with the sucky drawing of him I did. I liked his hair better when it was long so, that's how I drew him. I remembered drawing it.
I sat in the bus staring at my laptop. On the screen was an old picture of Andy. The boys were performing and I could hear screams and Andy's singing all the way over here. I drug my pencil over the paper one last time and admired the work. I started to crumble it up but, changed my mind. Instead, I signed it and tossed my drawing pad to the side, along with my pencil. I sighed, closed my laptop and walked into the mini fridge. I took out the bottle of Jack Daniels Andy had bought me yesterday. After pouring myself a cup, I plopped down on the couch, turned on TV, and started to sip on my drink.
I was nearly asleep, and working on my third cup of Jack Daniel's when I heard Andy's laughter echo through the bus. I yawned and he walked in.
"Hey baby," he said, leaning down and pecking my lips. He reeked of cigarettes and sweat. I smiled and pulled a blanket over my body. I took the last couple sips of my drink and sat it on the table.
"Holy shit, who drew this?!" I heard Jinxx yell from the back of the bus. He ran in and showed it to all the boys.
"That's Jade's signature," Andy smirked. I yawned and Andy kissed my forehead.
Ashley nodded, "That's really good."
I smiled and Andy asked, "Why'd you draw me with long hair?"
"Because, baby, I loved your long hair. I wish you would grow it back out," I answered groggily.
He nodded and the next morning I woke up to find it taped to the side of the bunk.
Tears weren't foreign to me as I jammed Andy's Batman shirt into my bag. I looked at the bunk one last time and noticed the note I had written him taped to the top, exactly where I had put it. I wiped a few tears and read the note.
Andy,

Hi baby. Sorry I'm not there. We both know I needed a little break from merch. I'm sorry for not waking you up when I left to catch my flight. You just looked so cute and peaceful, just laying there sleeping. You were drooling by the way, Batman. I took your Batman shirt with me just in case I missed you too much. I'll call you everyday. I know the schedule, so I'll make sure it's not during a show. I actually want to try to call you ten minutes before each show, but if I don't, I promise you'll hear from me. I'll be careful while I'm away Andy. You tell me to be careful each time I leave. Anyways, I'll be back before you know it. It's only a couple weeks, right? I sound like I'm trying to reassure myself rather than you, don't I? It's okay. My nerves are really panicky right now. I'm scared to fly. I've never done it before. But, you told me I'd be fine, so I will be. I'm going to miss you baby. A lot. I may end up coming home early. You wouldn't mine would you? Of course you wouldn't. Andy, I'm not even gone yet and I already miss you. That's crazy isn't it, babe? I hope this is the first thing you see when you wake up. Text me when you read this, please. I think it's settled, I'm coming back early. I'm going to have to, I think. You have become like oxygen to me; a necessity to life. I'm unable to live without you. You're like a fucking drug Andy, and I am so addicted. Drugs are risky, just like whatever it is we have. I'm scared Andy. What if Juliet finds out? I swear I heard the click of a camera when you kissed me backstage a week ago. I know, I know, I'm being paranoid. I just need to relax and stop worrying about it, right? Right. Well, Andy it's about time for me to leave. Again, sorry for not waking you up. I love you and I already miss you, baby. I'll see you in a week or two. Mwah! I love you, Andy. I can't say it enough. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you Andy Biersack.
Love,
Jade (eventually) Biersack

I pursed my lips and grabbed Andy's cologne bottle and his pillow. I shoved them in my bag and gave him my pillow. I sat one bottle of my perfume where his cologne bottle previously sat. A couple more tears ran down my face as I closed the curtains on Andy's bunk. I was leaving. I couldn't believe I was actually leaving.
"Jade, Blake's here princess!" Ashley's voice rang out.
"Okay, I'm coming!" I choked out. I walked into the front of the bus and handed Blake my bag. I then turned back and took a final look at the bus. I hugged everyone and was about to leave when I felt someone tug on my hand. I was pulled back and enveloped in someone's arms. I was so disoriented, so the person lifted my chin with their fingertips. I looked up to see Andy's big blue eyes that I had fallen in love with. He leaned down and connected our lips.
The kiss, like many we had shared lately, had been slow and loving. It gave me this feeling. This feeling I couldn't explain. This kiss gave me the assurance that this boy, he loved me, no matter my decisions. This kiss let me know, that this was real. This kiss, gave me the pure truth, that I was leaving the boy I loved. This kiss told me that it may be the last one I'll ever get from these lips. This kiss left everyone in the room silent. This kiss was unexplainable.
Andy pulled away from me but, let the kiss linger. A tear fell from his eye. I was quick to wipe it away. He grabbed my hand as I began to return it to my side and intertwined our fingers. I looked up at him and saw the sadness in his eyes disappear for a few seconds. And those eyes were what I'd remember. Not the ones filled with agony and heartache, but the ones who lost those feelings for a split second. The ones that were full of his love and astonishment for me were the eyes I'd remember. Those were the eyes I'd go home and paint, mixing all my blues together until I got the right color. Those were the eyes I fell in love with.
Andy kissed me one more time before pulling completely away from me.
I smiled, a real smile. I smiled a real smile for the first time today, making Andy return his own first real smile of the day.
"I love you, Batman."
"I love you, Batgirl."